Chapter 705: Blame him, blame him, love him...

This page is blank, without a word. To be more precise, this page that should have existed is no longer there and has been torn off. Not only this page, the next page, the next page, and the next page, were torn off. Only then did I realize that this notebook was not so thin, just because nearly half of the pages behind it were torn off so roughly, survived the difficulty of the blank pages, with less than ten.

Is this a novel that has not been finished?

Not willing to have no answer? Or do I firmly believe that there must be an answer? I don’t know what I am expecting, but I seriously looked at every blank page in the back. I understood that I don’t want this novel to end in such a place. Finally, on the last page of my notebook, I found the words written in red.

Life is like a note, with the happiness I hope to write in the limited number of pages...

However, the appearance of someone and the disappearance of someone tear off all blank pages that have not yet been drawn...

From then on, happiness has nowhere to be written...

From then on, longing and waiting for disillusionment...

When the dream wakes up, it’s all empty, but only hatred and unwillingness are in your heart.

Hate her, hate her, hate her!

Resent him, blame him, love him...

This seems to be a poem. The poem written by Chu Yuan, below the poem, there are five characters, five big and big words - I hate Cheng Liusu!

I understand, I understand everything. I no longer blame Shu Tong for 38. I no longer blame her for exploring the privacy of our brother and sister. Even if she is not Chu Yuan’s teacher, just seeing this poem and these five words, she has enough reason to question me, blame me, despise me, and suck me, because she is Liusu’s cousin...

I can imagine Shu Tong's mood after seeing these, she can imagine her surprise, her nervousness, her anger, her disbelief and incomprehension... I know she must have thought a lot, because she can be patient, sit opposite me so calmly, talk to me calmly, and wait for me to read this note quietly until the last page...

If I were Shu Tong, I could not do it. If these things also happened in this novel, as a reader, I would throw this notebook hard on Murong Yuanyuan's brother's face when I met. Even if I could tolerate it at that time, after Murong Yuanyuan's brother agreed that he had long noticed his sister's abnormal love tendency, I would still do this...

But Shu Tong didn't. She was always calm and she tried to suppress her true feelings. Not only because she had a position as a teacher and an educator, but also because she had a position as a friend. She was more about thinking and digesting her unexpected discoveries from my standpoint. Otherwise, she could be impulsive and she wouldn't have to be polite to me at all...

I put down my notebook. At this time, there were few customers in the restaurant. Looking at Shu Tong who was still sitting quietly opposite me and looking at me, I smiled bitterly, "Thank you..."

Shu Tong, who sat there for at least an hour and never interjected a word, smiled bitterly, "What do you thank me?"

"A lot," I smiled self-deprecatingly, "Maybe I have to thank you the most. You probably won me a slap as soon as you met, right?"

Shu Tong shook his head and didn't answer. He got up and went to buy two more glasses of iced Coke, handed me one, held one by himself, sucked it with a straw for a while, as if thinking about something, until the straw made a 'huh' sound that could not be sucked, and suddenly looked up and asked me, "When did you notice it?"

Shu Tong asked in a daze. I subconsciously wanted to pretend to be confused, but seeing her clear and serious eyes, I felt that it was so shameful to avoid myself. At this point, do I still need to continue pretending? When will I continue to deceive myself?

"I can't explain it clearly, haha, I don't know if you believe it or not. When I doubt Chu Yuan, I actually doubt myself even more. I think these are just my own illusions..."

"I believe it," Shu Tong said: "If I were you, if I encountered such a thing, I would rather believe that I was too worried, because I would be as unaware of how to deal with it like you, and would be as at a loss as you."

"Thanks..."

"What are you thanking?" Shu Tong asked, "Thank you for your words, which makes you feel more at ease?"

My buddy's face was burning, but she couldn't deny it.

"What about you? Just like Yuanyuan wrote in the novel, does Murong's brother really like Murong? It's not just the kind of love between brother and sister, but also the kind of love between men and women?"

This question is expected and reasonable, but unexpectedly makes people feel that this question is beyond reason - Shu Tong's previous calmness and understanding of me made me unable to lie to her!

I looked at Shu Tong and suddenly felt that this little stupid woman seemed to know me very well. She knew how to let me tell the truth...

What she is slow is just physical reaction, not mind.

The dull mind seems to be me...

I like Chu Yuan and my sister. The reason I am sure of? It is precisely because I always thought I hate her before! From the moment she appeared in front of me, I lived in her shadow. She was beautiful, she was excellent, she loved her all the time, and what about me? I was always compared with her, envious of her in the foil, and watching her take away everything that originally belonged to me, but I could only continue to give silently, endure humiliation, for the old man, for the stepmother, and for the family, smiled at her against her will, and endured her all kinds of unreasonable troubles...

She is not my sister, she is a stinky girl who doesn't know anything. She is arrogant, she is self-admiring, she is arrogant, she is arrogant, she is willful, she is both sides! She never understands my pain, she always makes trouble for me more and more. Her biggest hobby is to discover fun in the pain given to me! She forced me to move out of the house after graduating from college!

The arrival of her and her stepmother made the old man’s life no longer incomplete, and fulfilled all the happiness that the old man should have. But because of her, I lost too much and endured too much. She was the old man’s daughter, but she was not my sister. To me, she was just a robber who plundered everything but didn’t know anything about it. Yes, until the day before she moved to live with me, I thought so. People should pay the price for getting. I got maternal love from my stepmother, so I had to pay for it. I had to tolerate that girl for it. I always balanced my mind until... I lived with that girl.

As I spent day and night together, I gradually realized that her unreasonable act was more like a kind of spoiled act, her nonsense seemed to be a kind of dependence, and her laziness was actually just reality. Her excellence was not the attachment of God, but was exchanged for corresponding efforts...

She is not arrogant. She will be at a loss for her secret being discovered. She will be frightened and afraid of making mistakes. She is often worried because her breasts are smaller than Dongfang. She will be glad to be relieved because her breasts are smaller than her... She is so simple, she is so simple, I no longer hate her, I began to care about her, care about her...

I don't know when it started, and I became accustomed to life with her, but I know that this kind of acceptance is the beginning of a feeling she is looking forward to...

Because I never really thought she was my sister, and I found that I didn't want her to leave, so I like her, but I never dared to admit it or think about it. Because there is a big wall with the words "taboos" that blocked my courage to take risks! But even if I climbed over this big wall, can I find the answer? Not necessarily, because the authorities are confused, because I keep avoiding and avoiding, and only knowing how to avoid this problem, I have never really let myself face this problem!

Now, this big wall has been pushed down by Shu Tong.

Now, I have to really start facing it.

Now, I dare, or rather, to give up all my worries and think about it, what kind of feelings do I have for Chu Yuan?

As a result, I found that I was really confused.

She is my sister and a lovely girl. She and I are like family members. After reading this unwritten novel, I want to hug her into my arms, stroke her head, and comfort her bitterness, but I dare not expose her in my arms because of a throbbing in my heart, because I am afraid that something hidden in my heart will be released...

I am afraid that we are no longer simple family members, and the taboo throbbing hidden in our hearts will disappear from now on...
Chapter completed!