Chapter 14: Guilt

Gu Du carefully understood his mood. When he heard the news, he was only shocked. After the shock, he was neither angry nor sad. Instead, he felt relieved and even a little happy.

Li Xia was right. He was just guilty of Li Xia. Because of the guilt, he promised to marry Li Xia, but he also said that he would wait until he avenges Jin Lan and his son.

But Lixia is already old and is about to 24 after the Chinese New Year. When will she avenge Jin Lan and her son? Lixia's youth is wasted in vain?

In the end, he was sorry for Li Xia. Even though he felt guilty, he didn't really want to marry Li Xia. He was just using an excuse to delay, but he himself did not notice it.

Suddenly, he felt a little ashamed and remembered all the past. Li Xia accompanied him along the way and gave all his money, but he never gave it back.

Perhaps Li Xia was to consolidate his status in Zeguo, but who can guarantee that Li Xia was not disappointed and regretted it?

He had to go back, but when he saw Lixia, what would he say?

Gongsun Yan walked in and looked at Gu Du and called softly: "Master."

Gu Du asked, "Is Xia Lan okay?"

Gongsun Yan replied, "I'm blinking. My disciple has rubbed her with medicinal wine. It's okay. I'll be fine after raising her for two days."

Gu Du was silent, Gongsun Yan said softly: "Master, there are some words... I don't know if I should say to Master."

Gu Du said, "Tell me."

Gongsun Yan hesitated for a moment before saying, "Do you want to ask your master, is your uncle going to marry the emperor? Is your master feeling uncomfortable?"

Gu Du sighed and replied, "I can't say it."

Gongsun Yan said, "Xia Lan once complained to her disciples, saying that her uncle occupied her master but she did not get married. She hoped that her uncle would fall in love with others and even died in battle. But at this time, she just wanted to steal her uncle back for her master. She just told her disciples that she asked her disciple to persuade her master to steal her uncle, and she also shouted that she would not help Zeguo."

Gu Du was silent for a while and asked, "Where is Xia Lan?"

Gongsun Yan replied: "In the disciple's room."

Gu Du stood up and walked out, saying, "I'll go see her."

Seeing Gu Du come in, Dongfang Xia Lan held on to get up, but she let out a scream.

Gu Du walked to the bed and pressed her shoulder, and said, "Don't move while lying."

Dongfang Xia Lan shouted: "I'm fine! Come with me to mobilize troops!"

"Stop!" Gu Du yelled softly: "There are three thousand Zeguo soldiers in the camp. Do you want us to be dismembered by the scattered blade?"

Dongfang Xialan blinked, Feng Jiu moved a chair behind Gu Du, and said, "Master, please sit down."

Gu Du sat down, and Feng Jiu retreated.

Gu Duyouyou said, "From the beginning to the end, I was sorry for Li Xia. She followed me all the way and gave me everything, but I couldn't repay you. It was not her occupancy, but I was always making excuses to delay. Although I promised to marry her, I said I would wait until I avenge Jin Lan and her son before marrying her."

Gu Du sighed, was silent for a moment, and said, "She is almost twenty-four years old and her youth is about to die. She did this to stabilize my status in the Zeguo, but who knows whether she regrets it."

Dongfang Xia Lan said: "No! She will never feel heartbroken and regret it! Don't help Zeguo, grab Lixia back, Jueling Sect helps you take revenge!"

Gu Du laughed silently and said, "For my personal grudge, the Jueling Sect was innocently killed and injured, and even the whole family was overthrown. You are childish, and your father will never agree."

Dongfang Xia Lan said confidently: "I will agree."

Gu Du shook his head and said, "Even if your father agrees, I won't accept it, because I can't afford to pay such a big favor, and I can't afford to pay it back no matter how I do it."

Dongfang Xia Lan shouted: "Give gifts to Emperor Ze, is it your favor to return the favor to Emperor Ze?"

Gu Duwei frowned and said, "Don't speak so badly, and the facts are not the case. Your father wants to help Zeguo because of the astronomical phenomena. This is a righteous thing, and I will never give the rituals to anyone."

Dongfang Xia Lan shouted, "Then let it be taken back! What are you waiting for? You said you owe her, you marry her! I don't believe you, marry her immediately, she will marry Emperor Ze!"

Gu Du smiled and said, "Okay, lend me Mo Xuan, I'll go back now."

Back to Zeguo, walked into the tent, and the two looked at each other.

After a long time, Li Xia smiled. He was already like this. He was still so calm that he didn't rush up to hug her, nor did he want to possess her.

Lixia asked, "What are you thinking?"

Gu Du replied: "I'm wondering, are you feeling so heartbroken and regretful?"

Li Xia was stunned. It turned out that he was thinking about this and replied: "No."

Gu Du said, "I will marry you now. Let's leave Zeguo. I have money. Three million taels. We sell private salt, gather together to make trouble, and fight the Emperor by ourselves."

Li Xia took a step forward, stared at his eyes and asked, "Do you feel distressed or are you reluctant to let it go?"

Gu Du replied: "All of them."

Li Xia looked at his eyes calmly, and after a while, he said, "Don't lie to me."

Gu Du frowned slightly, Li Xia smiled again, and said, "After all... you just feel that you owe me."

Gu Du opened his arms and hugged her. Li Xia put his forehead on his cheek, closed his eyes, and said softly: "I am willing to do everything I have done for you. I don't ask you to repay you. If you just want to repay me, it will defile my affection."

Gu Du hugged her tightly and whispered: "It's me that's not good, it's me that I'm not sorry for you."

Li Xia smiled and shook her head, and said softly: "I leapt on the dragon gate. You are in power. You said that you can be brothers and sisters without being a husband and wife. You have always been very nice to me, but it is not the kind I want. If anyone can replace Jin Lan, it can only be Xia Lan, not me."

Gu Du said: "Don't say that, you know I'm tired of her."

Li Xia smiled and said, "She is still young and has never suffered any hardships, so she is naturally not as good as Jin Lan, but she will eventually grow up and will eventually be in harmony with you, benevolent, be willing to work together. By then, even if I have married you, we will be suspicious every day. Our affection will be worn out bit by bit with time until it is exhausted."

Gu Du was speechless, just hugged her tightly. Li Xia raised her face, kissed the corner of his mouth lightly, and said, "Do you know? I am the first woman to kiss you. When you came back that day, you slept like a dead person, so I kissed you."

Gu Du was stunned and looked at her. Li Xia gently pushed away from his arms. He said with a smile: "It's good. I don't regret my original intention and I am worthy of Jin Lan. From now on, you will be my brother. In addition to avenging Jin Lan and his son, you must also protect Zeguo, protect me, and protect my future son. With me, you must not only serve as a commander, but also serve as a propaganda."

Gu Du took a step back, bowed to her, and said, "I obey the order."
Chapter completed!