I took a selfie with a scissors on my phone. I felt a little silly. Just be stupid. I don’t know much about selfies.

Who do you want to send it to?

I guess Li Baitian should have recovered now. Although he needs rehabilitation, there should be nothing else, that is, his hand is seriously injured. I don’t know how it is now, whether he can move, whether he can take things, etc.

I guess I can only use my left hand to hold a spoon now.

Li Wei has my contact information, and she should have given Li Baitian. According to Li Baitian's previous enthusiasm, she woke up and should have contacted me on his own initiative. But I have never received his contact.

It would be fine if there is no letter, but you don’t even call the phone?

If this were the case before, if he didn't look for me, I would never look for him. But now I feel that it is no longer necessary to compete with those things. He likes to be passive, so I'll take the initiative, my friend, nothing.

I called Li Wei, and Li Wei told me that Li Baitian was fine. She is still in the United States and she has returned to China. After the last incident happened, after recovering, Li Baitian, like me, did not give up his original plan and remained in the United States to study video, film, and directing.

He is still on his ideal path, which is great, and I am very happy.

Li Wei didn't hide it and gave me Li Baitian's contact information in the United States. Although Li Wei knew everything about Li Baitian and me and would give me some advice, she still had an attitude of not participating. She doesn't care about how we will develop in the future. She only cares about the interests of the Li family and whether the woman who marrys Li Baitian in the future is capable enough.

I am not saying that I must marry Li Baitian or how about Li Baitian. But since I am thinking about it, contact me if I should. If possible, then make it clear and develop if I can.

And when I come out to study, I am practicing myself. How broad-sounding I say about the reasons, and what I say is to be worthy of Li Baitian's origin is all just a bit of arguing. After learning, my horizons are broadened, and the biggest beneficiary in the end is myself.

We are all transparent people. If we choose, we choose. There are not so many reasons for this and that. The reasons are always to excuse the past, and I must be a person who looks to the future.

When I decided to call Li Baitian, it was 1 o'clock in the afternoon, which was a very serious time. After calling, it rang a few times, I suddenly remembered that there was a time difference between me and him. I had not calculated the specific hours, but his place might still be in the morning, and it was not even dawn.

When I was about to hang up the phone and planned to call again in the afternoon, Li Baitian answered it and said in a dizzy voice, "hello?"

Oh, did you live a good life in the United States? You didn’t say hello to answer the first round of the phone, so it’s a change.

His reaction made me a little confused. I didn't know whether to communicate with him in Chinese or English. I reflected that, "Uh... it's me."

Li Baitian groaned, still confused, "Who are you?"

It’s not that, you’ve been lying for a month and can’t even remember my voice, or can’t you hear this foreign phone line change?

"Me, Zhou Wenxue!" I emphasized to him.

Li Baitian said "um" in a daze. Before he could say the next sentence, I heard another hum from him. It was far away from the phone, so it was not very clear, but it was obviously not Li Baitian who was humming.

There was a very pure American pronunciation over there, "whois that speeche."

Then a kiss sounded from the other end of the phone.

My heart is so deep that it is about to fall from the bottom of the water. Li Baitian coaxed his ocean horse and turned his head to the phone and said, "What did you say just now?"

I was too lazy to answer again, and my voice was faint: "Where are you sleeping?"

"Um."

"disturb."

I hung up the phone, and no one came back. If this were the past, when Li Baitian was still fickle, he was caught playing with the girl and was caught by me. If I called, he would never let the girl over there speak out, nor would I hear anything. If I discovered that I hung up the phone, he would come back and explain quickly.

Now, hehe.

The phone slid directly from my palm to the desk. I sat cross-legged on the chair, leaning my head against the back. I could feel my eyes were sore, and it wanted to cry, but I couldn't let it do that.

I made an agreement for myself that nothing can make me cry except to be moved. I must sincerely cherish every tear I have and cherish every opportunity to be sad.

There is a limit to being sad. If you pass the limit, you won’t feel pain. If you don’t feel pain, it means you will die.

This is the first time I have heard Li Baitian's voice in more than half a year. He may never know how excited I was in that moment. I concentrated all my nerves on the ears and captured every insignificant lingering sound. He didn't know how many feelings he said to me in this short half-minute call, and how many emotions he had brewed in it.

He didn't know anything, he knew that he had arrived in the United States and he wanted to play with the ocean horse.

Ha ha.

I raised my head and blinked constantly, evaporating the tears, turning into weak ridicule. I don’t know what I was laughing at, but I just felt an unspeakable pain in my heart, and I always had to find a way to vent.

I leaned my head and took my phone back from the table. I flipped through the call record with Li Baitian, and the call time was 31 seconds.

What is 31 seconds enough? My heartbeat 35 times, typing 50, running 152 meters, 31 seconds, and cutting off my mind for 193 days. These 31 seconds brought me such shocking disappointment.

Li Wei said that Li Baitian had me in his heart, yes, before he fell down, no one could deny this. Perhaps over the years, he had me in his heart.

But while he had me in his heart, what did he do? He got entangled with different women and went to bed to satisfy his desire. Yes, he had me in his heart, but I was never the whole thing in his heart, not the big tree that made him willing to give up the whole forest.

The country is easy to change, but nature is difficult to change. Li Baitian is indeed Li Baitian, and he did a beautiful job.

It seems that he has recovered well and can play with women. His health must be fine, and I have nothing to worry about.

Without much hesitation, I deleted the number of Li Baitian who came from Li Wei, including the call history just now.

That's it. In Beijing, there was always an intersection between neighbors. Now, there is an Atlantic Ocean between us.

I took a deep breath and opened the warm book. Don’t forget my original intention of coming here, improve myself and cultivate myself, and then return to China to show my strength and become a person who is absolutely confident and qualified to be like someone like Li Baitian, who wants to read it equally.

If I see you again in the world, I will never let anyone think that I am not doing well.

After that, I never contacted Li Baitian again. He really didn't take the initiative to look for me, so I became more and more indifferent. Anyway, time is the best medicine to smooth things out, and human cells will be updated in seven years. I hope human memories will be the same.

I successfully completed my studies. In September, I flew back to Beijing from the UK. I had already set my goals for my first job. I fell here two years ago, and two years later, I would get up again.

I returned to Mr. Song's company, starting from the department manager, climbing up and fighting all the way, and walked smoothly. At the beginning of the next year, when the company's personnel were replaced, I walked to the position of deputy manager.

Of course, it is not ruled out that Mr. Song and I have a relationship. However, the old employees back then were really gone. The company's performance is much worse than when I was there. This is an era of reincarnation and nothing is evergreen.

As far as I know, Li Baitian’s company is also transforming, and we don’t know the specific direction. I don’t want to care too much because I care about him, which has disturbed my current pace of life.

I think I will stand in front of him again and let him see a different me, the other one that he can't underestimate even as a group's young owner.

Back to the familiar Beijing, the familiar streets, the scenes of the two people walking together still flashed in their minds. But whenever they looked in the mirror, they could no longer remember their long hair. The high heels that Li Baitian bought for me were left in that small house. Perhaps, they have become fragments of the garbage dump now.

I did not deliberately notify Li Wei or Li Baitian about my return to China. Although I am in Beijing, I don’t have to deliberately avoid anything. Mr. Song and Li Wei have a friendship. I have always known that while they have a friendship, it is not certain whether they will mention this once insignificant me.

But I know that I am me, I am working for myself, living for myself, and working for my future.

The New Year was just celebrated in 2007, and I needed to negotiate an order. For the New Year, we won’t go to any restaurants. The place was chosen by Deyun Club. I wanted to make the customers happy, so the following words were easy to say.

This customer is from another place and is quite fresh about it. I accompanied them to sit down in a good position. I didn’t listen carefully. I just kept pouring tea and water. I would do it as well.

This place doesn't feel much changed, but the jokes told on the stage are being updated every year. I can still vaguely remember Li Baitian's silly look.

I glanced at someone in the end of the day. The smile looked very similar to him. I turned around and searched in the crowd. There were too many people and it took me a long time to find the target.

Then my heart really stopped for a second, as if a breath was stuck in my throat and almost stopped it for me.

I looked at him, the smile on his face that had not changed much, and was still stupid, especially 25. His appearance did not change much. He supported his chin with his left hand and his right finger was on the table little by little. That was definitely not a fake hand.

I couldn't help but stare, my eyes changed because a girl in her early twenties stood up beside him and said something to him, and she got out with a thief head.
Chapter completed!