"I remember someone said that human growth is actually constantly exposing the lies of life." Yu Ling said.

I was stunned, thought about this sentence, and nodded convincingly, "That's right, I have really thoroughly understood the meaning of this sentence now. There are really too many lies in the world of adults."

"What about?" she asked.

"For example, the saying that lovers finally get married may be just a beautiful hope." I said, "Although no one has really counted it, I believe that in all human love, the true lovers finally get married is definitely only a small number, and most of them have not reached the end. Because of too much helplessness, they finally compromised with reality. Most of the people who accompanied you into the marriage hall are not the ones you had expected..."

Yu Ling nodded and said, "So, since you understand all this, you should be more open-minded. In the adult world, some things are not yours, but really not yours. No matter how hard you work and strive for it, it is useless." Yu Ling held the wine glass, paused for a while, and then said softly, "The only thing you can do...is to wait..."

"What are you waiting for?" I smiled bitterly, "She is going to get engaged. If you wait any longer, it's nothing more than watching her get married to others. What else can I wait for?"

Yu Ling didn't answer me, and took a sip of wine silently, and said for a while, "But Qin Zheng, what's the use of drinking yourself like this? Some things can't be forced to do, and it will be useless for you torture yourself like this, and it will only make those who worry about you feel distressed."

I smiled bitterly, "I'm not tormenting myself, I just... can't sleep, I don't drink, I can't sleep at all..."

Yu Ling looked at me, and his eyes showed heartache and pity, "Qin Zheng, I really want to help you, but at this stage, for me, I really can't get so much money..."

"I have won your heart." I interrupted her and said, "I know you have tried your best. For me, it is my lifelong honor to be able to make friends like you."

Yu Ling looked at me again with a complicated expression, but said nothing.

"Then you... didn't call Lu Yating?" she asked me.

I shook my head, "No."

"Why don't you ask her what she thinks? Did she tell you nothing and just marry someone else?" Yu Ling asked.

"She..." I shook my head with a wry smile, "What can she... tell me? I know what she thinks. She even wants to be with me more than I do, but she has no choice. That's her father after all."

Yu Ling nodded, "That's true, then now... there is no way around?"

I was unwilling to accept this, but I also understood that Yu Ling was right. For me, this was an irreversible dead chess step...

"Let's go, I'll take you back." Yu Ling said, "It's getting late, and you've drunk a lot."

"I'm fine, you go back first. Don't you have another one tomorrow?" I said, "I can't sleep even if I go back now."

"Or... you give yourself some time off and go out to relax." Yu Ling suggested, "Maybe it will be better."

"Let's talk about it." I waved at her, "You go, I'm fine."

Yu Ling looked at me and sighed helplessly.

"Okay, then I'll leave first."

Yu Ling looked at me with drunken eyes, hesitated for a moment, but left.

After she left, I was still sitting there and continuing to drink alone.

Although I had already felt a little drunk, I knew that this was far from enough.

I am afraid of insomnia, because once I have insomnia, I will have to open my eyes and fight the long loneliness and night alone.

Meditation all night, helpless and painful torture...

At the same time, I feel afraid of falling asleep because once I fall asleep, I can't control my dreams at all. In the dreams, I can always see even more cruel dreams.

Finally, I felt dizzy and everything in front of me became hazy. I knew that I was drunk and could go back to bed.

I staggered out of the bar and went home.

After entering the door, I fell asleep without washing up.

I thought I could fall asleep quickly, but who knew that I could lie there, tossing and turning, and I couldn't fall asleep no matter what.

I simply went to wash and picked up the toothbrush. I remembered that Lu Yating was angry because she used my toothbrush to vent her anger.

I also remember that we once had a dispute over toothpaste from the middle or the bottom because of toothpaste, and I didn’t think so. She was a little obsessive-compulsive and had to squeeze it out bit by bit from the bottom, because of this, I even argued with me several times.

Once, after the argument, I was so angry that I was sulking in the bedroom alone. Lu Yating walked in with a shy face.

She pulled me, but I ignored her and shook her hand away.

"What are you doing? Can you apologize to you?" she smiled, "Master, I've been angry for a fight for so long. Have you never seen you last for so long?"

I turned around, "Who did you say? Are you sincerely apologizing?"

She laughed, "Okay, okay, just kidding, you're the most durable in the world, right? Isn't it just a fight? Isn't it normal for couples?"

"Please, please correct your attitude, okay?" I said righteously, "Isn't this a simple quarrel?"

"Okay, okay, then what's the problem? I'll listen carefully." She said with a smile on her face.

"The key to the problem is that you have had several arguments with me because of a squeezing toothpaste!" I said angrily.

"Okay, OK," she smiled, and despite my opposition, she forced herself into my arms and kissed me. Her tender and sweet look made me feel relieved.

"Qin Zheng, in fact, I regret it very much every time I quarrel with you." She said.

"Just know if you regret it." I said satisfied.

She smiled, "I regret not doing well and want to argue again."

"you……"

...

Tears fell down, and my mind kept showing the bits and pieces of the past with Lu Yating, from the beginning to the present.

From the cafe we ​​went to the blind date called Zhiyin to my school dance, the situation we were together on the way to Zhuzhou, and later we lived together, all the bits and pieces, those happy, happy, even quarrels, unhappy, every detail came up without getting tired of it, like a huge torrent, impacting my already fragile nerves.

Then I suddenly realized that Lu Yating, like a plant, had already grown slowly in my body. Now, she suddenly left me, and every inch was a torn pain...

I was trapped in the past and couldn't extricate myself, and suddenly my phone rang.
Chapter completed!