I held Lu Yating's letter, my hands trembled slightly, the letter paper was wrinkled, and some of the handwriting was blurred. Obviously, Lu Yating was crying while writing, and tears kept hitting it.

Although my heart was already broken at this time, I still held back my heartbreak and continued to watch:

Qin Zheng, I know that when I signed my name on the operation sheet, I was getting farther and farther away from you. I was lying on the operating table, the spotlight hit my face, they gave me anesthetics, my body lost consciousness bit by bit, but my head was particularly clear. I kept thinking about your appearance, your smile, the sound of your speaking, until my head began to numb, your appearance became blurred, but the sound of your name was circling in my ears, you called my name over and over again, and that gentle voice kept accompanying me to my dream. I really didn't expect that at that time, you were outside the operating room door, shouting my name like that crazy...

After reading this, I remembered the heart-wrenching look in the hospital that day, and my tears blurred my eyes again.

Aunt Mei handed me a tissue, and I wiped my tears and continued reading:

Qin Zheng, in fact, I don’t even have the face to write these words for you. It’s me that I’m sorry for you, I ruined everything about us. For our happiness, you used to work so hard and desperately want to be with me. It’s me that failed your efforts. When I woke up from the operation that day, the aunt in the bed next door described to me your crazy behavior in the hospital that day. As I heard it, I burst into tears, and my heart was bursting with tears... At that moment, I really wanted to fly to you immediately, hug you, and talk to you, but when I really returned to Binhai and saw you, I didn’t know how to face you for a while, and I didn’t even know what to say. There was only one sentence in my heart, that was sorry, but I didn’t dare to say it to you.

I know that you won’t dislike me, but I can’t forgive myself, nor can I tolerate such me being with you. If you are so good, you should have a better life and better happiness.

That day, I asked Aunt Mei and Yu Ling to come out together. I think you probably think I'm very strange. In fact, I also think I'm very strange, and even a little ridiculous. The reason is very simple. I just wanted to find a successor among them. Later, I found that I couldn't choose because I feel that you are very compatible with any of them. It's not that they are so good. The main reason is that you are so good and excellent in my heart. So I think you are very compatible with them. Even if you are with Fan Bingbing and Gao Yuanyuan, I think I will think you are very compatible.

That day, I strongly asked you to take a photo with them in a wedding dress. I knew you were very unhappy. In fact, I just wanted to remember that look. I knew that you would marry one of them in the end. I probably wouldn't have the chance to attend your wedding. So, I wanted to see that in advance, but when you were really standing with Yu Ling in your dress, my heart hurt. I was jealous and very jealous, because I found that you were really that kind of compatible. I once thought that only I was with you was the most compatible. But when I saw that scene, I suddenly thought that it was me who was self-indulgent. If it weren't for me, you would be just as compatible as them. Even if it weren't for me, you wouldn't have to bear such pain. You might have been a very happy person...

It sounds ridiculous. When you and Aunt Mei separated, I took advantage of the opportunity to be with you and secretly swear that I must use my good deeds to give you the greatest happiness, so that you can forget Aunt Mei and become the happiest man in the world. For this vow, I began to learn how to cook, clean, and take care of your daily life. I want to be a good wife and mother, and do my best. Not only to make you like me, I want your parents to like me, make me your pride and their pride. But until now, I discovered my childishness and ridicule. I realized that the greatest happiness you can give is not virtue or pride, but to accompany you, being together forever, companionship is the greatest happiness.

But Qin Zheng, I'm sorry, I can't give it to you anymore. I'm sorry, I'm really sorry...

That day, I gave each of them a wedding dress without saying anything. In fact, there was no other meaning. I couldn't give you any compensation. I just thought it was to leave you a memory. I thought, one day, on the lawn by the sea, the sun was shining, the birds were singing and the flowers were fragrant, and everyone gathered together. You will definitely hold one of them and walk slowly from the crowd. With the blessings of relatives and friends, towards the happiness that ultimately belongs to you. I can't witness all this. This wedding dress and this diamond ring, just treat it as my wish, let them witness all this for me, just like, I can really see everything...

I went to do three things today. The first thing was to buy a house for Lu Dayou. I like your friends very much. Maybe it is because of the reason why I love the house and the U.S. I love you, I hope you are happy, so I also hope your friends can be happy. You tell Dayou that I don’t have much money, so I can only buy such a big one. Let him not dislike him. Hurry up and marry that girl and don’t let her run away. I can see that the girl loves him very much. If she missed it, she may not meet such a good girl again.

The second thing is that I got the card back for you. The money belongs to you. My dad can't use it now. I'm afraid he won't pay it back, so I secretly got it back for you. Using this money to make your career bigger can be regarded as fulfilling a wish for me. After all, there is my name in the Yazheng advertisement.

The third thing is that I bought a massage chair for my uncle. He always squatted in the community and played chess for half a day. The lumbar spine couldn't stand it. He pressed more massages and protected his body. He bought an automatic dishwasher and sweeper for my aunt. It should be delivered tomorrow. She always can't stay idle. She always goes back to see them more often, chat with them for me, and tell them for me that I love them, just like my parents. In this life, I have no luck to be their daughter-in-law, which is my biggest regret. In the next life, I will definitely be their daughter-in-law...

Finally, Qin Zheng, don’t look for me, don’t worry, I won’t seek short-sighted opinions, I just want to find a strange place to think clearly about some things, bring my blessings, live a good life, be happy, I love you...

I was trembling all over and finished reading the letter, and my tears kept flowing down. After reading the last sentence, I suddenly felt like I had lost my strength and intuition, and fell to the ground with a thud.

Aunt Mei hurriedly came to help me, "Qin Zheng, are you okay?"

I couldn't feel the pain at all. I shook my head like a wood in a daze. I grabbed Aunt Mei and said anxiously, "Aunt Mei, Aunt Mei, she... she is leaving me! She is leaving me!"

Aunt Mei was stunned.

"No, I want to chase her back!" I tried hard to help Aunt Mei stand up, "I can't live without her, I have to find her back!"
Chapter completed!