Chapter 1176 I don't want to die, and I don't really want to live
Ji'an County
Because Concubine Yun said she wanted to have lunch together, An personally cooked and made a few special side dishes. However, Concubine Yun was extremely fickle and had a hard time thinking about her temperament. She had clearly agreed to have dinner together, but when it was time to eat, she suddenly said she wanted to go shopping on the street, but in the end, only An and Xiangrong were left with the dishes on the table.
An said to Xiangrong helplessly: "Let's eat! I left some for Concubine Yun, and when she comes back, she can eat it if she is hungry and hot. Although she stays in the county, she has rarely contacted you and me for this period of time. I think there is still a gap between you and the Seventh Prince in my heart. Today, 80% of them have also changed their minds. This situation has not been the case once or twice. Don't take it seriously. Eat more. If you lose weight like this, it will be ugly."
"Am I... very thin?" Xiangrong asked with a whisper, then smiled and shook his head, "Don't you say that girls should look thinner? They will make their waist look better after losing weight. The ladies in the expensive households in Beijing are trying to reduce their body size. When the elder sisters were there, in order to make themselves look thinner, they didn't eat a bite of food for five days, but only ate some fruits and some tea."
"But later? I was so hungry that I fainted. I asked the doctor to prescribe medicine. I took it for half a month before I had some strength." An was angry when he mentioned Fengchenyu. "Why would you learn to learn from her?" But when I thought about the final outcome of Fengchenyu, I sighed and said that compared with the Fengchenyu's life in the past, it was like a past life. If I had known that today would have such a happy situation, she might have lived a more energetic life. "Eat quickly! Don't think about the ones that have nothing." As he said that, he pressed a spoon of rice into the bowl of Xiangrong.
Xiangrong watched An press the rice hard and pressed her again and again. He sighed and picked up the bowl, picked up a chopstick and brought the rice to his mouth, but he couldn't swallow it. After finally taking a few bites, but for some reason, a sudden feeling of sadness surged up. The intensity of sadness made her almost unable to hold back. Even though she tried her best, her tears still couldn't help but fall down.
She put down the bowls and chopsticks, covered her face with her hands and kept crying. An Shi was frightened and asked, "What's wrong? Child, what's wrong with you? Why did you cry suddenly?"
Xiangrong shook her head while crying, and even swallowed, "I don't know, mom, I don't know what's going on, it's just so sad. It's sudden, no reason. Mom, my heart hurts so much, why is it so painful?"
An did not know why? She wanted to let her cry, so she could only help her gently comfort her, and comfort her from time to time: "Maybe this period is too depressing. Concubine Yun refused to leave. You still have to go to her yard to ask for advice all day long. Although she didn't say anything, you felt depressed and your mother saw it. If you want to cry, just cry, but after crying, you have to think about yourself. It is impossible for a person to live alone in his life. Mother always has to leave the world first. If you never have a person by your side and never have one or two children under your knees, how can you feel assured about your mother?"
Xiangrong listened to An and tried hard to hope that the reason why she cried was as she said, but no matter how she leaned up, it was always wrong. She had no choice but to shake her head, "No, mom, it's not what you said, I will cry, not because of that. Mom..." She was stunned and suddenly asked, "If I die one day, you won't cry?"
An was stunned, then nodded: "Yes, you will cry, and you will feel distressed. Even if you are far away from the end of the world, I will still feel distressed because we are mother and daughter, and we are connected to our hearts."
"That's right!" After thinking about it, she actually wiped the tears hard. Although it would still flow out after it was dry, she no longer just covered her face and cried. Instead, she picked up the rice bowl again, stuffed two bites of rice into her mouth, and picked up a chopstick and put it into the bowl, and then said to An, "Then I can't die."
An was confused by her words. Seeing that Xiangrong was working hard to eat, she was even more confused. So she kept staring at Xiangrong until Xiangrong served the second bowl of rice and finally couldn't help asking: "Why did you suddenly say that you can't die? Why do you have to eat so much? You never eat a small bowl of rice, and you can't even eat half a bowl of rice during this period. What's wrong?"
"Nothing." Xiangrong shook his head stubbornly, "I just want to live healthily, for my mother." After saying that, he stuffed a big mouthful of food into his mouth. But as he ate, the tears in his eyes flowed even more. Finally, he flowed into the food, swallowed with tears, and felt faintly salty. "Mom." He said, "Although I want Rong to die for my mother, I don't really want to live. What should I do?"
What to do? She was asking An, and she was also asking herself. There was a kind of uneasiness in her heart, from a person who was hidden deep in her heart, once out of reach, and once close to her, and was only one step away from being able to spend her life together, but in the end she chose to retreat to the first distance. In this world, only that person always touched her heart. Just as An said, she could sense it no matter where she was at the end of the world. But what could that be? She could never walk by his side in thousands of mountains.
Xuan Tianming led Feng Yuheng to retreat to Bincheng with Feng Yuheng. As he walked, Feng Yuheng suddenly found that there seemed to be someone missing. She asked Wangchuan: "Did you see Feng Zhaolian?"
Wangchuan shook his head, "I didn't see it. It seems that I didn't see the Lotus King again after something happened this morning."
She asked others again, and the news she received was that she had never seen Feng Zhaolian again this morning. Feng Yuheng frowned, and his guess turned around in his heart, and finally sighed helplessly. Forget it, that person could not come just for Xuantianhua. He had his persistence and his hatred. When Feng Zhaolian was willing to stay in the palace in a nearly rogue way and lived in the Queen's Jingci Palace, she should understand. The man followed her to the capital, and he could not just want to start a new life. He had a deep blood hatred with Duanmu Anguo, and he had to do everything possible to get the whereabouts of Duanmu Anguo. Now that he had hope, how could Feng Zhaolian stay in the capital safely?
Forget it, I hope he is safe! If not, that is also fate. The cycle of cause and effect, who can escape?
The army finally arrived at Bincheng before dark the next day. Xuan Tianhua left behind a 50,000 army to guard the city. When he saw his own people retreating, he quickly opened the city gate and watched in confusion as Xuan Tianming and Feng Yuheng brought hundreds of thousands of troops back.
The army was stationed in Bincheng again, and Feng Yuheng was still uneasy. After entering the city, he went up to the east wall and kept visiting the city. Unfortunately, after watching for a long time, he still couldn't see what she wanted to see.
After Xuan Tianming entered the city, he made an emergency deployment. The combat meeting lasted for three hours. Bai Ze told him that Feng Yuheng had been on the city tower. When he passed by, he was seeing the girl's thin little body standing at the corner of the city tower. She only had to take a step forward and she was about to fall down. This really scared him into a cold sweat.
He quickly went up and pulled the person down, but before he could speak, Feng Yuheng said, "Xuan Tianming, you are here just right, I want to go and talk to you about something."
"You want to go back to Jiancheng?" He knew this girl so well. If it were an enemy, this girl would never leave any kindness and would definitely use the most fierce means to deal with it. But if the person she really cares about, she would protect her life. Even if her wings were not plump, she would still use her slender arms to protect the person she cared about.
Feng Yuheng nodded, "Brother Qi hasn't withdrawn yet, I'm really worried. Xuan Tianming, let me go back and take a look! I'll never have anything to do, you should understand." She blinked at him and shook her left wrist, "Don't worry, as long as you find Brother Qi, we will return immediately, and I'm just going to find someone, and I will definitely not fight Duanmu Anguo head-on."
Xuan Tianming was helpless, "Go! Even if I don't agree, I can't stop you. I just have to be careful. In addition, you must not drink Jiancheng's water, do you know?"
"I know!" the little girl laughed happily, "Don't worry, I'll go back and I'll be safe." While saying that, she ran down the city tower and shouted loudly: "Xuan Tianming, your horse is lent to me to ride. I will hide the horse in a safe place and guarantee it will be brought back to you." After that, the man had already run down the ground.
The city gate opened a small crack, and Qianli personally let her go, and then he saw their princess riding a BMW and whipped it. He couldn't help but grin. He was so fierce! The enemy was still on the enemy's territory. A little woman was so arrogant and out of the hole alone. Her courage was really not even enough for her. Looking back at Xuan Tianming, who had already come down from the city tower, asked worriedly: "The princess is not going to be a problem, right?"
Xuan Tianming followed the gap before the city gate to see the back of the quake, and did not answer the money. This is not a question of whether there is anything wrong, but knowing that the girl has room to save her life, she still feels uneasy...
Ten miles away from the city, Feng Yuheng was stationed in the place where the Dashun Army was once stationed. Although it was cold in winter, the bodies were everywhere, and there were nowhere to put the remaining limbs and flesh everywhere, which still made the world even turbid.
She got off the horse and rushed into the corpse like crazy. She staggered and almost got crushed several times. Once, she leaned on the ground with both hands and pressed on the head of a dead man. She didn't care about disgust and tried to search for that land. Every tent that she couldn't put away was too late to check it out. Unfortunately, she couldn't find Xuan Tianhua successfully in the end.
Chapter completed!