She didn't know what to do, but after the pressure of life and death subsided, she just thought.

－Or, I don’t know anything, wouldn’t it be enough to just live a daily life like this?

－Why do you have to go against the shady curtain? Even if the shady curtain wants to do, does it have anything to do with yourself? Just because you are an explorer, do you have to go against those madmen who want to destroy the world and those who use the almost omnipotent power of the evil god to achieve their goals?

If you think this is a reasonable thing, you must have gone crazy.

Since this is an unreasonable thing, why should I participate in the show? Whether it is myself or Angel, they are just an ordinary person. As an ordinary person, why do you have to fight against those unspeakable worlds and those abominable beings?

Isn’t this kind of thing not necessary in itself? Why do you need to do this yourself?

She thought so.

Then... suddenly, she felt the existence of [abnormal].

"What the hell is this?" said Angel.

She suddenly grabbed a light post, and her whole body felt as if she had a severe cold, and there was a gravitational force that seemed to pull herself toward hell. Angel even wanted to stand up, but she couldn't do it. She couldn't do it.

The legs lost their strength, but it was not like the feeling of exhaustion between the muscles. It was like the ground was melted, losing its foothold, and all the strength could not be used.

Damn it, this is certainly not normal, it is not normal at all.

Angel thought to herself.

Just as darkness is everywhere, when Angel was thinking about what this was, she saw the surroundings, and then she could not see the [normal] existence.

The surrounding scenery has a feeling of being crazy, and it is terrifying and unbearable, just like a person living in an abstract world, and she has the desire to tear all this into pieces.

With this desire comes the instinct and impulse to scream and escape from here.

However, my feet still couldn't find a foothold. Even if it existed, where I could go, this thing was unknown to Angel.

Obviously - she couldn't see the not-crazy side of the world, that kind of thing seemed to have never existed from the beginning.

Everything goes crazy, or you feel that the whole world is crazy, that is really crazy.

Oh my God, she just wants to live a good life, how could she become like this in the next moment? This is really amazing... No, this is not amazing at all.

Angel wanted to find a normal place to vomit.

"This is wrong, this is wrong! My world shouldn't be like this!"

As she said, she ran away as if she was screaming. Although she obviously couldn't feel any walking, she could see her movement from her own vision. She was running away, and even her body seemed to be out of control when she could not realize it.

Inspiration: Success

Although everything became like an abstract scenery, from Angel's own memory, she could still recall that all this was familiar, not just temporarily, but from the beginning.

From the beginning, there was nothing unusual about this scenery and the world.

Everything is like this, and all this should be what I regard as normal.

Suddenly, I regard common sense as abnormal and distorted. Angel, who thinks like this, is the most abnormal person.

Shit, isn’t this the biggest problem? Isn’t this the biggest mistake? Oh my God, why haven’t I discovered before, how can I endure this world and how can I think this world is normal?

There is nothing that can be said to be a normal part, right?

There is nothing at all, it doesn't exist at all.

After thinking back on this, Angel felt that all this was even more crazy.

However, there was no problem with her spirit, nor any abnormality.

It's like I just accept something I should know.

Thinking of this, it seems that this is true. How could something that Angel had accepted before cause new changes? This should be an impossible thing, this is an impossible thing.

Maybe I've actually gone crazy long ago?

No, I have never lived in a normal world, so how could I be scared by the abnormal situation? It’s not that I’m crazy, but that the definition of the normal world has been completely different from the beginning.

If that's the case...

Recall, recall, and then let it all return to a normal experience.

What she could not accept was accepted by Angel. If that was the case, wouldn’t it be okay for Angel to accept all this abnormality?

I am Angel, so nothing is terrible, but it just caused an abnormal point to happen because of my own arrival? There is nothing to be afraid of.

Just become like I used to be.

There is no reason why I can do what I can do now.

Take a deep breath, calm down, and then think back, overwrite your past thoughts and now yourself - how can you do such a thing? Idiot!

I endured this nausea feeling and could only pretend that nothing had happened, and could only pretend that there was no abnormality, just like I was the one I used to live.

However, you can still regard all this as daily life as before, and there is no way to do this kind of thing.

If you are a smart person, this kind of thing can definitely be done.

"But I have never been a smart person!"

Angel was almost unable to bear it, and the roar in her soul about all this abnormal roar was almost impossible to bear.

She thinks she needs someone to give an answer.

And this person may have appeared long ago.

Angel glanced at her phone, the person named [Melotti's Summoning].

Angel believed that this must be one of the insiders, maybe a believer who had something to do with Melotti's evil god, maybe because he received the gospel of the evil god and wanted to describe this beautiful ideal to others, or...

It's okay, at least this will definitely be someone who can give you an answer that you can understand.

As long as this is the case, that's fine, as long as this is the case, there will be no problem.

Angel let out a sigh of relief, emptied her thoughts, and decided to think about nothing for the time being.

If this continues, my spirit will not be able to return to normal.

This may be something that cannot be avoided, but Angel also knows how terrible it is. It is impossible to accept it with peace of mind.

All of this is related to the world line, Melotti's evil god, all of this has some connection.

This world line is wrong and shouldn't exist.

Angel thought to herself, and at the same time affirmed, so she had to get an answer.

Why did this become like this? What is this world line?

No matter who it is, if you can get the answer, even if you are the messenger of the evil god, there will be no problem at all.

...

This happened yesterday.

"Why, why did you appear here again? John, didn't you disappear two years ago? I gave up on me and gave up on God." The girl asked.

"Are you reason? What if I felt God's revelation? Is this reason enough?" John said, "I can always feel that God is calling me. He hopes to come in this world, turn this purgatory into heaven, and make everything happy."

The man who was called John looked very young, just like a high school student.

"But this world is too weak, and God cannot come." John said again. "So, I was desperate about it. I once thought that even if I worked hard, the meaning still did not exist. All this was just useless work."

"So, why did you change your opinion?" The girl touched the magic book, as if this behavior could increase her confidence.

"Because, this is the right time, just like when I met you eight years ago, these are all arranged things. I once thought that I had long forgotten that feeling, and the only moment that could change everything. I forgot God's arrangement, the gravity of the gods, the guidance in the dark, and even, I think this correct time is just a delusion."

"But, you denied it?" asked the girl.

John nodded: "Yes, I deny it, because I can feel it again, this is the right time, and this is the time God has arranged, and it is necessary to let the gods come here."

"It's inexplicably strange, but when you see you create the legend of Melotti, I think of this wonderful plan. Moreover, this is the final stage, so it doesn't matter even if it's as you think." The girl smiled slightly. "After all, if it's not for you, it's a horror that I'm even living for what I am."

"Why should I live? Isn't the answer to this question only you know?" John frowned.

"Yes, so, you who gave me the answer, and you who made my life more meaningful, will not even find your own answer." The girl still smiled. "Even if you told me what to do to solve my confusion, it still has no way to change it - John, you have no goal at all. I admire your knowledge, but your life still has no meaning."

"Aren't you afraid that I'm angry?" John asked again.

"If I feel afraid because of this kind of thing, then I will not decide to do this. Even if it is blasphemy of the dead, even if it is not accepted by anyone, I will decide to do this." The girl replied. "Even if the world is destroyed, even if everything I cherish is burned by fire, or even if I become anything myself, I have decided to do this, and in fact, it is only a last step away from now."

"So, I'm not afraid. I've long since no fear in my heart." The girl said softly. "Although what I'm saying is probably a bit late, I'd better welcome back, John."

"Even if you don't know what exactly I want?" John asked strangely.

"Yes, because I don't care at all. Everyone has their own purpose, but now at least, before we achieve our ideals, we have a necessary step to do." The girl said. "I never doubted, I never doubted all this, and since I met Xiao P, I never doubted. Even if you may no longer believe it, I still believe that this belief and worship have never disappeared once."

"It's different from me... right!" John seemed to have some regretful feelings.

"Maybe, but when did you come back? Where did you go during this period?" the girl asked again, feeling dissatisfied, but for some reason it sounded like she was dissatisfied with her boyfriend who had been missing for a long time.

"That's when I came back last week. As for where I went? Well, that's a wonderful place, I don't know how to describe it." John's expression showed an unsettling excitement. "But if you want to know, then do you want to witness the existence of heaven? Even if God has not come to earth, we still have a way to see heaven, and even for a short time, we can untied our body and enter that wonderful dimension."

"You just want to tell me that during this time, you are in heaven?"

"No, maybe... After all, for me, time has not passed much. After all, time is just an illusion. It is just a direction that is difficult to transcend through personal will and the body. All time and space are present, and there is no so-called order. I just feel the right moment, and then go there, so that it appears here. For me, I can even see you who are still confused at the next moment, and you who have not made a choice." John said something that makes people feel strange. "All this is God's choice, and I just see this choice."

"What?"

"Maybe the thing I said is too difficult to understand, I understand." John seemed to understand why she had this idea. "But I just want to tell you that choices are not as many as we imagined. Even the world is changing, changing, and reconstructing all the time!"
To be continued...