Very depressed!

When I was killed in the third year of the Department, I felt very bad all of a sudden. I was very unwilling to accept it. The examiner was simply using his own little power to kill me, but since he died, he didn't want to care about so much. How could everything be so smooth? In such a depressed mood, I recall some unhappy things to fight against poison. Why are men not cruel to themselves?

During that time, my relationship with my ex-girlfriend had reached a dead end. I knew in my heart that it might be over. It was also a kind of unwillingness to force me to care and torture myself constantly. I said, since I want to break up, I must explain it in person! I seemed to have some hope for her, hoping to keep her in person. She must have been in pain during that period, but the only difference was that when she was in pain, there might be a man comforting her, and I was fighting alone. She agreed to my proposal and came to my city by train a few days later.

Although she came, my heart was not as hot as before. It was cold deep inside. I was tortured by that relationship. Many times I blame myself for why I was so in love! Why can't I let it show off my freedom! I can't remember the first expression she had when she came here for the last time. It seemed very happy, so I pretended to be indifferent to greet her. But among so many expressions, what I remember was a smile and not smiling. That expression was very hurtful. I could tell from her expression that she no longer loved me so much. Maybe she wanted to finish this matter immediately and return to another man. I never wanted to accept that reality for her betrayal of feelings, because it was a shame for a man. But since she could still come, I felt that she was already a little conscientious. Love it and get together and part.

It is easier said than done to say it, but it will be even harder to do. For me, it will be even harder. Of course, everything takes time to fade.

She was lying on the bed that day and staring at me. I pretended to be unpredictable, closed my eyes tightly, tidying up the mess in my heart. When I opened my eyes to look at her, two tears flowed on her cheeks, and tears were flooded in her eyes. My heart was curdled at that moment, and I really wanted to wipe her tears as before. But this time I didn't. I asked her why she was crying?

She cried and said to me that I'm afraid I will never have a chance to meet again. My heart hurts a little again, yes! I never have a chance to meet again. At that time, I was very sad and held back my tears and said to her, "It's okay, you can still be friends after breaking up!" When I said this, I felt so fake. After breaking up, I was too far from my bottom line. The reason why I said such a very sensational sentence against my sincerity was mainly to relieve her sadness and give me a chance to cushion.

I don’t know how to spend the last time together, which will leave unforgettable memories for the future.

On the way to Donghu Park, we were sitting on Bus No. 5. I kept holding your hand and wrote the Chinese characters "No Breakup" in your palm. I wrote it over and over again, all the way to the Donghu Park station. You said proudly, you should divide it, and you should divide it no matter what you say. I could only smile helplessly at that time. Since your idea has been decided, then divide it. Anyway, the purpose of your trip was to break up!

My heart was completely destroyed, and I felt that there was no strength in my legs. I simply sat on a chair in the park, and you turned to look at me and urged me to leave. But do you know that I no longer have the strength to take another step.

Well, since you have made a decision, I will no longer try to keep you. You can leave anytime, I know very well that someone is still waiting for you to go back!

I joked that day, I wanted to beat you up and break up. You answered to me calmly, yes, but some people also wanted to cut you into pieces. My heart was cold again, yes, if I was still in your world, naturally someone wanted to cut me into pieces, which means that the man was still a little bloody.

The day before leaving, we retreaded Quanhu Park together.

We are much silent than before. I am so tired that I can't say anything. And you, I want to be silent just to deal with me. When we walked to the wooden bridge on the lake, you suddenly stopped leaving. I walked in front and turned around to ask you why you didn't leave. You looked at me lustfully and said to me, suddenly I was reluctant to leave. I smiled at her, and at that moment I didn't know what to say, so I turned my eyes to the lake.

"I really want to hug you now!" She suddenly said to me.

I looked around and saw some tourists. I said, why do I feel shy when I suddenly have this idea? There are so many people. You ran to me and hugged me. I was a little at a loss. Should I hug you? Or push you away? Such a uncomfortable problem stumped me all of a sudden, so I chose Daimu, Mu stood there blankly, you hugged me, and leaned your head on my shoulder. That hug represents a long farewell. I dare to assert that we have become friends in the next life and will never meet again in this life.

You changed your mind again, let go of your hands, and said to me, "Let's not break up! I still feel that I love you very much!"

I was a little shocked after hearing this, but I couldn't believe it. Because my intuition told me that we were no longer suitable to go on. After hesitating for a long time, I asked in surprise: "Really? Can you really not break up?"

You nodded slightly.

"Haha, it's great! Just don't break up, just don't break up!" I was a little flattered and carnival.

Although you said you wouldn't break up, my heart was already scarred, and I was thinking that you would definitely change your mind.

I took you on the train, and I looked at the train car and didn't want to leave for a long time, because there was you in that carriage, and the shadow of your departure. Train, please be late! Don't take my favorite person away, okay?

Looking at the train gradually moving away, I burst into tears. Goodbye, she.

When you left less than a day, I received your text message.

"Let's break up!"

When I saw this message, it was like a bomb that was about to explode immediately. All bad moods surged into my heart and completely lost my mind. But I couldn't let others think that I was a lunatic. I tried my best to control my collapsed psychological defense line.

Crazy! Depressed! Cry!

When you are sad, you will cheer up, and my soul is scattered by something inexplicable. Now my heart is completely ruined. I even thought about committing suicide and I want to end all the pain. In my opinion, becoming a monk does not mean my determination to see through the world.

The story ended and ended with her.
Chapter completed!