Chapter 20 I want to have a future with you
"What's wrong with Nuo'er?" Lingzi reached out and touched her, turned on the wall lights in her daughter's room. The lights were soft and warm and would not hurt the child's eyes. This is Gu Sheng's all-intelligent home decoration.
"Mom! I'm afraid..." Nuoer threw herself into Lingzi's arms and acted coquettishly.
"My little baby is all about to become a primary school student. What about bravery?" Lingzi held her daughter and comforted her gently.
Nuoer had just split the bed, and it took more than a month to break up and get back together. Still now, she often wakes up in the middle of the night and calls her mother. Lingzi doesn't sleep well every day. Nuoer will definitely wake up when she calls her, and even Gu Sheng is surprised, "I can't hear how you did it at all."
"Maybe it's telepathy. If Nuoer can't sleep well, I can feel it." Suzuko smiled.
Lingzi remembered that when she was a child, she had always slept with her grandmother. Later, when Xiaobo came, Li Yibai set up a small bed in the corner of the living room and asked Lingzi to sleep there by herself. Lingzi was less than seven years old that year.
Lingzi still remembers that every time she woke up in the middle of the night, the little north house was pitch black. There were no night lights in that era. Even if Ji Xueying had no choice, there was no waste of electricity. There was no street light in the dilapidated railway community, and the room and outside the window were all black.
Lingzi didn't dare to go to Ji Xueying and Li Yibai. The only time she ran into her parents' room crying, but Ji Xueying kicked her out of bed and even called her a crying star.
铃子抽泣着摸到了奶奶的房间,奶奶是最疼她的,刚要把她抱上床,李一白循着声音过来了,一把提起铃子,把她扔回了自己的小床,还扬言吵醒了小波,就要揍她.
In those days, bells always shrank into a ball, wrapped themselves in a quilt, and pressed against the wall inside the bed, as if they were to get into the wall to be safe.
Those sobbing in the dark night, staring at the window helplessly, looking forward to the dawn, Lingzi didn't want her child to repeat the same mistakes. When Zihao was a child, Lingzi always hugged him and slept. She looked at the child's chubby little face and slept so peacefully, Lingzi's heart was about to melt.
Later, I met Gu Sheng. After getting married, Gu Sheng advised her that the child must be separated before the age of seven, otherwise it would be detrimental to his mental health. Lingzi complained about this and once questioned Gu Sheng forgot that he had hidden selfishness and had a big fight with him.
Gu Sheng is a calm person. The so-called quarrel is often caused by Lingzi yelling alone. Gu Sheng rarely strikes back. When Lingzi calms down, the two of them negotiate again. This is true in business and life.
Suzuko was often grateful for his generous and tolerantness. Gu Sheng signed her up for a parent training camp and often downloaded knowledge lectures on education for her. Finally one day Suzuko realized that Gu Sheng was right and she was a little overcorrected.
Before going to school, Zihao finally separated the bed with his parents. Gu Sheng was afraid that he would be afraid, so he specially put a night light for him. When he woke up in the middle of the night, the child would not be afraid. At that time, the conditions were not good. The family lived in two small rooms, with a total of two bedrooms close by. Zihao woke up in the middle of the night and called him mother. Lingzi could reach his son's room in almost two seconds.
"Mom, I want to be brave, but I'm still a little scared..." Nuoer sobbed and looked at Lingzi with tears in her eyes.
"Come on, mom, lie with you for a while, can I leave when you fall asleep?"
"Okay!" Nuoer lay down happily, "Mom, I want to hear a story."
"Okay, Nuo'er closes his eyes, mom tells you a story about Little Red Riding Hood..." Lingzi reached out and patted Nuo'er slowly.
Although the conditions are very good now and all kinds of audio and colorful video software occupy the early education market for children, for children, the stories told by parents are far better than software, and the stories are warm.
"Is Little Red Riding Hood very brave?" Lingzi asked softly, without answering. Lingzi opened her eyes and saw that Nuoer had fallen asleep at some point. Her thick eyelashes were projected onto her delicate face, like two rows of small brushes.
"Cute!" Lingzi smiled docilely. She quietly got out of bed and covered her daughter with a small quilt. This was what Gu Sheng had just bought for her. The thin pink silk quilt was embroidered with the Snow White pattern, which Nuoer liked very much.
"You can't spoil Nuoer too much. Don't you think she's too spoiled?" Gu Sheng once raised an objection.
"If girls want to raise wealth, they have to be favored." Suzuko disagreed. After having Nuoer, she wanted to give all the best in the world to her daughter to compensate for the debt she suffered when she was young.
"You can be rich in material things, but you should still let her suffer a little in education, otherwise she will be too spoiled. What should I do if I leave my parents when I grow up?" Gu Sheng always patiently reasoned with Suzuko.
"I don't care, I just want her to be delicate." Lingzi knew that she couldn't tell him, so she started to mess around.
"You, you actually already know that you are wrong, right?" Gu Sheng took her into his arms with a doting desire. "I have discovered that you are trying to make up for what you have been owed. Although you haven't told me in detail, you have never mentioned your parents and family over the years, and I have guessed it."
"Are you a fox? Are you a monster? No, you are the worm in my belly!" Lingzi was stunned for a moment, and then began to act like a scoundrel.
"Are you disgusting? The roundworms want to eat you little by little!" Gu Sheng acted and opened his mouth wide, scaring Lingzi to scream.
"Although Zihao is not my biological son, I think this child is quite hard-working, especially when he wandered around with us a few years ago. It was so hard at that time." Gu Sheng leaned against the head of the bed and sighed, and Lingzi snuggled over, which was also the reason why she felt that she owed Zihao.
"I often feel very conflicted and feel that I owe my son, but I can't ignore him now. I'm afraid that he will be depressed and lose his ambitions. If he is like me, he will drop out of school after graduating from junior high school, what will happen?" Suzuko sighed.
"It's not easy to be a parent, but it's even more difficult to be a successful parent. Have you experienced it now?" Gu Sheng kissed her small nose.
"Yes, it's too difficult to be a parent!"
"Are you still hating your parents?" Gu Sheng took the opportunity to slander.
"Don't mention them to me, okay?" Lingzi's body became a little stiff and his voice became cold.
"Some scars cannot be exposed, I understand, and some things are still a pain if you don't say them out. I've been waiting for you to speak. Maybe speaking out is a relief. People always have to reconcile with themselves, right?" Gu Sheng hugged her tightly.
"Yes." Suzuko has known Gu Sheng for ten years. In addition to occasionally showing her hatred for her original family and also expressing her envy of the harmonious relationship between Gu Sheng and her parents, she has never talked about her past, including who Zihao's biological father is.
Fortunately, Gu Sheng kept saying that he didn't care about Lingzi's past, what he wanted to have was her future.
It's great to be like this.
Chapter completed!