He laughed, "Don't worry, I haven't done anything about murder in a long time."

Although he said this, I was still frightened and subconsciously glanced at the gun not far from me.

"That year, I followed my boss to Baiyun Mountain to play. The boss talked about business. I was bored and went into a small temple on the mountain. There was an old monk in it. He told me that I was 'the life palace was dark and the year was coming. Once I was a dragon and phoenix, I was in the hands of the world, but the six fates were gone, and all the results were false'." Luo Feng said.

"What does it mean?" I asked

Luo Feng smiled and said, "You have been to college like this, but no one who is educated understands it. For me, a teenage illiterate, there was no way I knew what it meant. I just had a good memory. I remembered it at that time and asked someone to ask what it meant. Someone told me that this was not very good. I said that although I could become a great person, I might not get everything."

"Is that what it means?" I asked.

"I didn't understand at that time," he said, "I just didn't accept this, because at that time, my business was getting better and better. When I was twenty years old, I was already in this industry and became the boss. There were many younger brothers behind me who had sex with me. There was some power in the white and black way. At that time, I felt that I was invincible in the world. If I had to do wind and wind and rain, there was nothing I could not get. It was not until I met Liu Ziwen that I finally understood the old monk's words. He calculated it very accurately. I got everything, but compared with what I couldn't get, it was all garbage. Isn't it just what he said? In the end, I still didn't get what I wanted most..."

I nodded sadly.

"On the night when I was arrested, when the police came in, I almost realized that it was Liu Ziwen who betrayed me, and it was confirmed from her reaction at that time. But do you know that I didn't hate her at all at that time, and even my heart was calm, because I was always mentally prepared for this business. As the movie said, I will have to pay it back sooner or later. What I was worried about was that I would probably not see her again in this life. At that time, I didn't know that I still had a chance to come out. I had a lot of things to say to her, but it was too late, so in a hurry, I pulled off a strand of her hair. From her reaction at that time, she must have thought that I hated her because I did this." Luo Feng said.

"She told me about this." I said.

"That strand of hair gave me hope, do you know, during that time in prison, I would smell her hair every night before going to bed. There was a faint fragrance of apricot blossoms in her hair, just like she was still lying in my arms, and it was also magical. After smelling her hair, I dreamed of her every day, and almost no day fell down. During that time, I came here, and I thought about it inside. If there was still a chance to come out, after I came out, I would no longer do this business, just want to find a place,

I live the life of ordinary people with Liu Ziwen, even if it’s simple and plain, as long as I can be with her, I can do anything. But who knows, after I came out, I learned that she already has a new love and is with others. Do you know what kind of feeling in my heart? It’s like the sky is falling. She wants to leave me? Be with others? Why? Why? I’m going crazy. I want to kill people. Really, I have been trying to kill countless times and want to kill Zhang San, but I…heshesitated for a while and dared not do it.”

"Why?" I asked.

Originally, I thought that a person like him had killed someone in his teenage years. Now, this situation is caused by madness and doesn't care about having one more life on his hands, but after I asked, I suddenly understood the reason.

"I still have hope in my heart, and I still have hope for Liu Ziwen. I know she loves me, so I can't kill people. Once I kill someone, she and I will never have hope to be together, so I held back. I know she loves me, so I think one day, she will eventually return to me," Luo Feng's expression became dim and sighed heavily, "But who knows, things are increasingly deviating from my original intention. I found that Liu Ziwen has really fallen in love with Zhang San. I didn't believe it at first and was unwilling to accept this reality, but after I really contacted and investigated Zhang San, I found that this might be true. Zhang San is a man, a man worthy of her love, but I still don't want to give up. She is my life, so I have been persistent and doing things that I look down on myself..."

Luo Feng seemed very painful. He took another sip of wine and said, "You basically know what happened later. Since I decided to leave this industry, they have been causing trouble for me. The purpose is very simple, just to let me go back, but I was determined and refused to go back. They were angry and planned to silence me because I knew too many secrets, but I was not small. They couldn't move me for a while, so they took a more extreme approach and handed over my old secret to the police and let the police kill me."

"So that's the case, then do you... regret it?" I asked.

"What do you regret?" he asked.

"You have paid so much for Liu Ziwen, but she..."

"No." Luo Feng said, "I don't regret it. In this life, I don't regret anything I do for her. Moreover, she is with Zhang San, and I think she will be happy in the future, that's enough."

"Then you... have you let it go?" I asked.

He smiled bitterly, "Let go? How is it possible? I can't let go anymore. As long as I'm alive, I can't let go. I just think about some things clearly and I'm just desperate."

"What's desperate?" I asked.

"She... maybe, she has never loved me." Luo Feng said bitterly, with pitying despair in his eyebrows and eyes.

"Not." I said.

He was stunned.

"I think she must have loved you. She may even love you until now." I said.

He was quite surprised and looked at me, "Why did you say that?"

"Sometimes before she and Zhang San decided to get married, she once asked me to drink. At that time, she looked very painful. She was drunk and told a lot about you. At that time, she was very entangled and painful. At that time..."

Before I could finish speaking, I suddenly heard a knock on the door.

Luo Feng suddenly became alert, got up and held the gun that I had planned for a long time in his hand, signaling me to talk to the people outside the door.

I had no choice but to ask, "Who?"

"It's me."
Chapter completed!