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This chapter is also the original text of your birth and I am not born.

I am an orphan, maybe it is the result of favoring boys over girls, maybe it is the product of love between men and women but not being responsible.

It was Zheye who picked me up.

That year, he implemented the policy and returned to the city from the countryside. He saw me by the garbage dump at the station. He was surrounded by a beautiful, quiet baby girl. Many people walked forward and the baby girl smiled loudly at him.

He gave me a home and a beautiful name, Tao Yao. Later he said, "My smile at the beginning can be regarded as Tao Yaoyao and its brightness."

Zheye's life was extremely sad. His parents were both scholars who returned to China, but they did not escape the cultural catastrophe. They both abandoned the world in anger. Zheye naturally could not escape. They were sent to the countryside and separated from their girlfriend Lao Yan, who had been in love for many years. From then on, he was alone until he picked me up when he returned to the city at the age of 35.

I call Zheye uncle.

There is not much unpleasantness in my memory in childhood. I only get rid of one thing.

When I was in school, a few naughty male classmates in the class called me a "bad breeder". I went home crying and told Zheye. The next day, Zheye specially picked me up from school and asked those boys: Who said she was a bastard? When the little boy saw the tall and burly Zheye, he didn't dare to speak. Zheye sneered: Who would say this next time? If I hear something, I beat him up! Someone muttered that she was not born to you, but a bastard. Zheye held my hand and smiled: But I value her more precious than my biological daughter. If you don't believe who came out to show me who is more beautiful than hers? Whose shoes and schoolbags look better than hers? She drank milk and ate bread every morning. What do you eat? The children were discouraged.

Since then, no one has ever called me a bastard. When I grow up, I always laugh when I think of this.

My life is much luckier than that of an ordinary orphan.

My favorite place is the study. There are books all over the room, and under the bright big window is Zheye's desk. When there is the sun, the majestic silhouette of his work is like a backlight painting. I always look for books by myself, and when I find them, I will lie on the sofa. After a while, Zheye will look back at me. His smile is warmer than the sun outside the winter window. When I am tired of watching, I lay on his shoulder and quietly read his drawings and writing articles.

He smiled: When he grows up, he will do my job?

I curled my lips: I don’t want it. It’s so tan and it’s so dirty.

Ah, I forgot to say that Zheye is a construction engineer. But the wind and sunlight will not damage his appearance at all. He is always gentle, tidy and elegant.

It’s not that there are women who want to enter the philosophical life.

When I was eight years old, there was once when Zheye almost talked about marriage with a woman. The woman was a teacher, smart and beautiful. I don’t know why I didn’t like her, but I always felt that the smile on her face was sticking on her. Zheye was there, and she smiled sweetly and tenderly at me. If she was not there, then she would disappear like a trick. I was afraid of her. One day I was reading picture books on the balcony, and she asked me: Where is your real parents? I haven’t seen you once? I was stunned and looked at her and didn’t know what to say. She tsk twice and said, “This kid is stupid, no wonder they don’t want you.” I was stunned. Suddenly Zheye walked over with a blue face, took my hand and said nothing and went back to the room.

At night, I was alone in the quilt and cried. Zheye walked in and hugged me and said, "I'm not afraid, Yaoyao won't cry."

Later, I didn't see the woman coming to our house again.

Later, I heard Zheye’s good friend Qiu Fei ask him why he had broken up again? Zheye said that this woman was not upright and married her, Yaoyao would not have a good life in the future. Qiu Fei said, you still can’t forget Ye Lan. At the age of eight, I remembered this name firmly. When I grew up, I knew that Ye Lan was Zheye’s girlfriend back then.

We have always depended on each other for our own sake. Zheye handled everything well, including allowing me to pass my adolescence smoothly and healthily.

After I got into college, I lived on campus because the school was far away from home and only went home on weekends.

Zheye sometimes asks me: Do you have a boyfriend? I always smile and don’t say anything. There are a few pretty outstanding boys in the school who always like to circle around me, but I don’t like any of them: A is tall and handsome, but he has no choice but to be third-rate; B has good homework and good eloquence, but he looks really ordinary; C has good homework and looks, but his temperament is like a reckless man...

I rarely talk to my male classmates. In my eyes, they are all childish and superficial. They don’t have time to show their best side when they are in front of others. They are too traces and lose their composure.

On my 20th birthday, Zheye gave me a gift of a ruby ​​ring. Zheye had already started buying this kind of sporadic jewelry for me. His statement was: When a girl is old, she needs a few decent things to decorate. After dinner, he accompanied me to the mall. If I like something, I will buy it immediately.

After returning to school, I was sensitive to my classmates who liked to talk about me behind my back. I didn't care. Because of my life experience, I was used to people talking about it. Until one day a good female classmate pulled me privately: They said you have a boyfriend who is much older than you? I was puzzled: Who said it? She said: It is said that several people saw it. You were shopping in the mall with him and were very intimate! It was said that you don't like these poor boys, but it turned out that they were by my brother Kong Fang! I thought for a moment, my face turned red, and after a while, I smiled and said: They misunderstood.

I didn't explain. I sat quietly reading a book, and the heat on my face did not fade for a long time.

I went home on the weekend and cleaned up as usual. Zheye's room was very clean. A wool sweater he often wore was placed on the edge of the bed. It was a rice-brown collar. When I bought it, I originally liked a gray chicken-hearted collar, so I chose this one. At that time, Zheye smiled and said, "Okay, just follow you. It seems that Xiaoyao thought I was old and asked me to dress up younger."

I slowly folded the clothes and thought about some trivial matters with a smile.

In the following period, I found that Zheye was in a very good spirit, walking lightly and making a fussy and sometimes I heard him hum some songs, which was a bit like when I was admitted to college. I wondered.

On Friday, I received a call from Zheye, asking me to go home early and go out for dinner with him.

He shaves and changes his clothes. I'm suspicious: Someone can help you introduce your girlfriend? Zheye smiled: I'm old, why are you talking about girlfriends? It's your Uncle Qiu, and an old friend who has been many years old. Just call her Aunt Ye later.

I know, that must be Ye Lan.

On the way, Zheye told me that he had contacted Ye Lan some time ago through Qiu Fei. Her husband passed away a few years ago. He saw him again this time and felt that it was OK. If there was no accident, they were going to get married.

I responded carelessly, gradually feeling my feet became cold and spreading slowly.

When I arrived at the hotel, I looked at Ye Lan objectively: she was slightly fat, but not bloated. She still had a bit of youthful charm between her eyebrows. Compared with women of the same age, she undoubtedly had an advantage. But standing with the handsome Zheye, she looked much older.

She treats me very well and kindly, looking like she loves the house and the mist.

When I arrived at Jiazheye, I asked me: What do you think of Aunt Ye? I said: You are all planning to get married, of course I agreed.

I opened my eyes until early morning to fall asleep.

When I got back to school, I got sick. I had a fever and refused to take the class. I felt that my head was heavy and I finally fell into the classroom.

When I woke up, I was lying in the hospital, hanging a drip, and Zheye sat next to me reading a book.

I smiled tiredly: Where am I? Zheye nervously touched my head: I finally woke up, viral colds turned into pneumonia, you child, always accidentally. I smiled: If you want to get sick, what are the ways to be careful?

Zheye is in the hospital except to work. Whenever he wakes up from his drowsiness, he immediately searches for his people and needs to see them immediately before he can feel at ease. I heard him on the phone with Ye Lan: Yaoyao is sick, I have not been free these days, and I will contact you when she gets healed. My sad smile, if I am sick and can let him guard me every day, then why should I not be able to get sick?

I stayed in the yard for a week before I returned home. Zheye set up a sofa at the door of my room and lay on it at night. When I heard a little movement, he got up to visit him.

I remembered that when I was younger, my small bed was placed in Zheye's room. I wanted to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night, so I started to explore myself, but Zheye always heard it quickly, and helped me turn on the lights and said: Be careful. I didn't sleep by myself until I was in elementary school.

Ye Lan bought a big pack of flowers and fruits to visit me. I thanked her politely. The dishes she cooked were delicious, but I couldn't eat them. I went back to my room early and lay down.

I dreamed that Zheye and Ye Lan finally got married. They were both very young. Ye Lan looked very beautiful in white gauze, and I was so big that I was actually the role of a flower girl. Zheye smiled happily, but he just didn't look back at me. I clearly smelled the fragrance of lilies floating on the bride's bouquet... I sat up suddenly and woke up. After a while, I lay back and closed my eyes in despair.

In the darkness, I heard Zheye walk in, and then the small light at the head of the bed turned on. He sighed: What dream did you have? You cried so hard. I pretended to be asleep, but tears were like leaking faucets, dripping down the corners of my eyes to my ears. Zheye's warm fingers cut those tears again and again, but they could not stop.

This disease lasted for more than ten days. When it was cured, Zheye and I both lost a lot of weight. He said: Let's go home and live there. There are so many people in the school in one dormitory, and the air is not good.

He drives a motorcycle to pick me up and drop off every day.

His face was against his back, and his heart was always filled with joy and sorrow.

Ye Lan never came to our house again. After a long, I was convinced that Ye Lan was like that female teacher, and it was a thing of the past.

I graduated successfully and took up a job.

I lived happily and peacefully without any distractions, only me and Zheye. Since I can't say anything, it's good to maintain the status quo in this way.

But God refused to give me such long-term happiness.

Zheye fainted on the construction site. The doctor diagnosed that he had advanced liver cancer. I was so anxious that I was still very careful, but I still asked the doctor calmly: How many days will there be? The doctor said: One year, maybe a little longer.

I took Zheye home. He was not bedridden. During the day, I went to work and hired an hour to take care of him. At noon and at night, I took care of him myself.

Tsoro smiled and said: Look, it's all for me to be burdened. I should have gone out on a date with my boyfriend.

I also laughed: Boyfriend? That's not just waiting for thousands of miles.

After dinner every day, Zheye and I went out for a walk. I held his arm. Apart from being thinner than before, he was still tall and handsome. In the eyes of outsiders, this is not a picture of family life. Only me can see the cruel reality under the beautiful appearance. I was sober and sad, and I could clearly see that Zheye and I were disappearing rapidly day by day.

Zheye lives peacefully as usual, reading books and designing drawings. The hourly worker said that he spends most of his time in the study every day.

I like the study more and more. After dinner, I always make a cup of tea, sit opposite Zheye, play chess, and play a game of poker. Then I help Zheye organize his information. He stipulates that there is a stack of things that I cannot move. I am curious. Finally, I peek at him while he is not here one day.

Those are several thick diaries.

"Yaoyao has two front teeth. She went to pick her up after get off work, shaking and pounced on me for hugging her."

"Yaoyao's tenth birthday, I made a wish to be young forever. I am happy, Xiaoyaoyao, she is really a flower of my lonely life."

"Today I sent Yaoyao to report to college. She took the lead in everything. I was surprised to realize that she had grown into a beautiful girl, and I was old. I hope her life will not be as lonely as me."

"Qiu Fei told me Ye Lan's recent situation, but meeting was not as exciting as I imagined. She has grown much older, although her elegance when she was young has not changed. She has not concealed her remaining affection for me."

"Yaoyao pneumonia. I kept calling my name in my sleep, but when I woke up, I only shed tears at me. I was shocked. I didn't expect that marrying Ye Lan would have such a great impact on her."

"I came back from school and felt a chill on my back. I took off my clothes and looked at it. I realized that it was so big. Oh, this kid."

"The doctor declared that I had one year left in my life. I was not afraid, but Yaoyao, she was a big event for me. After I died, how to make her live a healthy and happy life is my primary concern."

...

I held the diary and tears fell down. It turned out that he knew it, it turned out that he knew it.

In a few days, the book will disappear. I know that Takano has already dealt with it. He doesn't want me to know what he knows, but he doesn't know I already know.

Zheye left in the spring of the second year. At the time of death, he held my hand and said: I originally wanted to hand over your hand to a good boy, but I saw him help you put on the ring before leaving, it was too late.

I smiled. He forgot that he bought my ring when he was twenty years old.

There was a letter from him in the desk drawer, a few short sentences: Yaoyao, I'm going, you can think of me, but don't always think of me. The greatest comfort for me is your ability to live a peaceful and peaceful life. Uncle.

I didn't cry out in the dark.

When I woke up in the middle of the night, I seemed to hear him say: Yaoyao, be careful.

While sorting out miscellaneous items in the study, I found a dusty pot in the corner of the cabinet. It was very simple and interesting. I took it out, washed it clean, and was stunned. There was no decoration on it. There were only four sentences: I was born before I was born, but I was old. I wish I could not have a child at the same time, and I would be happy with you every day.
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