Chapter 1249: A barrier in my heart

Monday is another normal class time, and since the murder, Lian Feiyi's mind has changed a lot. One of them, as Zhang Yueqiu said, everything he originally valued will change at this time.

Before, Lian Feiyi was concerned about his own studies, including credits and the impression of his tutor, and devoted himself to his studies. But now, he found that many things were nothing more than that.

Between life and death, what is truly inseparable?

This question began to emerge from his mind, survival, wealth, status, and feelings, as if they were the pursuit of a person's life. However, the meaning of life itself should be given by people themselves, rather than accepting the values ​​and ideas imposed by society.

Although Lian Feiyi himself has not yet come up with a positive answer, his way of thinking has indeed deviated from his current age and has begun to think about the future path.

In the afternoon, he chose another course of ancient Chinese language, and made an appointment with Zhao Huixin to take the course of his mentor Li Zhaolun.

"Feiyi, are you okay?" Zhao Huixin only saw Lian Feiyi again after being taken away by her family yesterday. Because of the previous incident, she was a little worried.

"Don't worry, I'm fine." Lian Feiyi gave her a gentle smile and sat down next to her, "Where are you? Didn't you be scared yesterday?"

"Yes... is there a little bit..." Zhao Huixin stammered. It was the first time she had seen murder with her own eyes, and Lian Feiyi's understatement surprised her.

She was a little worried that Lian Feiyi would become a madman who was like a murderer. As a girl, she always hoped that her sweetheart could maintain the perfect side.

Killing is a stain. At least from the education she has been receiving, Lian Feiyi's behavior is too shocking and does not conform to her long-standing understanding of him.

"Sorry, I had to do that at that time."

Lian Feiyi knew that he had made Zhao Huixin worry, so he said it with apologies, but in his heart he didn't think he had done something wrong. In that situation at that time, if he didn't attack decisively, the consequences would be unimaginable.

I also knew in my heart that it was not Lian Feiyi's fault at that time, but Zhao Huixin looked at the familiar face now, for some reason, and felt a little scared and uneasy.

Perhaps, I still can't accept the horror scene at that time. The sword light flows, blood flows everywhere, and the dull sound of the human body being penetrated by a sharp blade, as well as the struggle and roar before death, are too exciting for a 14-year-old girl.

There was a faint gap between the two, and even Feiyi saw it and sighed silently in his heart.

He already understood that although Zhao Huixin admired him, she could not accept his swordsmanship, especially the coldness and indifference that she regarded human life as a candle.

After all, a young lady like Zhao Huixin always likes the kind of gentle scholar, not a swordsman who kills people by Zhang Jian.

But Lian Feiyi himself understood that he would not give up on the swordsmanship, and even lost this relationship for this, he would do whatever he could.

This is his choice and his life. From beginning to end, he is himself.

For a moment, the atmosphere was a bit cold. Although the two sat together as usual, they didn't say anything. The cold winter wind whistled outside the window, with a little bleakness and melancholy, just like the slowly bulging gap between them.

Li Zhaolun explained "The Great Learning" on stage, and his voice was heard in his ears, making people admire Li Zhaolun's pronunciation skills, which always make people intoxicated.

"In ancient times, those who want to make clear virtues of the world should first govern the country. Those who want to dominate the country should first consolidate their families; those who want to dominate their families should first cultivate their bodies; those who want to dominate their bodies should first correct their hearts; those who want to correct their hearts should first be sincere in their intentions; those who want to do sincere in their intentions should first obtain their knowledge, and those who want to do knowledge should be investigated."

Lian Feiyi resonated with this passage, which just confirmed his current situation.

Sincere intentions, righteous hearts, self-cultivation, and then to manage the family. The ancient sages had already had a very thorough understanding of being a person and doing things. Of course, it was not the turn of Lian Feiyi to do it, but you can think about "managing the family".

In a broad sense, family management means handling housework, not just marriage, but also the relationship between men and women should be included.

In recent decades, Western culture and guns have invaded China together, and have entered the country with a wide range of commodities. These include the so-called view of love, which praises the love between men and women.

The view of love in the Western world is very different from that in China. The core issue is still one - is love important or people themselves important?

Now, due to the improvement of material life, people's demand for emotions exceeds that of survival itself. In such social reality, a distorted view of love gradually emerges, which is usually believed that true love should sacrifice everything for both men and women.

Even a person sacrifices his dreams and pursuits for love, which will become a great and noble thing and is praised by society and the people.

Lian Feiyi scoffed at this, unable to even stick to himself, and even talked about other things. Such people are weak rather than noble.

Change yourself for others, this kind of effort itself has little meaning. It cannot bring true happiness and satisfaction, but will instead leave hidden dangers in future life.

Because once you cannot get the expected gains in your efforts, you will easily breed resentment and unwillingness, and then there will be endless entanglements and disputes. Lian Feiyi has seen too many such things in the newspaper.

Men and women are entangled for their feelings, and even many tragedies of revealing their minds have occurred.

It is precisely because of the insincere intentions and unrighteous hearts at the beginning that it is one-sided understanding as dedication and sacrifice. Once they break up, they are dissatisfied and then they are unwilling to give up, which expands this crack.

Lian Feiyi is now facing such a fork in the road, whether to abandon his beloved swordsmanship and accommodate Zhao Huixin, or to stick to his own pursuit.

Perhaps other men still have hesitation and reluctance, but Lian Feiyi is not the case, and he has an answer in his heart.

It’s not because he doesn’t love her, but because he understands that loving someone, he should let the other party understand and accept everything about himself. It will only make this relationship deceitful and rifted from the beginning, and then it will be exchanged for tragedy and pain.

Just forgot about Zhao Huixin who turned her face away, Lian Feiyi calmed down and began to listen to the class carefully.

Life cannot be done well. If she really doesn't want to, let her go, at least they have left each other with beautiful memories.

After school, I returned to the dormitory and met Xue Qingyu and Zhao Peiwen again. A lot of things have happened recently, and the three of them haven't been together for a long time.

Zhao Peiwen has just gotten out of his computer programming refinement course. Recently, he accepted the invitation of his tutor and is said to have participated in an intelligent system programming program sponsored by Tianyu Group. He has not seen anyone for two months.

Xue Qingyu also has his own things to do, and his study and life at Hongli Academy is not always so leisurely.

"Feiyi, you guys have kept me so hard!"

As soon as they met, Xue Qingyu grabbed Lian Feiyi's collar and pressed her face on her face, staring at Lian Feiyi's eyes like a prisoner, "When did you have an affair with Zhao Huixin? You didn't even tell me, and you still treat me as a friend!"

It turned out that he came to ask for punishment, and even Zhao Peiwen had the same look.

"If I hadn't heard from Jieyi that you and Chang Shirui were jealous at the banquet, I wouldn't have known that you, a kid, would have such a skill!"

After saying this, Lian Feiyi understood that it was Chen Jieyi's secret, while Zhao Peiwen was talking about this matter everywhere.

The expressions of the two made Lian Feiyi laugh and cry. He broke free from Xue Qingyu's big hand. He sorted out his collars carefully before saying, "It's not a big deal. You didn't ask, of course I didn't say it."

"No wonder I said that every time I want to introduce girls to you, you always dodge. It turns out that it is a beautiful girl in the golden house." Xue Qingyu gave Lian Feiyi an ambiguous look, "How is Zhao Huixin's tastes good..."

"Don't talk nonsense..." Lian Feiyi gave him a blank look, "Hui Xin and I are innocent. We are just boyfriend and girlfriend at the moment, and we are not as good as you said."

"Of course I know this. What I asked is how much you have done except for the last step?" Xue Qingyu's obscene gaze had already shown his attitude of breaking the casserole's question to the end.

Lian Feiyi gave him a look of "I'm too lazy to pay attention to you", found a cucumber from the refrigerator, and started eating it on his own.

Seeing Lian Feiyi's silent expression, Xue Qingyu thought he was angry, and immediately changed into a serious attitude, "I'm not angry, right... it's all my fault. I won't make such jokes with you in the future."

Zhao Peiwen also sat on the sofa next to Lian Feiyi and asked, "What's going on? You weren't so stingy before? Are you unhappy?"

Because of the Chang family, the kidnapping case that happened outside the parking lot yesterday was not in the newspaper. The police and the media blocked the news together, so not many people knew about it.

"It's a little bit..." I remembered the speechlessness of Zhao Huixin in class in the afternoon, and even Feiyi was a little sad. Even if he made a choice, a little bit of sadness and disappointment was inevitable, but he did not regret it.

"Is that guy Chang Shirui threatening you?" Xue Qingyu thought it was because of the threat of his rival, so Lian Feiyi felt a little depressed. "You don't have to be afraid. If he really dares to come and cause trouble for you, I will..."

Speaking of this, Xue Qingyu couldn't continue. Yes, the other party is Chang Shirui, the only son of the Chang family. Such an opponent can no longer be described as powerful.

Chang Shirui is really coming, but Xue Qingyu really dares not do anything, and he doesn't even dare to say anything harshly now. He is no longer the kind of brat who doesn't know anything. He knows that a person like Chang Shirui can't afford to offend him at all.

This time, Zhao Peiwen rarely did not mock Xue Qingyu, and he was in a little depressed mood.

When Zhao Peiwen saw Lian Feiyi, he felt empathy. The problems he faced with Chen Jieyi were similar. The family background was very different, and many powerful competitors were all in the mountains ahead.

"It's not what you think..."

Seeing that the two friends were comforting themselves, even Feiyi knew that they might have misunderstood something, but just as he was about to explain, a rush of the door sounded outside the door.

"Is Lian Feiyi here? Is Lian Feiyi here?"

"Who is it?" Xue Qingyu walked over and opened the door, then retreated tremblingly, "Chang...Chang Shirui!"

"Hello, I'll find Lian Feiyi's." Since talking to Wang Ruiming that day, Chang Shirui has lost the arrogant and unruly arrogance he used to have, and has a slightly gentle smile.

Chang Shirui's sudden arrival scared Zhao Peiwen and Xue Qingyu. Xue Qingyu hurriedly stepped forward to stop him, "Lien Feiyi is not here, he has something to go out, you come to see him another day..."

"No need, Qingyu, I made an appointment with him before, let him come in."

At this time, Lian Feiyi's voice came from the room, making Xue Qingyu's smile solidify on his face, and he was so awkward no matter how he looked. He secretly scolded Lian Feiyi, a ungrateful guy, but he still greeted Chang Shirui enthusiastically in his face.

Zhao Peiwen sat next to Lian Feiyi, secretly alerting Chang Shirui who came in, but what surprised him was that Chang Shirui and Lian Feiyi had a good relationship.

It’s not like a rival in love, but more like a friend who can be talked about very well, which makes people confused.

"You haven't eaten, let's go." Chang Shirui, who had a smile on his face, didn't even have a sinister face as before. In the eyes of Xue Qingyu and Zhao Peiwen, there was even a sense of flattery and flattery.

"Okay, mind if I bring my friends with me?".

Lian Feiyi asked this question, it was rare to have time today, so he also wanted to have a good gathering with Xue Qingyu and Zhao Peiwen.

"Of course there is no problem, how about Yipinju?"

Yipinju is the most famous private canteen in Hongli Academy. It is said to be a canteen, but it is actually more like a high-end restaurant. In addition to the prohibition of selling alcohol, there are everything.

The reason why it is most famous is that Yipinju's three firsts: dishes first; service first; price first.

Even a rich noble young man may not be able to come there to spend often. However, it doesn’t matter if Chang Shirui, a person with a wealthy family and few family members are not.

Once the inheritance of the aristocratic tradition exceeded that of the Five Europas, due to the increase in branches and members of each house, even if the income source is wider, the daily use of the tribesmen is still standard, and they are not as written in many novels, and they are often squandering.

Unless it is a nouveau riche like the Chang family, it is OK in a short period of time, but after a few generations, there will be no such confidence to spend money like water.

"What's wrong with the two of them?"

Standing behind, Xue Qingyu grabbed Zhao Peiwen's sleeve and whispered in his ear.

"How do I know?"

Zhao Peiwen was also puzzled. Following Xue Qingyu's gaze, he looked at Chang Shirui and Lian Feiyi who were talking and laughing in front, but he didn't understand. Logically speaking, the relationship between these two people was not very good.

Everyone understands Chang Shirui, and it is not easy to get along with.

But now it seems that the situation is not the case at all, so Zhao Peiwen and Xue Qingyu are both confused and don’t know what to sell in Lian Feiyi’s gourd.
To be continued...