Okazaki returned to the sunflower field. He had been here at the beginning, and now Xiao Xi is here.

He had forgotten his happiness at the beginning, and Xiaoxi was looking for the happiness she longed for.

"Have you been looking for it all the time?" Okazaki looked at Xiaoxi's small figure, walked over, and stared at his daughter with his unprecedented concentration - he had never looked at her with such a gaze before.

A small figure shuttled through the flower fields, confusion and sadness hung on her face, she was always looking for it.

"Yes." Xiao Xi lowered her head and made a muffled sound.

Okazaki looked at Xiaoxi and thought of her young self and her father who had been leading him forward. He squatted down. Xiaoxi raised her head and looked at her father. Okazaki said to Xiaoxi gently: "Xiaoxi, that robot... may not be found anymore. This is impossible. I'll buy you a new one, okay?"

Xiao Xi lowered her head sadly, and tears were already rolling in her eyes, as if she was about to fall down in the blink of an eye, but she was locked in her eyes - because this is not a place to cry.

"That's unique..." Xiao Xi whispered.

Very disappointed, sad, and stubborn.

"Aren't there many selling in the store?" said Okazaki.

"It was chosen for me, bought for me..." Xiao Xi clenched her fists and clenched her skirt hard.

Okazaki was stunned. Xiaoxi raised her head, looked at her father, and said, "It's dad, the first time..."

Okazaki widened his eyes and his throat swelled twice, as if a stone was stuck in his throat. Complex feelings such as sadness, regret, pain, etc. surged into his heart.

He lowered his head.

Xiao Xi has been five years since her birth.

But this was the first time she had received a gift from her biological father.

It is not such a precious item, and it doesn't even look like a toy that girls should play with. It's just a very ordinary and cheap one. There are a lot of robot toys on the container in the convenience store at the station.

However, this was the first time my father bought her a gift. For her, this gift was unique!

This gift is more expensive than anything!

How did Xiaoxi get through her childhood?

When she saw other peers had mothers, she... had never seen her mother before.

When she saw that other peers had fathers, she... knew that she had a father, but she had never lived with her.

What about her when she saw other peers ask their parents “how did they come from”?

It was just a joke that other parents said "picked up" but Xiao Xi really picked it up - she was abandoned by Okazaki.

Parents are people who are very familiar to others, protecting them, cooking for them, and bringing them laughing.

But for Xiaoxi... Xiaoxi didn't know what "father" and "mother" were.

No matter how much Saeno and Akito like Xiaoxi and care about Xiaoxi, they are not "parents" after all, and their love is different from their parents' love.

So the night she lived with her father, she asked her father something - tell me what she was doing.

Everyone has her mother, but for Xiao Xi, she can only understand a very, very vague shadow from others, and can no longer feel it with her own body and mind.

A very ordinary question is so sad, heartbreaking and loving.

For most people, they can receive countless gifts from their parents from birth, but for Xiao Xi, this is the first gift since birth.

For her who has almost never received fatherly love, this represents the love she received from her father!

So, this is a gift that is more precious than anything for her.

After losing it, she was sad, frightened, and stubbornly wanted to find the gift, because in her little understanding, her father would not live with her. After the trip, her father would leave again, and she could not play with her father like this, and she could not enjoy such time with her father.

This gift is not only a memory of this wonderful time, but also a love from her father. As long as she has this gift, even if she can’t live with her father like today after she goes back, she can hold the robot and feel the warmth of love carried on it.

If this gift is thrown away, she seems to have lost her father's love.

For her, who was very curious and eager for her father, she was afraid of losing this hard-earned fatherly love.

So, she wanted to find it anyway—the love of her lost father!

Countless scenes and words flashed through people's minds, and finally formed a small lonely figure looking for the lost things in the flower field - Xiao Xi.

However, these are just things that happened in a moment, but at this moment, the strong embankment in my heart was washed away by the tears tsunami.

"Xiao Xi."

"Um?"

"You have always been lonely..." Okazaki suddenly asked.

"Yeah." Xiao Xi replied in a low voice - she was very lonely.

"Do you feel happy to travel with me?" Okazaki's voice became softer.

"Yeah!" Xiao Xi nodded vigorously.

"Xiao Xi," Okazaki's voice began to tremble, his head lowered, as if he had no face to face his daughter, "Can I be by your side? Although I have been an incompetent father for a long time, I will work hard for Xiao Xi in the future. So, can I be by your side?"

Okazaki raised his head, tears flashed in his eyes, looking at his daughter, Xiao Xi, full of expectation and pleading.

This is an incompetent father who begs for forgiveness from his daughter.

He is also an incompetent father, atonement for his daughter and wife.

"Yeah!" Xiao Xi nodded seriously.

"Really?" Tears appeared in Okazaki's eyes, as if he could not believe that his daughter, who had been abandoned, would actually forgive her incompetent father.

"I hope you will be with you." Xiao Xi said very surely.

This sentence not only cured Okazaki, but also as for countless fans. This is the most anticipated wish of a child. No matter how his father was, she finally wanted to live with her father. This is love that no one can replace and make up for.

However, Xiao Xi lowered her head again, her mood became depressed, and her tender voice was sad: "But today I went to something very important, so I was very sad..."

It was the first time she received her father's gift since she was born.

"Dad, that." Xiao Xi's shoulders trembled slightly, and her voice began to sob. She lowered her head and held her clothes with both hands. "Is there any need to endure it anymore? Saeko said that the only place where you can cry... is the toilet..."

While on the train, because the child next to him who acted coquettishly against his mother was hooked up, Okazaki turned his inner pain into anger and roared at them. Xiao Xi was frightened by Okazaki's appearance.

When she ran to the toilet, she came out, her eyes were red, and she said that the only place she could cry was the toilet.

How heartbreaking is it? I wonder how many times Xiao Xi went to the toilet when it was silent and no one was around?

Faced with all kinds of grievances and sorrows, how many tears did she shed secretly in places where people could not see it?

People reminded each other of the way Xiao Xi said this to Okazaki when she was on the train: she looked at Okazaki timidly, a little curious, a little start, a little scared, and wanted to speak but stopped.

She didn't finish her sentence at that time.

"…and in my father's arms."

The only places where you can cry are the toilet and the dad's arms.

Xiaoxi has never felt what it feels like to embrace her father.

This ordinary sentence made countless fans burst into tears again.

The only places where you can cry are the toilet and the dad's arms.

How much loneliness is Xiao Xi’s simple words full of, and his yearning for his father?

"Yeah, yeah!" Okazaki nodded vigorously, and tears finally burst out from his eyes, crying out regret, guilt, etc.

Xiaoxi lowered her head and rushed into Okazaki's arms. Her small arms hugged Okazaki tightly and buried her head on Okazaki's shoulders. Her shoulders trembled more and more violently, and the sob gradually turned into a wail. When she raised her head, her face was already filled with tears.

She finally no longer has to endure the tears of sadness. She can cry loudly in her father's arms without restraint.

She finally no longer had to look for the cold toilet, her father's warm and powerful embrace could tolerate everything she had, dispel all her sadness, and let her dare to feel a sense of security, warmth and happiness that she had never had before.

Okazaki hugged Xiaoxi with her backhand and hugged her small body hard, trying to hold Xiaoxi in her arms forever and never let go.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." Okazaki murmured in a low voice.

The crying of the two people echoed on the open sun flower fields.

This is a sad cry.

But it is also a cry of happiness.

Xiaoxi no longer has to rely on that toy to feel her father's love and warmth, because she has already obtained the love and warmth she once dreamed of, and can hold her father forever with her warm arms.

"Xiao Xi, do you want to hear your mother's story?"

"Um."

"Okay, then do it here."

Not long ago, Xiao Xi wanted Okazaki to tell her mother's story, but Okazaki was immersed in the sadness of Nagisa leaving, escaping everything and was unwilling to mention anything about Nagisa.

On the return train, Okazaki brought up this topic to Xiaoxi that she had been avoiding.

This is the story of his wife and Xiaoxi's mother.

Xiaoxi sat next to Okazaki, who looked at Xiaoxi gently and slowly told Nagisa's story.

"I think about it..."

"Mom, she seems to cry at any time. When she first saw her, she was so unconfident and weak. She kept standing under the ramp at school, and then guess what she said under the ramp. She actually closed her eyes and said 'bean paste'..."
To be continued...