By the sea, under the warm sea breeze, Xu Zhenghua was still sitting quietly.

He sat for a long time, until it was already deep in the night, and he let out a long sigh and stood up.

He took back the folding chair, put it in the RV, then spread the folding bed and took a nap.

It is not easy to find the answer to the question that has troubled me for a long time. Although he has been laying the groundwork for a long time, doing a lot of preliminary work, and conducting a lot of exploration, and it is only a shortcut at the moment, he still does not expect that he can find the answer to the question by just thinking for a night.

It is too difficult to find the answer to this question.

It is somewhat complicated to explain this issue.

The traditional, widely accepted M theory in the scientific community, has a considerable number of ideas and ideas that follow the quantum field theory. The standard model points out that the reason for mass exists is the interaction between elementary particles and the Higgs field. This interaction is called the Higgs mechanism.

The Higgs field is a quantum field that is spread all over the universe. Elementary particles have no mass at first, but they interact with the Higgs field and have mass.

The Higgs boson has been discovered, and this discovery strongly confirms the existence of the Higgs field. Because in theory, the Higgs boson is the vibration of the Higgs field.

Why are the boulders so heavy, why can't humans move a car, and why ants can't push a small stone, all because of the existence of the Higgs Field.

The special M theory proposed by Xu Zhenghua took a step further in the microscopic world, took a different approach, and independently proposed his own ideas and ideas. However, in the process of mathematical models and theoretical construction, Xu Zhenghua discovered a very important problem.

His theory cannot explain how quality comes from.

His theory actually does not deny the Higgs mechanism, and also agrees that mass comes from the interaction between elementary particles and the Higgs mechanism, but he believes that this is not the essence of things, and this explanation is not deep enough and not basic enough.

After bringing the Higgs mechanism into his own theoretical system, he has become more in-depth and refined, he found that an important link was missing.

The Higgs mechanism is correct. The quality does exist, just like we see every day. But there is a process missing between these two things.

His theory cannot describe this process in detail, using his own thoughts and ideas, and precise mathematical and physical language.

And this process is essential. Without this part, his theory cannot be called a complete theory.

This problem has troubled him for several years and has not yet made a breakthrough.

The night passed quietly. The next day, he got up and filled his stomach with the food he brought in the car. He started walking by the beach like a tourist, picking up shells, and even changing into a swimsuit, and swam into the sea for a while.

This made Sun Weida nervous. The two helicopters hovering in the sky were also as if they were facing a great enemy and were ready to take action at any time.

After swimming in the sea for more than half an hour, Xu Zhenghua finally dragged his wet body to the shore.

He never went too far from the coast and did not go to the deep waters. He didn't want any accidents to happen.

This made Sun Wei and others breathe a sigh of relief.

On the third day, Xu Zhenghua took out a fishing rod and started fishing in the sea. He tidied up the fish he caught, then cooked it in the alcohol stove he brought, and had a beautiful meal. On the fourth day, he even took out the barbecue grill and made a barbecue by himself.

He lived here leisurely. He spent every day in peace and comfort. But every night, when it was dark, he would move out of the folding chair without any movement, face the sea, and stay until the early morning before leaving.

Something was always surging in his heart, brewing, and becoming more and more intense.

Until the sixth night.

The night was already very dark at this moment. But he seemed to have forgotten the passage of time and everything around him. His spirit seemed to have merged with the dazzling stars in the night sky.

In this extremely quiet and extremely concentrated present, he felt that those ordinary characters in the past seemed to have their own lives, beginning to fly freely in the air, and the combination of freely and changing. Even, they began to emit a faint light, just like the stars.

There were some wonderful, indescribable changes that occurred in those characters. He was like a bystander, his head was empty, and he only watched quietly, without thinking, without moving, or disturbing.

Those characters eventually merge together and merge into a ball. They continue to enlarge and shrink, as if they are nurturing something.

Xu Zhenghua felt that every cell and every nerve in his body were cheering. He felt that the change he wanted was about to be born after several days of adjustment and several days of contemplation.

He waited eagerly.

But at this moment, he felt a little bad and a very unexpected change.

The world is still quiet, with no other sound except the sound of the breeze and the gentle rustling of the waves. But for some reason, this very normal thing has some unusual meaning when entering Xu Zhenghua's senses.

Every time the breeze whimpered, it was like a stone falling into the heart lake. Every time the waves slapped, it was like the heart strings being tugged. Some lights and shadows on the distant sea also seemed to have some strange meanings.

Even the air seemed to have begun to permeate a strange aura that made people involuntarily feel fear.

Sun Wei, who was lurking behind Xu Zhenghua, felt that something was wrong.

Some of the subtle physical movements observed by infrared observation equipment clearly indicate that his target seems to be in fear at this moment. But it is strange that he did not see anything worthy of the target.

"What is he afraid of?"

Sun Wei's heart was full of questions.

Xu Zhenghua didn't know what he was afraid of. That kind of fear seemed to be like no reason, and naturally spread out from the bottom of his heart, just like the instinct of his body.

He tried his best to remain calm and began to analyze where his fear came from with the rigor and logic of a scientist.

After thinking briefly for a while, he was shocked to find that his fear actually came from the "light balls" in front of him that were composed of digitless symbols, which seemed to be nurturing something.

Those difficult problems plagued Xu Zhenghua for a long time, and his research was delayed from making major breakthroughs. After the collective loss of confidence in the scientific community, his own research was related to the fate of the entire human civilization.

But now, I have accumulated countless days and nights and worked hard for countless days and nights, and was about to "bring" to the answer, but I began to feel scared.

It seems that if he really knows the answer, something bad will happen. This makes him feel instinctive and fearful from the bottom of his heart.

His breathing began to be rapid.

He instinctively wanted to give up thinking, to move his fingers, to change his seating position, and to go back to the RV.

But he knew that any slight physical change would cause his attention to be distracted. After missing this opportunity, he didn't know if his thinking would still be favored by inspiration next time.

Even at this moment, whenever he thinks of "seeking answers", he feels instinctive resentment and fear in his heart.

Because of the strong fear, I seemed to have a psychological shadow on this matter.

Why?

Xu Zhenghua couldn't figure it out.

Reason told him that he had no reason to feel fear, but his body was actually fearing.

It's like, it's like the fear that the outside world forcibly "give" itself.

Just as injecting something can make people happy, injecting something can make people feel calm, and injecting something can make people feel sleepy, it seems that my fear at this moment is the same.

The answer to the difficult problem that has bothered him for a long time and is now plaguing human civilization, but he is not afraid to get it now.

He hesitated and hesitated, trying to overcome his inner fear. But the fear was like a tide, everywhere, and rushing towards him, unable to resist.

"Give up, give up, as long as you go back to the RV, you will be safe and you will never have anything that threatens you again... You have been in a long time, and no answer was found this time, and there will be next time, and there will be next time..."

He thought this in his heart. But then, reason told him that if he lost this opportunity, he would never have the next chance.

The psychological shadow has been formed. If you cannot defeat it this time, no matter when, as long as you start thinking about the answer to the problem, your instinctive fear will immediately appear, like a shadow.

This time I can't find the answer, then I can't find the answer anytime. Even if I am afraid of science and research, I will never be able to pursue a scientific research career again.

He realized this, but he still couldn't resist the invasion of instinctive fear.

He thought for a long time, thought for a long time, and suddenly his heart moved.

He understood where his fear came from.

die.

He was afraid of death. He was always afraid of death.

Everyone is afraid of death, and he is no exception.

He had a premonition that if he really let the light and shadow in his consciousness "bring" the answer he wanted, then death would come.

The reason is very simple. The savior civilization does not kill himself because killing himself will lead to his research being valued, and will instead promote his theory development.

But what if...they's thinking results at this moment lead to a breakthrough in my research?

This will also cause a sensation in the scientific community, causing the entire scientific community to begin to pay attention to its own research, and will also promote the development of its own theories.

The two things have the same result.

Since the result is the same, why not kill yourself?

Killing yourself can also cause the human scientific community to lose a scientist who may lead the trend, which can also be regarded as a recovery of some losses.

My own conscious mind does not realize this, but my subconscious mind realizes it. Therefore, my body instinctively resists myself to get the answer.

Or maybe I should have thought of this a long time ago, but I subconsciously didn't think about it and refused to think about it.

Between life and death, between life and death...

The older he is, the more he can feel the horror of death. Xu Zhenghua is in his thirties this year and has passed at least one-third, or even one-half of his life. For him, aging and death are no longer escaping, but problems that must be faced.

The word death has always been heavy and can always make people fear from the bottom of their hearts.

Xu Zhenghua found that he still could not have enough courage to ignore the threat of death.

When he almost wanted to give up, in a trance, the figure of the old dean slowly emerged in his mind.

At that time, I was still very young. Once, when the old dean was playing with his children on the playground, a gust of wind blew, and the old dean's shirt was blown away, revealing a huge and hideous wound between his waist and abdomen.

Seeing the children's fear mixed with curiosity, the old dean smiled, paused the physical education class, and sat on the ground, telling the children the origin of the wound.

"That was the most difficult time to resist invasion. My comrades and I were ordered to hold a high ground. The enemy was like a tide and could not be finished. Later, my comrades were all sacrificed, and I was the only one left. There were only two enemies left."

"I've finished the bullets, I can only fight with bayonets. I'm not bragging to you. Both of them are bigger than me, but I didn't hesitate at all, and rushed out with a scream."

"Teacher, aren't you afraid?"
To be continued...