All Sunday, Xuezhu hid at home doing homework.

She kept writing until five o'clock in the afternoon, when she carried her schoolbag and took her clothes to change her clothes and rushed back to school.

For more than two weeks after that, Xue Zhu made an excuse that she had a brief exam on the weekend and did not go home.

When she came back, the door opposite her home was closed tightly, and Xuezhu didn't ask anything. It was Song Yanping who took the initiative to tell her that her brother had returned to Beijing.

Until the end of the summer vacation, Meng Yuning never came back.

Summer finally ended, and the autumn and winter that followed seemed to be in a hurry.

Xuezhu spends most of her time at school.

When I was walking on the road with my classmates, I felt the clear changes in the climate, and I realized that life was so fast.

When the class was notified that the class would divide the liberal arts and science subjects, Xuezhu chose the liberal arts subject and completely bid farewell to her annoying physics.

Pei Lianyi and Song Yanping wanted her to study science, otherwise she would not have been so distressed about her physics grades at the beginning. Xuezhu just filled out the subject intention form herself until the teacher told her to sign the parents, and she had to take the intention form home to show her parents.

Song Yanping felt that Xuezhu's liberal arts advantage was not great, so she didn't sign it, so she picked up her cell phone and went to the balcony to call her head teacher.

Pei Lianyi, who went home specifically for the sake of his daughter's subject division today, didn't say anything, but just said to her: "Xiaozhu, studying is your own business, so if you decide to study liberal arts, then dad will not stop you, but dad remembers that when you were in junior high school, you actually liked science and said that what you dislike the most was memorization."

Xuezhu stood in front of her father, grabbed her finger and said, "Because junior high school science is relatively simple."

"Do you think science is difficult now?"

Xue Zhu remembered her simulation volume scores and nodded: "Difficult."

"Is it difficult or you didn't study hard? In the first year of high school, you can still get the top dozens of grades in the whole grade. In the monthly exam at the first year of high school, you will fall outside the 100th. If you study hard but don't do well in the exam, I won't say anything, but your class teacher said that you often get away in class and sit in the classroom, and your heart doesn't know where to fly."

Xuezhu couldn't answer.

Pei Lianyi sighed at her and said, "You are escaping."

Xuezhu said nothing and agreed to what her father said.

When facing people or things you don’t want to face, although it sounds shameful, it is indeed the most effective way to avoid being hurt.

At this time, Song Yanping finished the phone call with a serious expression.

"Just just now, your head teacher told me that she also thinks you are more suitable for science. If you are studying for science, you will have a great advantage when you take the college entrance exam. Xiaozhu, listen to us, adults will not harm you, and my mother advises you for your own good."

"If you are good for me, I should make my own decision." Xue Zhu said softly.

"You are still young, what do you know?"

"Why don't I understand," Xue Zhu retorted, staring at her mother, and said in a stronger tone, "You forced me to learn this and that when I was a child. Now, if you are a high school subject, you have to help me make a decision. It's me who goes to high school, but not you."

Pei Lianyi first spoke out a lesson: "Xiaozhu, why are you talking to your mother? Mom is really doing your best."

Xuezhu is so tired of hearing the three words "Snow Zhu" for her good deeds.

From childhood to adulthood, when my mother used her mother's identity to force her to learn things she didn't like, do things she didn't like, and punished her for going back and forth when she was hit and punished.

It's for her own good.

Where is it for her good?

The family rarely gathered at home for dinner. Without saying a few words to greet each other, they directly focused on her study.

Xuezhu felt that it would be better not to have a meal together than this.

"I can't see that she is doing it for me. She always tells me that it's not good here and there in front of others. She has never been satisfied with me. She has never praised me for playing well when she was learning piano. I won the prize and never gave me a reward when she danced. I know that my physics grades are not good, and my grades have also declined. As for saying everywhere, I wish the whole world knew that I didn't study hard?"

Song Yanping also raised her voice and argued with her daughter: "If what you do can satisfy me, will my mother always say to you?"

"But I am at this level. I am not a genius or not very smart," Xuezhu became more and more excited. "Even if you force me to study science, can I get into Tsinghua University and Peking University?"

"Who told you to take the entrance exam for Tsinghua University and Peking University? I just hope you can work harder. If you don't force yourself, how do you know where your potential lies?"

"But I'm really tired!"

Xuezhu suddenly shouted.

Song Yanping was also suddenly stunned.

"Xiaozhu, calm down and speak to your mother better-" Pei Lianyi spoke out to dissuade him, "If you have any worries, you can tell us, don't keep them in your heart."

Xuezhu does have many worries.

After reaching the second year of high school, I felt that I had become a little overwhelmed in many subjects. My cheerfulness and confidence in the past were slowly worn out, and I had to admit my mediocrity.

My father has been home recently, and my mother seems to have agreed to his behavior. She used to quarrel, but now she occasionally meets her at home, and only says a word or two, and then continues her own affairs, even communicating very easily.

Xuezhu knew that they didn't meet and didn't talk to avoid quarrels, but she couldn't stand this kind of atmosphere of getting along with each other, which was obviously a family but was not as good as a stranger.

And the person opposite who hasn't been back for a long time.

Sometimes I dream of the intimacy of childhood, and when I woke up, she was puzzled. This alienation that could not find the reason made her feel terrible. She had no conflicts or quarrels, but she had grown up, so why did she gradually get farther and farther away?

And the sadder she felt, the more she could not give up the person who had become rooted in her heart like a barnacle.

How can you say this to your parents?

With these concerns, Xuezhu can no longer talk about her parents every day like she did when she was a child.

There are less and less common topics.

Looking at her daughter's stubborn and aggrieved expression, she seemed to shed tears in the next second. She shed her childhood tenderness and gradually grew taller and became what she is now. Her delicate and beautiful face did not often smile like she was when she was a child. Sometimes she didn't even know what she was worried about. When she asked her, she just shook her head and refused to say it. She gradually lost dependence and trust for her parents, and began to struggle to escape from the shackles and restraints.

This is true for every child.

At this stage, although I am obviously immature and immature, I am determined to leave my parents.

"Liberal arts is just liberal arts. As long as you study hard, what's the difference between studying literature and science?" Pei Lianyi finally compromised, "You go back to your room to do your homework."

Xuezhu nodded, sniffed and turned back to the room.

The couple heard the sound of a knock-on sound coming from inside.

Song Yanping hesitated for a while and said, "I really let her study liberal arts? In fact, her grades in chemistry and biology are pretty good. If she is willing to grit her teeth and learn physics--"

"Forget it," Pei Lianyi sighed, "Didn't you listen to her just now? You forced her too hard, so the more you thought about what she did, the less she was willing to do."

"I'm really doing it for her good, why doesn't she understand?" Song Yanping also sighed.

The couple remained silent at the same time.

"It would be great if Ningning and the others were at home. She would always be the one who would listen to her brothers and sisters," Song Yanping said softly, "Yueyue is busy with work. I heard that she is about to prepare for a marriage recently. Zihan and Ningning are both in master's degree and have no time to answer the phone. I found her one-on-one tutor, but the teacher also said that she is actually very smart. I don't know why, but she can't improve her learning energy. You said you don't even have the motivation to study, so how can you learn well?"

"Yanping, I want to discuss something with you." Pei Lianyi said seriously.

"you say."

"I want to take Xiaozhu to Shenzhen to study. Both educational resources and teaching staff are better than at home. The cost is secondly, mainly because the quota is difficult to get," Pei Lianyi said. "But Lao Li has something to do there, so he can arrange it for Xiaozhu. Moreover, the housing prices in Shenzhen have risen well recently. After I go there to work, I can still afford her."

Song Yanping didn't speak for a long time.

Pei Lianyi: "Yan Ping?"

Song Yanping looked at her husband with a complicated expression: "It's okay if you go to Shenzhen, but you have to take Xiaozhu with you now?"

Pei Lianyi was stunned and said, "I actually didn't plan to let Xiaozhu study there and let her follow you. But... this is also for her. If you don't agree, forget it."

"...I don't disagree," Song Yanping suddenly closed her eyes and said with difficulty, "As long as it can be for her good, I don't disagree with it. Wait for the divorce certificate...you ask her."

***

My parents finally agreed to Xue Zhu study in liberal arts.

Xue Zhu thought the struggle would last for a long time, but she didn't expect that her mother simply signed the letter of intention the next day.

Before returning to school, I thought I would be chanted for a long time, but it was unexpected that my mother just took her to the bus stop and said to Xuezhu, who was sitting in the bus, and at the moment she drove away, she said to take good care of herself.

Xuezhu saw that her mother's eyes turned red.

Is it because of the quarrel between her and her mother yesterday that made her sad?

During the quarrel, she blurted out all kinds of complaints and vented herself after the quarrel. However, looking at her mother's appearance, she began to regret it in a vain and blamed herself for being angry or wronged at that time, she shouldn't say such words that made her mother sad.

The price of quarrels with your family is the greatest.

But the hurtful words have been said and cannot be taken back.

***

When I returned to school, I handed over the intention to divide the subject to the teacher, and then the second year of high school ended.

This summer vacation, Xuezhu and her classmates signed up for the school tutoring class.

By the end of July, everyone was very tired of learning and discussed going to the movies together.

There are many top-notch movies this year. In the first half of the year, most of the girls in the class went to watch. In addition to seeing the intimate scenes, a group of high school students who are still young naturally couldn't see any insights. They felt that they were pretentious and artificial, and Xuezhu didn't feel that they were tear-jerking. The people who cried in the cinema were all adults.

As for why I cried, I probably didn’t cry for the plot.

It's because of your lost youth.

He Zhengyue also went to see it and posted a special literary and artistic talk.

"When you truly understand a movie about youth or a song that laments the passage of time, you have an understanding of it, understand what the movie wants to perform for the audience, and what the song wants to sing to the audience, you have to understand that those youth and passing times have nothing to do with you anymore."

Xuezhu said a slight praise in a daze, but she didn't understand what her sister's whining and groaning meant.
To be continued...