When she opened her eyes again, her eyes were pale. Many faces were blurry. She looked over one by one, but she didn't react much. The faces were enlarged and shrunk in front of her, and her facial features were always blurred. She opened her eyes hard, but she still couldn't see clearly. Then someone turned around and asked the doctor: "What's wrong with her? Didn't she wake up?"

A cold hand stretched out her eyelids, and a sharp flashlight came over, and she instinctively turned her head and avoided.

The doctor spoke a long passage of English, and she frowned and buried her face in the pillow.

A picture flashed through my mind. Before she fell into darkness, the lights in the operating room went out. In front of her, a door was pulled open. Someone pushed a bed out, and someone sighed and cried beside her. Then Assistant Huang closed his eyes sadly and turned his head to translate the doctor's words to her: surgery...accidentally...death...

Those intermittent words rushed into her ears, like bombs after bomb, blowing her only hope to nothing. She didn't cry or make a fuss. She just opened her eyes and looked at Assistant Huang. She must have heard it wrong, or Assistant Huang was talking nonsense, how could it be... There were so many surgical accidents, even if there were, it wouldn't happen to Shaoqian... They must be lying to her, so she didn't believe it. The person who came out of the operating room must not be Shaoqian. His face was covered with a cloth. How could it be Shaoqian? But Lei Yunze suddenly let go of her, as if he was stiff, and soon, he walked towards the man with big strides.

Losing support, Xia Xiaobei sat softly on the ground. She didn't know what she was thinking. She only knew that it must not be Shaoqian. Shaoqian could not have something to do. He said he would wait for her to come back, but he hadn't waited for her yet, so how could it be something to do?

From afar, Lei Yunze seemed to lift the white cloth covered in the man's face, and then, suddenly, closed his eyes.

Why do you have to close your eyes? Why do you show such a sad expression? Why? Why? That's obviously not Shaoqian...

Xia Xiaobei sat up all of a sudden and grabbed the sleeve of a person beside him: "Shaoqian, where is Shaoqian? I want to see Shaoqian... You take me to see Shaoqian..."

She grabbed the man's clothes desperately and shouted at the top of her lungs. The people around her fell into death silence for a moment. She didn't believe it and suddenly let go of her hand: "Are you all talking? Where is Shaoqian's room?"

Only then did she finally see clearly that the person she was holding onto was Xia Ru.

"Sister, I beg you, please tell me if you are fine? Which ward Shaoqian is in? I want to see him, I promised to watch him enter the operating room, I want to see him be fine... Sister, I beg you..."

Xia Ru just turned her head and wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes with her hands. Seeing this, Xia Xiaobei suddenly lifted the quilt and jumped out of the bed. There was a dropper in her hand. Amid the screams of everyone, she tripped to the ground, and the dropper was also squeezed out, bringing out a thin bloodline.

"Xiaobei..." Someone whimpered and went up to help her. She couldn't feel the pain at all. Her whole body was cold and numb. She lay on the cold and hard floor, and still crawled towards the door desperately.

Someone held her up and advised her in tears: "Don't do this, Shaoqian...he has left..."

It seemed that it took a lot of effort to say the last sentence. Xia Xiaobei was stunned for a long time, slowly turned his head, and saw clearly little by little. Qin Shulan was the one who supported him.

"Auntie, no, Shaoqian promised me that I wouldn't lose... Auntie, don't lie to me, Shaoqian won't leave me, he is reluctant to let me go, he is reluctant to let me go..."

She didn't know whether to tell her or Qin Shulan, but she just wanted to break away from Qin Shulan's hand: "Auntie, please let me go and see Shaoqian. I beg you, let me take a look at him..."

"Xiaobei..." Qin Shulan gave Xia Ru a wink, and the two of them came over to hold Xia Xiaobei together. Qin Shulan said in her ear: "You have been in a coma for two days, Shao Qian... is gone. Yunze sent his body back to Beijing. When you are in good health, we will send you back to Beijing...see him..."

No more...the body...she instinctively ignored the words that would make her collapse, but just like a puppet doll, nodded stiffly: "Well, I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine. You take me back to Beijing and take me to see Shaoqian..."

Xia Ru looked at Xia Xiaobei and said to Qin Shulan: "When she does this, it will be useless even if you let her rest. She will not give up if she doesn't see Shaoqian's body with her own eyes. I'll go and help her discharge from the hospital."

Qin Shulan nodded and personally helped Xia Xiaobei change clothes and pack her luggage. Xia Xiaobei was always confused and at mercy. She had only one thought in her mind: she was about to see Shaoqian, and she could finally see Shaoqian.

The three of them took the fastest flight back to Beijing. Xia Ru had called Xia's father and mother to come to Beijing to help comfort Xia Xiaobei. Qin Shulan received the news of her loss and traveled back and forth between Beijing and New York for a few days, and was already exhausted. On the day Qin Shulan arrived, Lei Yunze took Ye Shaoqian's body to return to Beijing by helicopter, preparing for Shaoqian's funeral.

The same helicopter brought the anxious Xia Xiaobei and the already cold body of Ye Shaoqian. After this, they just passed each other and had no chance of intersection. Xia Xiaobei thought carefully and found that she could not even see Shaoqian's last glance. In his impression, he would always close his eyes and smile and say, "Xiaobei, I love you."

It really fits his style. Even the last side is such a sensational picture. What he left to her is always the most beautiful and best, but what should she do? What he gave her is so good that she can't forget him in this life.

On the plane, Xia Xiaobei unexpectedly did not cry or make a fuss. But she kept her eyes open and woke up from a coma, she never closed her eyes again.

Xia Ru asked her what was wrong? She said, I should look at Shaoqian, otherwise I wouldn't be able to sleep. As soon as I closed my eyes, I saw Shaoqian walking towards me in blood and asked me why I didn't see him for the last time? I didn't know how to answer, but I rushed over and I was outside the operating room, but I didn't even see him for the last time...

As she spoke, two lines of clear tears slid down her face. She cried too much these days, but she hadn't closed her eyes. Her eyes were blood-red and blood-red. She grabbed her sister's hand and said, "Shaoqian must blame me. I didn't even stay by his side at the most critical moment. He must be angry and refused to see me... Sister, can he forgive me if I go back to Beijing to see him? Will he leave me and ignore me again?"

Xia Ru choked and couldn't speak. How did she tell her that her stupid sister that the man had left and would never come back? She saw them with her own eyes as close as a real couple that night in the United States, how could she know that she had become like a separation of heaven and man in the blink of an eye?

When the plane landed, Lei Yunze picked up the plane outside the airport. As soon as Qin Shulan saw her son, she pointed to the dull Xia Xiaobei and whispered: "She has never been close to her eyes. She always said that we lied to him, but she would not believe that Shaoqian had already...you go and persuade her."

Lei Yunze looked at Xia Xiaobei who was held in her arms by Xia Ru. She was even more haggard than when she came back to Shanghai. Her eye sockets were deeply sunken. Her eyes might be too congested, all of which were dense red blood. She didn't react when she saw him, as if no one could arouse her little reaction. Her eyes were always empty and lost focus, as if a blind person.

He took them back to the Lei family's ancestral home. The moment he stepped into the door, Xia Xiaobei saw a photo of Shao Qian placed in the middle at a glance. He smiled gently and warmly, his lips lightly opened, as if calling her: Xiaobei.

She suddenly broke away from her holding hands and rushed up to hug him... She realized that there was only a cold photo, a black photo frame, ruthlessly blocking them. Her fingers stroked his eyebrows, his eyes, his nose, and slightly bent lips through the cold glass...

"Are you... cold?" She opened her mouth tremblingly, as if asking the person in the photo, "Are you cold here alone? Look, your lips are cold..." She hugged the photo frame tightly, like holding the person you love, and seemed to be able to feel his warmth. After all, was she late? Why is this happening? She really doesn't understand why she was just one step later, and she saw such a black and white photo... Her Shaoqian is not like this. His skin is very white, his eyes are very dark, and when he smiles, his eyes are bright, like a blooming peach blossom, his lips are faint red, and he is very beautiful after drinking. He is always warm and soft when kissing her... It's not like this in the photo, how could this happen?

She turned around, looked at Qin Shulan, and cried and said, "This is not my Shaoqian, Shaoqian is not like this... Mom, please let me meet Shaoqian, I miss him very much, I really miss him..."

Qin Shulan burst into tears silently and pointed to the coffin on one side. Xia Xiaobei was shocked to realize that a coffin was placed in the empty space in the mourning hall. The coffin lid was covered. She was a little stunned and dragged the black and white photo and walked step by step.

Is Shaoqian here?

She knelt slowly, touching the cold coffin lid. They didn't know what she was going to do, so they followed her quietly. Xia Xiaobei just slowly stroked it, and finally moved to the edge of the coffin and the crack. Her fingers reached into the gap and clenched it hard. The tiny wood chips inserted into the nails and bleeded on the tender flesh. Finally, Lei Yunze discovered it and pulled it away by him.

"What are you going to do?" he asked in confusion.

Xia Xiaobei was still staring at the heavy coffin: "I just want to see him... how lonely he is sleeping alone. I want to accompany him, so just talk with him..."

Lei Yunze said nothing, looked up at Qin Shulan. Qin Shulan closed her eyes and thought for a while, and finally nodded. Lei Yunze asked someone to open the coffin, Xia Xiaobei leaned beside him, and greedily watched Shao Qian's familiar face appear little by little in front of her. He slept so peacefully, as if he was really just asleep. Seeing this scene, Qin Shulan, who had already stopped her tears, couldn't help sobbing.

Xia Xiaobei just looked at him with concentration, and even forgot what to say. She should have had a lot to say to him. From the moment she woke up in a coma to the long journey on the plane, she had a lot to ask him, but at this moment, when she saw him, she couldn't remember anything. She just opened her eyes wide and refused to let go of every second. He slept so heavily, letting her tears fall into her, and he showed no sign of waking up.

She stretched out her hand and was about to touch his face. Lei Yunze suddenly grabbed her. Xia Ru said from the side: "The dead are for respect."

She raised her head in confusion: "But he is not dead, he is just asleep..."

Xia Ru seemed to be reluctant: "Xiaobei, don't be stupid, he is no longer here..."

She was really angry: "How could you curse him like this? He is here so well, why is he gone?" She stood up and pushed Xia Ru hard: "You go, you go away, you go away, you all go away, don't interfere with Shaoqian... We agreed to be together forever, and I will definitely be with him forever..."

She pushed everyone like crazy, and everyone was in tears. Facing her like this, no one could bear to stop her. Finally, Lei Yunze stepped forward and hugged her, and asked her to close the coffin quickly.

Seeing the coffin covering Shaoqian's face little by little, she finally shouted out out of control: "Let go, Lei Yunze, let go of me! I want to be with him, don't put him there alone, he will be cold, he will be scared! I beg you, let me go..." She kicked from the initial mess to the end and finally softened, grabbed Lei Yunze's clothes and looked at him sadly: "I beg you, let me go, let me accompany him, I beg you, please..."

His eyes felt even more painful in the sadness. He looked at Xia Xiaobei for a long time and did not speak. Even though her hands were pinched and bloody, he still hugged her motionlessly. His hands were like steel bars, and no matter how hard she struggled, she could not break free.

She had to beg him, as weak as a newborn baby, and could only rely on him, crying and begging, and even her voice was hoarse. Xia Ru and Qin Shulan were watching, and there was no way. She couldn't hear anyone who advised her. There was only the shocking glance of the coffin closing in front of her. She just wanted to see him, and she just wanted to look at Shaoqian again.

I don't know how long this situation lasted, but Xia Xiaobei finally fell down in a violent shaking. Lei Yunze seemed to have not yet come back to his senses, and he held her armpits loosely, letting her whole body hang softly on his arms. Xia Ru was the first to discover it and asked for first aid in panic.

She was actually just too tired. She hadn't closed her eyes for so long, and she hadn't had water and rice in a few days, so she was exhausted. After waking up, her mood had stabilized a lot and she stopped crying. She was just like she was escaping from her soul, she was in a trance, and she didn't like to talk. She also fed her food one bite after another. After a few bites, she would all leak out.

She seemed to be back in her infancy, thinking nothing or listening to nothing. When there was no one, she looked at the ceiling with her eyes open. After Xia’s father and mother arrived in Beijing, she visited her every day. How did the Ren and the other two persuaded her, Xia Xiaobei did not respond at all.

On the day Shaoqian's funeral, Xia's mother stayed with Xia Xiaobei in the hospital, and no one told her. Qin Shulan said: "This child is so pitiful. If she wants her to see this scene, I'm afraid she won't be able to stand it."

Lei Yunze has been holding Shaoqian's coffin, and countless white chrysanthemums are scattered all over the sky. Lei family, Dai family, Wen family, and all relatives and friends have come to participate. In this late spring when flowers and rain fall, sadness fills the outskirts of Beijing.

Before the cremation, Lei Yunze said goodbye to his relatives and friends who came to see him off on behalf of his family, and then took Shaoqian in person. The car was carrying Shaoqian's body and photos gradually drifted away. Suddenly, a scream came from the crowd. Xia Xiaobei rushed out from somewhere, and Xia's mother followed closely behind, and she couldn't catch her no matter how she grabbed her. She seemed crazy and kept running behind the car. She kept crying and screaming. Many people came up to pull her. She was very weak and could not get out of it at all. She was so powerless. When she raised her head, she looked at the clear sky and felt powerless.

Countless people were persuading her in her ears, but they didn't understand. How could they understand? She couldn't keep her Shaoqian, and how could anyone understand that feeling of powerlessness? The car went away little by little, and finally turned into a small point. Her Shaoqian was about to leave her forever. She could never see him again. No! No!

She heard her hoarse and cracked sound, and she was so desperate that she almost died. It would be better if she really died, so she could go with him...

The nails were pinched into the flesh, and I don’t know how many of them broke. Their fingers were even broken. They were not as painful as the heart: “You kill me, kill me… If you don’t let me go with him, it’s better to kill me… Why do I still live if Shaoqian dies? I beg you, let me go…” This life is still so long, but hers is already over.

She was pressed to the ground desperately, and there was no need for a few burly men. She was so weak that she couldn't even stand steadily, but they kept pressing her tightly, as if she could never break free of the shackles.

There seemed to be a cold gaze in the crowd, locked on her for a long time. She raised her head suddenly and met Wen Ziyan's cold and resentful eyes. She slowly curled the corners of her mouth, and the smile seemed to be mocking her: Is it a retribution for you to seduce someone else's husband?

She watched helplessly, but even if the retribution was retribution, it should be reported to her. How could it be Shaoqian? Are you blind? Why is the best person who died? Why is Shaoqian the one who died?

From then on, I could not see him again. Under the sky, there was only one cup of loess left. From then on, when I thought of his goodness, there was only one cup of loess.

As the sky darkened, the mourning guests gradually dispersed, leaving only the members of the Lei family. Lei Yunze would not know when he would come back. Instead, he pulled Xia Nan first, patted his head gently, and pointed to Xia Xiaobei who was sitting in the room.

Xia Ru hurriedly called her American husband two days ago and asked him to send Xia Nan to Beijing. When getting off the plane, she had taught Xia Nan countless times not to ask Uncle Xiaoye in front of her mother, and to comfort her more and make her happy.

Xia Nan nodded sensibly and pushed open the door and went in.

Xia Xiaobei did not react, as if he was still addicted to a person's world.

"Mom." Xia Nan's voice sounded, tender and timid.

Xia Xiaobei finally reacted, raised his head slowly, and glanced at the child. His eyebrows and eyes should be like Lei Yunze, but the Lei family has thick eyebrows and big eyes, and very deep double eyelids. For some reason, she remembered Shao Qian again. She hugged Xia Nan and called out "child", as if she could no longer help but feel sad, and buried her head on his back and burst into tears.

Xia Nan stretched out her little hand and patted her back gently: "Mom, don't cry, don't cry!"

The force as light as a feather touch made her think of the man who had treated her as gentle as water. She just held Xia Nan's face and looked at it carefully. Tears fell down one by one, and they fell on the child's face.

The child's big dark eyes seemed to reflect the whole world and clearly reflected his haggard self. Xia Nan stretched out her hand and wiped the tears from her face and said, "Mom, don't be sad, you still have me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life."

Those clear eyes kept staring at her, gradually making her feel clear and calm. She stopped crying. At this time, Lei Yunze walked in from outside, looked at the mother and son embracing each other, and said, "You can be willful, but don't forget that you are also a four-year-old mother. Xia Xiaobei, you are not young anymore, you should know what responsibility is. Do you want to leave such a sensible son and ignore it?"

His words were sharp and harsh. Xia Xiaobei dazed to touch his son's face, which was wet and cold, all of which were all her tears. Yes, she is almost twenty-seven years old this year, and she is no longer the age of willfulness and arbitrary. Time flies so fast that she takes Shaoqian away, but leaves her the only hope for life.

The innocent child kept looking at her quietly, making her feel ashamed. She had never fulfilled her responsibilities as a mother, and now she even had to leave and leave this poor child.

Under the windowsill that day, the woman lowered her head and leaned on the child's shoulder and cried bitterly. The child let her hold her, calling her one after another: "Mom, Mom..." The small side of the window was like a scene, and no one paid attention to the lonely man outside the picture.

The most saddest suffering in this world is that you are alive, but you are already desperate.

Xia’s father and Xia’s mother stayed in Beijing to take care of their daughter for another month. Xia Ru returned to the United States to help Xia Nan complete the transfer procedures. Both parties believed that it would be more appropriate to let the child stay in China to accompany Xia Xiaobei. Considering that Xia Xiaobei’s physical condition might be flawless, Xia’s father and Xia’s mother took Xia Nan back to their hometown to live for a while.

A month later, Xia Xiaobei's spirit finally returned to normal. She could go downstairs and walk around or take care of her normal daily life. She stayed in Beijing and started working at David's elder brother Dai Xiangrong's company.

David had given Xia Xiaobei a private business card for Dai Xiangrong. The secretary was naturally very polite when he saw her. In addition, Dai Xiangrong and Xia Xiaobei met at Shaoqian’s funeral, so he had a deep impression of her. During the interview, he only said one sentence: "Shaoqian’s fiancée is my younger sibling. If you have any help, just say it."

Xia Xiaobei thanked him and said, "I just want an ordinary job, live a normal life, and live a good life."

Dai Xiangrong nodded after hearing this and expressed his understanding: "I will ask the secretary to arrange a job that suits you based on your resume."

The efficiency of large companies has always been very high. After leaving the president's office, the secretary took her to visit the following jobs and introduced her new colleagues. This time she was not the president's secretary, but she was just a very ordinary civilian position in the planning department, but she was very well paid. Her monthly salary and bonus were over 10,000 yuan, and she had her own independent office, and she was just a simple proposal review work.

The colleagues in the department obviously had different opinions on such an airborne soldier, but the people brought by the president's secretary personally told them to take care of them one by one, which was naturally because of their different identities. Although everyone did not deal with each other often, even the manager of the planning department spoke to her was polite.

In this way, when she goes to work every day, she just needs to sit in the office. The documents she needs to pass on are usually placed on her desk early, and she only needs to sign. Occasionally, she makes suggestions for modification several times, and the other party responds lazily and does not do as it happens afterwards. Obviously, she thinks she is doing nothing and makes people feel that she is not eating a waste of food.

Regarding this situation, Xia Xiaobei once asked Dai Xiangrong whether she could be transferred to a grassroots unit and let her start from the bottom so that others would recognize her strength. At that time, Dai Xiangrong seemed to be busy with other work and just responded casually and said, "I will think carefully." But after a week, there was still no transfer.

It was not until Xia Xiaobei decided to apply for transfer from the superior again that she suddenly saw the president's secretary notifying her that she would prepare to go on a business trip with the president to Chengdu tomorrow, which was considered one of the grassroots jobs.

The next day when Xia Xiaobei was applying for a boarding pass at the airport, she saw an unexpected person. David was still so happy to say hello to her: "Hi."
To be continued...