In the lounge, facing Xia Zhengxian's sudden kneeling, Si Yisheng was a little surprised. He just looked at Xia Zhengxian who was kneeling in front of him, lowering his head and constantly begging him.

Didn’t this man care about Mu Xi’s life and death at all?

What is it like to abandon Muxi again and again? Is it atonement? Because seeing Muxi is about to die, I finally can't stand the condemnation in my heart?

But don't you think it's too late to do this?

"Mr. Si, I beg you, just use my organs. As long as Mu Xi needs it, you can take them all, please!" Xia Zhengxian was still begging, as a father.

"Do you know what would happen if you really did that?" Si Yisheng asked Xia Zhengxian.

Since Qiu Limo had told Xia Zhengxian everything, this person should know what the result would be.

Si Yisheng thought so in his heart, but Si Yisheng wanted Xia Zhengxian to tell the result in his own words.

"As long as Mu Xi can be saved, even if there is only a little hope, I don't care about my life at all." Xia Zhengxian said extremely seriously, unable to see any falsehood.

"Can you really want your life?" Si Yisheng confirmed.

"As long as Mu Xi can be saved, I will not be able to sacrifice my life."

"If I had known this, why would I have to be there?" Si Yisheng could see that Xia Zhengxian was not lying.

"I know I am an incompetent father. I have never done anything for Muxi from beginning to end. I have been hurting Muxi all the time. It's not good for me."

"I'm not interested in listening to these things."

"Then have you promised me?"

"Sorry, I'll tell you the truth. Your life does not mean much to Mu Xi." Si Yisheng said.

"What's the meaning?"

"I think I should understand what I said."

"Did you mean, can't my organ Muxi use it? How is that possible!"

"I think Qiu Limo should have told you that if you transplant your organ to Muxi, it will cause great harm to your body, because after all, your physical condition is not very good now."

"That's what Li Mo said."

"Actually, there is another thing I didn't tell Qiu Limo, that is, even if your organs and Muxi are successfully matched, when the organs are really transplanted into Muxi's body, 60% of them may be rejected. I have said just now that because your body is not as good as before, your organs are no longer so energetic. Muxi's current condition has reached the most serious level, so organs like you may bring hope to Muxi to survive, but it is very difficult to really make Muxi completely turn into a healthy person."

"Even if this is the case, it's better than just watching Muxi die like this! Even if there is only a little hope, as a doctor, you should catch it. I can tell that you care about Muxi very much, so you don't want to see Muxi just wait for death."

"For me, as long as I can save Mu Xi, I don't care about the life and death of others." Si Yisheng said coldly.

"Since that's the case, don't hesitate. Just use my organs. I'm willing to exchange my remaining life for the possibility of Mu Xi's survival." Xia Zhengxian's eyes were full of seriousness and firmness.

"..." Si Yisheng looked at Xia Zhengxian, and after a while. "I remember what you said just now. If it really came to that time, I would not be polite." Si Yisheng answered Xia Zhengxian like this.

"Thank you..." After hearing Si Yisheng's words, Xia Zhengxian's face showed relief, and tears flashed in his eyes.

Thank God, thank God for allowing him to live like this.

...

On that night, Xia Zhengxian did not accompany Xia Muxi directly in the ward because he was also worried that Xia Muxi would be stimulated and would be detrimental to the condition after seeing him. Xia Zhengxian actually knew this.

All night, Xia Zhengxian just sat outside the ward and didn't sleep all night.

Qiu Limo was not idle either. Not only did he take care of Xia Muxi in the ward, but he also always paid attention to Xia Zhengxian outside the ward.

"Dad, let's go to bed for a while." Qiu Limo said, covering Xia Zhengxian's blanket. Afterwards, he placed a cup of hot tea in Xia Zhengxian's hand.

"No need, it's good to just sit like this." Xia Zhengxian looked at the dark night outside the window and said with a smile. The warmth of hot tea was constantly coming through the cup of noodles. "Where is Mu Xi? Is the situation still stable?"

"It's been a good day today." As he said that, Qiu Limo sat next to Xia Zhengxian.

"That's good." As he said that, Xia Zhengxian took a sip of hot tea. "Li Mo, has Mu Xi been sick for a long time?"

"...Hmm." Qiu Limo groaned.

"This child hasn't changed at all. Even if he feels bitter, he won't talk to us. Even if he is already so sick, he still chooses to hide it from us and hold on."

"This is just that Mu Xi is used to doing this. After all, she has suffered too much harm. The damage she suffered is brought by the people closest to her, so she asked her to say how to rely on her. I am one of them, so even if Mu Xi chooses to hide it from me, I am not qualified to say anything." Qiu Limo said.

"I am the one who hurt Mu Xi the most." Xia Zhengxian smiled bitterly, "Li Mo, why do I just can't control myself every time?"

"Maybe we just don't trust Mu Xi enough." Qiu Limo said this, just to make Xia Zhengxian feel more comfortable.

In fact, even Qiu Limo couldn't understand why Xia Zhengxian treated Xia Muxi so much.

It is obviously my own biological daughter, but in the end I am always unwilling to look at the problem from the perspective of my biological daughter, hurting again and again, abandoning again and again.

Although Qiu Limo would always call him father respectfully and treat Xia Zhengxian as a father, Qiu Limo could not forgive Xia Zhengxian for what Xia Zhengxian did to Xia Muxi.

"Okay, you don't need to say this to comfort me. I'm still very clear about what I did myself." Xia Zhengxian sighed, "Maybe I'm just an old stubborn at all."

"..." Qiu Limo didn't say anything.

"Li Mo, are you afraid?" Xia Zhengxian asked.

"I'm scared, but what I'm even more afraid of is the feeling of powerlessness and helplessness that can't do anything for Muxi and can't share the pain for Muxi."

"Yeah……"

"Dad, occasionally I really think about it. If I agreed when you said that the engagement was invalidated, then I would not be so obsessed with Muxi, and would not have kept Muxi by his side even if he was strong. If I had really listened to you and cancelled the engagement, maybe Muxi would have lived a happy life long ago. Because Muxi once said that the happiness she wanted was very simple, she would be surrounded by her loved ones, surrounded by children and grandchildren, raised flowers, and raised small animals, and then lived this quiet and ordinary life for the rest of her life, because in Muxi's opinion, it was happiness. However, I knew from the beginning that I could not give it to such a life, but..."

"Li Mo, I believe Mu Xi will not regret being with you. From the past to the present, Mu Xi has never regretted it for a moment. Believe me."

"I know." Qiu Limo smiled bitterly on his face, "It is precisely because I know that Muxi has never regretted choosing me and is willing to be with me that I feel so uncomfortable because I have not given Muxi the happiness he wants. In this regard, I am a loser."

"That's just your thoughts. Li Mo, you can try to think about Mu Xi's feelings. You say you are a loser, but I think Mu Xi will not think so, because she cares about you and loves you more than anyone else. Think about it, how could Mu Xi be a loser if she is willing to care about the person she loves? If you think that way, isn't this doubting Mu Xi's eyes? Mu Xi should be unhappy."

"..." Qiu Limo smiled and said nothing.

"Anyway, no matter you or me, don't mention the past. How to cure Muxi's disease is the most important thing now. For example, regret it. If you regret these things, wait until Muxi's disease is cured before doing it." Xia Zhengxian continued.

"Um."

In the ward where Natsuki is located.

"Why aren't you sleeping?" Si Yisheng asked softly as he looked at Xia Muxi who had been staring at somewhere in the room.

"..." Xia Muxi shook her head.

"Do you feel uncomfortable somewhere?" Si Yisheng continued to ask. In fact, it is rare. Xia Muxi's physical condition has been very stable these days. Although this makes everyone happy, it is not the case for Si Yisheng. The reason is that Si Yisheng himself knows the best.

"..." Xia Muxi shook her head again.

"Let me guess." Si Yisheng half-kneeled beside Xia Muxi's hospital bed, "Is it related to your father? After all, he has come to see you today." Si Yisheng said lightly, because he didn't want to talk about the topic so heavily.

"..." This time, Xia Muxi did not react, but the fleeting light in her eyes did not escape Si Yisheng's eyes.

"You don't want him to know that you are sick, right? You don't want him to see you who looks like you now?" Si Yisheng held Xia Muxi's hand and said softly.

The sentence "..." made Xia Muxi look elsewhere.

"Mu Xi, it doesn't matter whether he knows or whether he will see it. I think that the reason why Qiu Limo asked him to enter this ward should be the same. You don't have to think too much. I said, you just need to think about yourself, and you don't have to pay attention to other people and other things at all."

It took a long time.

Natsuki nodded.

"Okay, go to bed, I'll be here to accompany you."

Let’s forget it. I won’t tell you what your father said to me for the time being, otherwise you will be even more confused.

Si Yisheng thought so in his heart.
Chapter completed!