161 A Clear Conscience
I don’t know what Zhou Wenxue will do after resigning. Anyway, she and Li Baitian didn’t go to work the next day and were with me.
I feel very warm in my heart. Although I am not sick, at most I am weak and can be well without anyone taking care of me, but there is a big difference between being with me and not being with me. Even if the person who is with me basically doesn't speak, why is there a living thing around me?
This is probably the case when people are fragile, and people are still flocking animals and need company.
So I can understand Lan Tian’s desire to accompany and be cared for.
Zhou Wenxue helped me deal with the wound on my arm. Li Baitian was sitting outside and didn't come in. I couldn't feel any pain. I now feel like a numbness of a dying person. Maybe it's because I'm too worried. Anyway, things from the outside world are difficult to stimulate myself.
She was quite gentle at this time, not as cold as she was when she was in contact with her. In fact, Zhou Wenxue is just a woman, a woman with a strong appearance and a gentle heart. This kind of woman who is hard on the outside and soft on the inside always makes me feel very story-provoking.
While scrambling the wound, she said, "Li Baitian asked me to talk to you."
I won't speak, wait for her to talk. Today I have enough sleep and I still have the ability to listen to people's words. I also need someone to talk to me and help me sort out the messy mood. Every day I will not know what it might look like.
She smiled at me, "What happened?"
I hesitated slightly and told her everything. In fact, out of respect for her, I don’t want any extra people to know about Lan Tian’s secret. I have never told Li Baitian before. Fortunately, Zhou Wenxue didn’t know Lan Tian either. After she heard it, she would probably just take it as a story.
After listening to it, Zhou Wenxue shook her head, saying that she was a little sad and heartbroken. Everyone is a woman.
But she said, "You did nothing wrong. If you put these things on me, I may not be able to do this."
I smiled bitterly.
She said, "I am an outsider, just tell me what I think. In fact, it is enough for you to do this. That girl is very pitiful, but the road she came out by herself. Your knot is the key to her own hands. She will be with her. She will be well, sooner or later, if she doesn't want to be well, sooner or later, everyone will be tired and don't want to care about her anymore."
I shook my head, "No, Li Hua is a good person, he will be responsible for the end."
"What about you?" Zhou Wenxue asked.
I... I'm honestly not want to care about it anymore, and everyone told me not to care about it anymore. I don't think I can't control it anymore. If I mix it up, it seems that there is no other use except to cause trouble.
She saw it very clearly, and she said, "You want to take care of it, but you don't think you can't take care of it, right?"
I nodded.
She said: "Actually, you don't need to put such great pressure on yourself. Look at yourself like this now, your boyfriend will definitely not feel good if you know it. We are human beings, and we only have so many abilities, and many things are powerless. As for me, you have tried your best and have a clear conscience in everything. If you have to pay back the debt, it is only a matter of principal and profit. If you pay too much, it will force others to owe you."
I vaguely understood something. She helped me blow the wound, and used gauze to wrap it in a small pericarp, and said, "Girl, you are very strong, this is great. When we don't have the ability to take care of others, the only thing we can do is take good care of ourselves, and don't turn it into a burden."
"Yeah." I nodded, "Thank you."
She looked at me deeply, with a little appreciation and praise in her eyes, and smiled slightly, "It's not easy for you, I thought..."
Another fleeting smile, she stopped talking.
She thought before, what kind of girl could make Li Baitian do her best, and she thought I should be the same as those who fell out of favor with Li Baitian. Now it seems that it is a bit different.
In fact, what is needed between people is understanding. Perhaps after understanding, you will find that everyone has stories and unique inner self.
Zhou Wenxue said so much to me, and what impressed me the most was the one who "has a clear conscience".
Only by having a clear conscience can one be at ease, and only by having a clear conscience can one represent the meaning of everything. You must have a clear conscience to others, yourself, and even your feelings, and have no regrets.
I think I have a clear conscience. With this conscience, no matter what I experience in the future, at least I don’t have to suffer the torture of self-criticism. This kind of emotion is actually very rare. I have completed it and treated myself the greatest test.
I think I passed the exam.
So I quickly became stronger, and after eating more food, my blood sugar level increased, my body would be fine. Why did I sit at home? Isn’t it just a random thought left?
So I went back to work and worked more actively than before. This was not to divert attention, but to think about working from the bottom of my heart, to be motivated and work hard, and to make every day in my life have its meaning.
I won’t ask about Lan Tian for the time being. When Li Hua remembered, he would call me and tell him that everything was fine and he didn’t have to worry. He told me that Lan Tian is also very cooperative now, so I don’t have to worry.
They all prepared medicines for this, but Lan Tian was still unwilling to go to the drug rehabilitation center. She might be afraid and threw her into the drug rehabilitation, so after Li Hua ignored her.
I am no longer willing to delve into her thoughts.
The wound on the arm will scab after removing the stitches. That day, I sat in the office and played with my hands. Li Baitian bent over and looked at it, smacking his lips, "I suggest you go to the hospital for blood."
"What are you doing!" I was puzzled.
He smiled wickedly, "Who knows if he has contracted any disease."
It is said that drug use is easy to contagious AIDS, mainly because the injection is unhygienic, or ** or so on. I am not very worried about this problem. Lan Tian is not short of money, so there is no need to pay attention to this hygiene. As for **... I don't think so.
Besides, I didn't let Lan Tian touch my wound that day. I was so angry that I saw her. I felt a little bit of a dirty feeling. This is the truth.
I said to Li Baitian, "If I am sick, I will be the first to spread it to you!"
Li Baitian was so humble that he said, "Come on, come on, I can't ask for it."
I looked at him with disgust.
When I was free and had nothing to do, I was still a little curious about the indescribable relationship between Li Baitian and Zhou Wenxue. I called Zhou Wenxue the Queen, but I didn’t say that the Queen’s identity was real. On the surface, I looked quite a pretty good wife. If Zhou Wenxue hadn’t been for Li Baitian’s sake, Lan Tian and I would have had trouble in the bar that day, so I probably wouldn’t have been there.
Anyway, I always think there should be something between them.
So I asked Li Baitian, but he didn't avoid it and said, "I met you when I was a junior high school student, but I didn't kiss you much."
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I said, "Mystery, why am I jealous of you? It has nothing to do with you."
Turning around, I thought of Li Hua again, ah...
There is only a sigh left. Sometimes I think about it. Whether Li Hua and I still love each other or not can’t figure out. Many difficult questions are more important than love, just like the saying “A husband and wife are birds in the same forest, and they fly by themselves when the disaster comes.” If they fly by themselves, it means they don’t love anymore, and it means they have never loved each other before.
Love is a relatively fragile feeling, especially in front of life.
Regarding drug rehabilitation, physical addiction can usually be quit in ten to fifteen days. Of course, this will vary depending on the person's physical condition, but it will not take too long, mainly psychological.
Li Hua has been here for ten days, and we haven't met these days. He called me early in the morning, and his tone probably didn't rest well.
"How is Tiantian?" I still couldn't help but care.
"Well, it's much better." He said in a plain tone.
I said, "That's good."
He said: "I'm going back to Zhejiang tomorrow."
The company can't be left there and ignore it. There are always some matters that need to be resolved. I think Li Hua is also very hard, especially in his heart.
I said, "Well, don't worry, I will go there if there is anything here."
He hesitated slightly and said, "I want to see you before leaving."
This made me feel a little sad. I didn’t want to see Li Hua, but now I see him, I can’t help but feel depressed. The most important thing is that I have a big list these two days and are talking about the key points.
I said, "Wait for you to come back. I made an appointment with a customer today. Maybe it was a bit late, so I can't send it to you."
"Okay." He was a little disappointed and a little heavy.
After hanging up the phone, I packed up and went to work, but I didn't go to the company. The customer came from another place. After receiving the reception yesterday, I talked about some work matters, and today I have to play the family card appropriately.
I accompanied two customer representatives to have breakfast. I have been following this order for three months, and I feel very unhappy if I don’t get it. The other party seemed not satisfied with our offer, but his attitude was very ambiguous. He didn’t say it, it would be okay or not.
I am very dedicated to working because people in the company always say that I can get orders because I rely on my beauty. It’s nothing to listen to at first, but I’m actually not convinced after listening too much.
I have been grinding these customers since the morning, and I don’t care about Li Hua’s lack of alcohol. In the morning, I drink rice wine with the customers until 10 o’clock in the morning, and I find a tea room to rest for an hour, then have lunch, lunch, red wine, rice wine in the afternoon, white wine in the evening, and foreign wine in the early morning. I have been drinking for a day and took several tablets of sobering medicine. In the early morning, I started to get really upset and was particularly dissatisfied with their unclear attitude.
Later, the other party finally couldn't hold on and said in a very ambiguous tone, "Ms. Cong is so beautiful, it's too hard to do business. In fact, women don't have to work so hard. Isn't it better to take shortcuts appropriately?"
Chapter completed!