i can change(1/2)
I can change
When Wei Xichen ran to Tao Ran’s rental house, it was already night.
Fang Ke refused to tell him the address, but he asked Wen Kai to check it out.
Wei Xichen did not change his clothes, and he vaguely realized that Tao Ran really didn't want him this time.
But he was even more afraid that something might happen to Tao Ran.
Wei Xichen knocked on the door, he was afraid that she would not open it, and he was afraid that she would open it.
Fang Ke's words were repeated in his mind - did you ever believe her, did you really love you when you were young?
This is his ten years of persistence and the most resentful thing.
He always believed that she had never loved him, and he had been chasing her all the time. When she said she liked him, she looked like a joke.
Rather than saying that he thinks she doesn't love him, he is more afraid that she will never love him.
But if she had really liked him, she did not voluntarily leave silently.
Then what did he do?
The one he was most reluctant to hurt was her, but now, it was him who made her sad.
He was still nervous, and the door opened in front of him.
Showing her pale and thin cheeks.
Her eyes were red, and she had already changed into black clothes.
"Wei Xichen."
She raised her eyes, looking neither sad nor happy, as if the tears had been shed, and she stopped crying.
He was silent, but his eyes did not dare to leave her. After she called him, his nerves tensed to the extreme in an instant.
He was waiting for her final decision to him.
It was all her thoughts to ask him or give up on him.
He will die when he wants to die.
It feels that way again.
He had no way to resist and no longer wanted to resist.
The sorrow between her eyebrows and eyes faded a lot, and she seemed to have grown up a little more.
She frowned and looked at his wet look, as if she was puzzled: "Why did you make yourself look like this?"
He looked at her without blinking, and he could hear it for no reason, but he was panicked.
"Tao Ran, I..."
"You go back and change your clothes first."
He grabbed the door suddenly, afraid that she would close it: "No, no need.
I'm fine, I'll be here with you and never go anywhere."
She nodded and did not drive him away: "Then come in and take a shower and change your clothes?"
The crazy light in his eyes was clear and he asked in disbelief: "What did you say?"
She repeated it again with a good temper.
Wei Xichen's eyes were filled with a slight joy and raised his hand to touch her.
She frowned slightly, and Wei Xichen quickly retracted his hand, restrained and didn't know how to look good: "Sorry."
It was because he was not considerate and his whole body was cold now and he shouldn't have touched her.
Wei Xichen was afraid that Tao Ran would regret it, so he hurried into the house.
Tao Ran found him shoes and changed them: "There are only these, you will just do it."
He didn't mind if she closed him outside, how could he mind this? He nodded quickly. Is this a beautiful dream?
Did she forgive him?
Do you still love him?
Tao Ran said: "I don't have any clothes to change at home. Do you want to send them here or go to a hotel to wash?"
Wei Xichen immediately said, "I'll ask Wen Kai to send it here."
Tao Ran stopped talking, sat on the sofa, nodded at him: "Wei Xichen, please sit there casually."
Wei Xichen's body suddenly felt cold, and he finally realized something was wrong.
She seemed to have all the sadness tilted out, and she didn't care about anyone.
Her tone was calm, even so calm that she was polite.
It’s like treating a very ordinary friend, without love or hatred.
A common stranger who is soaked all over and can make her sympathize with.
He admitted he was scared.
He was never afraid of his father pointing a gun at him, but now he is trembling with fear.
Wei Xichen walked up to her and squatted down. He was much taller than her, but now he bent his knees and squatted in front of her, his voice was quiet and hoarse: "Tao Ran, have you forgiven me?"
She looked down at him, his fearful look was really fresh.
But she was not a vicious woman, and she had no idea of revenge, so she nodded.
His eyes were light and he became even more nervous and nervous: "Fang Ke said, you used to..."
She bent her lips slightly and answered: "Yes, I once loved you.
But that was once, now…”
"Don't say it, please, don't say it."
His eyes were fragile and his body was filled with pain.
He knows everything, so why bother to deceive himself?
She was doing good deeds and stopped talking.
She is not Wei Xichen and has no hobby of hurting people with words.
The two were silent for a moment.
Wei Xichen's throat was dry, and he did not dare to mention Cheng Xiujuan's incident, nor did he dare to leave her: "Are you hungry? I'll cook something for you?"
She shook her head: "I'm not hungry, thank you."
She looked at the sky and said, "If you have nothing else, go back first.
You're not very good here."
She had no despair or anything. What people could bear was far better than she thought.
No matter it is the huge debt or Cheng Xiujuan's death, it will not crush her.
This is life and reality.
The dead cannot be pursued, and those who live must live well.
This should also be Cheng Xiujuan’s greatest wish.
Tao Ran felt that she had to protect herself.
Building a tall city wall in your heart, no one will hurt her anymore.
Anyway, she has nothing now.
Anyway, she was heartless at the beginning, and now she is just going back to the beginning.
Wei Xichen suddenly held her hand: "Do you hate me? Do you hate me? Do you? I'm wrong? It's because I'm not good. I can change it. You can punish me anyway.
Don't drive me away, don't ignore me."
Her hands were warm and soft, but his hands were as cold as ice.
She found it a little funny, so she really laughed: "Wouldn't you be fine if you don't hate you?"
What's there to be entangled with?"
His hands were tighter, and she had the illusion that he wanted to melt himself into his bones and blood.
Tao Ran pulled out her hand and pointed out the door: "I'm kind to you, but I don't let you do whatever you want and touch me, I will call the police."
Please leave now.”
His voice was mute: "Would you like to change the conditions? I will listen to you in everything."
"No, I have nothing to want, it's best if you don't show up."
She was extremely calm, "It's not like you every time you want, I don't owe you anything."
To be continued...