Although the food has been served, Qin Xi didn't eat today's meal. Maybe it gave me time to think about it, or maybe he also needed to think about it.

Qin Xi is a well-informed person. He knows our common purpose. He can also tolerate and understand everything I hide in my heart. But as he said, he is somewhat unwilling to accept it. I would not feel comfortable with this person next to me.

People, there is another person in mind.

Qin Xi said that she didn't want to tell me these words. If she didn't say them, she might just be confused. But the older we get, the more cautious we need to be. Qin Xi did the right thing.

Fortunately, except for Li Baitian, most of the people I met were good men.

After he left, I sat there stupidly, thinking about what he said.

"What would it be like if Li Baitian saw you like you today?"

The decorative pillars on the side were smooth and reflective, and I looked at what I looked like today. She was wearing a light pink dress that was elegantly tailored yet gentle, with silver leaf earrings layered on top of each other. Her medium-long hair was all combed back into a small bun.

Updo, light makeup, pink lips.

I bought these clothes and earrings after I resigned, and I started growing my hair after I resigned. Before I resigned, I wore simple professional attire at work, black and white. Outside of work, I had rare rest time.

I feel like wasting time dressing up, doing whatever is convenient for me.

I have never let Li Baitian see me look like this at the moment. Except for social occasions that I have to attend, I have never dressed up for him alone.

Facing a table of dishes, she clung to Qin Xi's words and looked at the empty seat opposite. It was as if she could see Li Baitian sitting there, eating unceremoniously, picking here and there with his chopsticks.

"This is good, do you want to try it?"

"This bamboo shoot is far worse than the one in Dongsi Tiao."

A few years ago, when he saw my appearance today, he might have said, "I won't go into what you look like after junior high school."

Two years ago, he might have said, "Dressed like this, are you going on a blind date?"

And now I don’t know what he might say, maybe he won’t say anything at all.

We think we know a person well enough, but we ignore that everyone is changing. Suddenly one day you find that he has changed and you don't understand him anymore. What's left is the fear of time and the impermanence of things.

I tried my best to think about it, but unfortunately there was no one across from me.

There was no Qin Xi or Li Baitian, just a table of delicacies that no one shared.

Will I stop eating now that Qin Xi is gone? It’s not necessary.

So I ate, looking at so many dishes with chopsticks, including bamboo shoots, Li Baitian’s favorite. After a table of dishes was placed, he would always eat something vegetarian first to appetize.

Then there is the barbecued pork. The barbecued pork has just been served. It is hot, fresh and tender, and the ground is still sizzling. Li Baitian hates this kind of freshly cooked food. Sometimes he swallows his saliva exaggeratedly. I can't see it either.

Swallow it often.

But looking at it now, I don't have the urge to swallow. I try to recall that feeling. My mouth is still dry. I take a sip of the drink at hand. I remember that I always had the habit of biting the straw in the past. Every time Li Baitian drank me

When I drank the rest, I would swipe my bitten straw with my finger in disdain, saying it was to wipe away the saliva on it.

I have no appetite, but I want to eat and savor the fading feeling with every bite.

Thinking about what Qin Xi said and what Li Baitian said to him, I can imagine Li Baitian's expression when he said those words, and I can even imagine his mood.

"If she wants to be strong, let her do everything."

"She actually has a good temper. Her anger is superficial, so you just pretend to coax her."

"Don't choke her. No matter whether you choke or not, she won't be happy in the end."

"Zhou Wenxue is a good woman, treat her well."

I thought about it and cried while eating it. I gnawed on the chicken wings. I didn’t care about the image anymore and just shed tears.

For a long time, I couldn't remember what Li Baitian looked like, but now his image clearly appeared in my mind. I wanted to catch him, grab him very hard, and stop him from running away.

But he was there and there was nothing I could do.

I wanted to finish the food on the table, but there was nothing I could do. I don’t know how much I ate, but my throat couldn’t swallow it. I kept eating as hard as I could, trying my best to prolong the meal. I knew that after finishing it, I

A new decision needs to be made.

I hate Li Baitian, I hate Li Baitian. Every time I decide to let go of him and find my own happiness, he comes out to cause trouble in various ways.

The last bite of the apple came into my mouth. It took me a long time to swallow it, so I simply left the restaurant with my mouth puffed out.

When I returned to my room, I thought I needed to find Li Baitian again anyway. I turned on my phone, pressed the l key, and skillfully scrolled to the fourth name, only to find that it was not Li Baitian's name.

Li Baitian's name has been deleted by me a long time ago. But I don't know his phone number. I have never paid attention to his number.

When I am impulsive, a small thing can often stop me. I threw my phone aside, sat on the bed with my knees in my arms, looked at the gradually dimming window, looked at the gradually brightening neon lights, and saw that I could not calm down.

heart.

I was tired, so I went to sleep.

Qin Xi didn't propose to me, and our relationship ended completely after this trip. As long as I'm still entangled, it means I can't let go.

He gave me time until he didn't want to give it anymore, just like Yuan Ze said he would wait for me until he didn't want to wait anymore.

I know that there is nothing in this world that must be done by you. I know that I will eventually miss Qin Xi again, but at this time, my state of mind is that I can’t miss it.

When I returned to Beijing, I once considered whether to talk to Li Baitian. Although I said that if he took the initiative to come to me, he would be his grandson, but I found that there is no such thing as a grandson.

I drove downstairs to the advertising company. It was already time to get off work. I watched the familiar people filing out one by one. I looked at them and saw Li Baitian and Youyou walking out side by side.

Youyou is wearing red clothes, and her smile is still very sweet. Li Baitian is also smiling at him, with the same easy-going expression as when talking to me. When letting Youyou get in the car, he will first help her open the door, with a gentle palm.

Touch his back gently.

And I thought about it, and it seemed that Li Baitian had never treated me so considerately. Because when I got in the car, I was not in a hot mood, so I didn't give him a chance to be considerate and gentle.

Watching Li Baitian's car drive away, I lay on the steering wheel and remained silent for a while. I didn't have too many emotions, I just felt very tired.

It was me who wanted to leave in the first place, and it was me who left so resolutely.

I don't want to be with Qin Xi because I don't want to give him unfair and unfocused love, but that doesn't mean that if I don't want to be with Qin Xi, I have to go back to Li Baitian.

Maybe my original idea was right, I wanted to get rid of Li Baitian and start a new life, but it was not the only way to get married.

I have contacted some old friends, my health has recovered, and I will have to start working again sooner or later. A company that is not Li Baitian's home is certain, but the platform they gave me is enough for me to use this experience to find a company.

A job of comparable quality.

It's just that I need to understand the industry situation now and choose which company is better to apply for.

After a period of such confusion, one day when I was clubbing with my friends, I met Ah K. Ah K is now a small star, but he is still as polite to me as he was then.

I was invited by him to have a glass of wine, and Ah K said to me: "Sister, thank you."

"Why are you thanking me?" I said with a smile.

Ak nodded and said, "If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be here today."

"That's because you have talent. Come on, sister, even though I'm not star-chasing, I will still go to your concerts in the future."

"Sister, you're welcome. Ah K really liked you at that time, and I knew you looked down on me. If you hadn't found someone to introduce me to the record company, I don't know which bar I would still be singing in now. Thank you very much.

"

After asking a few more questions, I found out that Li Baitian had approached Ah K to ask him to stop pestering me, and also gave him a way to find a producer in his own name.

There are many unappreciated people in this world, all they need is a chance.

I didn’t say anything. If K wanted to blame me for thanking me, let him do it. When I came back from here, I passed a booth and saw a girl drinking, and the people next to her were making noises.

I only paid a little attention and saw Youyou’s profile.

Why is she here alone, where is Li Baitian? After all, I don’t know Youyou well, and it’s not my turn to care about what happens to her and her friends.

However, where I was sitting was very close to Youyou, and I couldn't help but take a look at it, intentionally or unintentionally.

The result of my observation is that she seems to be looking for a friend, a girl who looks very weak but very beautiful.

Youyou was coaxed into drinking half a bottle of pure foreign wine. I was silently worried because I felt that those people didn't look like good people, and Youyou didn't know these people.

I looked around and still didn't find Li Baitian.

Youyou is trying to pull the girl away, but the girl refuses to leave. Those unscrupulous people over there obviously intend to make things difficult for her.

I still sat patiently until there was almost noisy there, so I just walked over.

Youyou was pushed by her friend and sat on the table. She seemed to have bumped into something and was a little at a loss. I just wanted to help her solve the problem. A woman who just passed by pointed at my nose and asked, "What the hell are you doing?"

Who is it again?"

I don't want to see these people hanging out in nightclubs and treating themselves as characters. Some people are afraid of them, but I, Zhou Wenxue, am really not afraid now that I'm old.

Sneered, "Your grandma."

The little girl in front of me immediately became angry. I pulled away the girl Youyou wanted to take away and threw her into Youyou's arms. I grabbed a Budweiser bottle and weighed it in my palm. "What's the matter? You want to bully her."
Chapter completed!