In the early winter evening of the Huaibei Plain, rose-colored clouds slowly changed shapes in the magnetic blue sky, sometimes like giants, sometimes like lions, and sometimes like a mother holding a baby. I left the workshop, hurried towards the bathroom in the cold wind, and looked up at the changing clouds, and happened to see the white cloud holding a child, and suddenly became nervous.

When I learned the news of Peng Dazhuang's sacrifice from the tears and red mouth, a fierce tide broke out in my heart. For more than a week, I always tried to recall the platoon leader who had disrupted his life. However, in addition to his strong body and desire to soar, his whole voice, appearance and smile were already very blurred in my memory. I felt a little sad. Not only for the fifth southern martyr in the county, but also for the orphan and widowed mother left by him, he once again destroyed a woman's hope for the future.

The early winter sun is shining on the earth at the greatest oblique angle. Every object is dragging a long shadow in the cold red glow. The sky, which was just bright, was already gray at this time.

After taking a shower, I hurried back. Since I took in Yin Hong and his son, my originally peaceful life has become messy. When I was at work, I was absent-minded and rushed to the guesthouse immediately after work, because Yin Hong had been there for a long time.

As soon as I left the door of the production area, I was grabbed by a bunch of Mao Xiaoli: "What are you busy with? You are panicked, ignoring your head and not caring about your butt."

"What's wrong with you? Don't bother me if you have nothing to do, hurry up and go home to carry the child." I was so angry that I wanted to pull Xiao Li by my hand and pull it away.

"It would be great if I had a child to hold him. I couldn't even marry a daughter-in-law. Where did the child come from? Why don't you introduce one to me?" Xiao Li stared at me with a pair of thief eyes and still didn't want to let go when he pulled me.

"You guy has a bad character and his hands are not clean. There are so many big girls and wives in the factory. Who would have seen you go around?" I said disgusted with anger.

"You just don't like me, what's so awesome about you? It's not the time to be an electrician now." Xiao Li was a little anxious when I said it, but he still looked shy and continued to yell at me, "I'll tell you something, do you know? Something happened to Xiao Cai."

"What happened to Xiao Cai? Didn't he ask for leave today? What could happen?" I was shocked and looked at Xiao Li with a little suspicion, thinking that this guy was teasing me again.

"I really don't lie to you. I want to lie to you. It's just a beast. I heard that Xiao Cai jumped into the river this morning." Xiao Li was betting on a curse, which was not very alarmist.

"How did you know? How are you doing now?" I was a little anxious and asked with my eyes wide open.

"I heard from the factory department that the person was rescued by a ferry boatman. It seemed that nothing big happened. In the afternoon, everyone from the Chengxi Police Station came to the factory to investigate." Xiao Li said proudly while stroking the black hair on the corner of his mouth.

"Why did he jump into the river?" I guessed in my heart, jumping around.

"It is said that this kid was heartbroken, and Li Qin broke up with him. He couldn't think of it for a moment, so he jumped into the canal." Xiao Li blinked his little eyes and sighed.

After hearing Xiao Li's words, I felt an indescribable feeling in my heart. In fact, since the second young master Wang intervened and Li Qin transferred out of the yarn factory, I had an unknown premonition. I think Senior Brother Xiao Cai should also know this ending, but I just don't dare to face it, and I want to deceive myself. However, I didn't expect him to joke about his life in pain. I really didn't see him being so infatuated and had such courage. Because I was anxious to go back, I couldn't see Senior Brother Xiao Cai, so I stopped talking to Xiao Li and quickly turned around and left.

The dusk was vast and the cold wind was even worse. I entered the living area and couldn't help but speed up. I walked through the woods and came to the courtyard. I looked carefully and saw that there was no one around. Then I quickly hit the gate of the courtyard and flashed in. Under the ginkgo tree, there was a 26-inch phoenix Kun car given by the Peng family when Yin Hong got married. A trace of light came out of the room on the west side of the second floor. Because the dense branches of the old ginkgo tree blocked the view, it was difficult to see that people lived outside the yard.

I knew I had been delayed just now, so I must be a little late, so I went upstairs in two steps, pushed open the half-closed door, Yin Hong had already put on her cotton coat, stood anxiously in the middle of the house, waiting to leave.

"I'm sorry, I've been delayed today." I quickly apologized to Yin Hong.

"I'm hot in the pot. You eat it quickly. I'm leaving. I'm going to be late." Yin Hong said while walking out, "By the way, don't forget Xiaozhuang woke up at night and feed him water."

"Don't worry, go quickly. Be careful when going out the back door. The road on the ridge behind is difficult to walk, and it is already dark." Before I could see the bright red eyebrows clearly, she had already left the door like a gust of wind.

With a burst of rapid footsteps, I heard Yin Hong go downstairs, push the car and run to the backyard, followed by a depressing sound of opening and closing the door, and everything around me became quiet.

I first looked at Xiaozhuang who was sleeping soundly on the bed, then came to the table and opened the rice cooker, and brought out a fried egg and two hot white flour buns. I sat down and ate while worrying about Yin Hong walking on the night road. In order to avoid people's eyes and fear of another incident, I secretly opened the small iron door on the back wall of the guesthouse. Yin Hong enters and exits here every day to and from get off work. The road outside is dark and unsafe.

Since being driven out by the Zhao family, Yin Hong asked the director of their toll room to change his working hours, which was staggered from my daytime hours, and arranged night shifts every day, so that we could take turns to take care of Xiaozhuang. After Peng Dazhuang's sacrifice, his pension had not been approved, and no one would send money to Yin Hong and his son on a regular basis. When Yin Hong was in the Zhao family, she sent Xiaozhuang's relatives back, and then Director Zhao took advantage of the situation.

When I saw Yin Hong's life in a black and white manner, I felt very uncomfortable, so I suggested that I think of a solution. Yin Hong asked her mother to come and help Xiaozhuang, but she was afraid that she would be found out about her living here and would be driven away by them at that time. Because the housing in the factory was tight, living in the hotel requires approval from the factory office, and everyone was staring at her eyes. We thought about it for a long time, but we had no good ideas, so we could only wait for this for the time being. After the Spring Festival, Yin Hong weaned Xiaozhuang before talking.

For more than a week, as I have been today, as I stepped into the door of the second floor, and Yin Hong, who had been waiting, gave a few words in a sloppy manner, then pushed the bicycle to close the door like a whirlwind, and I temporarily became the nanny for this child who was under one year old. Xiaozhuang is still easy to take care of. This child does not accept the child and cries less. He often fills with flattering smiles and greets me. Children who grow up in suffering probably have an instinctive sensitivity and spirituality.

To be honest, it is indeed a bit difficult to let a young man like me do this work. Although Yin Hong repeatedly tutored and explained that he must give his child a milk powder and urinate once at night, I still fell asleep twice, causing the child to suffer a night of sin. When encountering these problems, I would also feel trivial and troubled. But when I think of this miserable and helpless couple, I see Yin Hong's apologetic eyes every day and enjoy her delicate and gentle care, everything is relieved.

After eating the supper left by Yin Hong, I went downstairs to wash up briefly, went back to the distribution room where I lived, and brought a three-dimensional geometry of high school. Because I needed to look at the drawings as a preservation worker, I felt good about space. When I was studying in the region, I studied plane geometry and was familiar with theorems of proof. Especially in the last graduation exam, I did the three-dimensional geometry questions, which greatly boosted my confidence. Although I didn’t know what it would be useful to study these now, I had an indescribable vague fantasy in my heart. I remembered Yuan Yuan’s words that encouraged me: Knowledge will definitely change my destiny.

When I learned about Senior Brother Xiao Cai in the evening, my mind was rumbling. I couldn't read the book tonight. Thinking that I had been busy with Li Qin's abortion and went to the hospital to find Yin Hong, I felt bored and absurd. I once read a sentence in a book: Love can sublimate people's hearts to the state of best. But around me, everyone betrays emotions again and again in front of interests. Compared with the temptation of real interests, the so-called love is so cowardly. I even began to doubt that those love stories that are not poverty or wealth, illness or suffering, and will never stop until death only exist in books. Because of the reality or lack, they are so tempting and desirable...

One night, I was thinking about it all, until the end of the sleepiness came and fell beside Xiaozhuang.
Chapter completed!