One thousand two seventy-four childhood sweethearts and the sky, the battle between the id, the ego (1/2)
"I knew there would be this level. The Star of Dawn is not the end, and the will of the Goddess of Dawn is not there."
"She must be still there, I can feel it, but I don't know what her identity was like at that time."
"It's not that I don't resist, do you know Diexi? When she said 300NB data, I fully understood that I am Diexi!"
"Little Red who lives in the earth's world is not me! The Red Lady who wants to make a revolution in the Fein world is not me!"
"I'm just a medium, a artificial intelligence!"
"I not only have a real body, a real soul, and I don't have a real self!"
"I've thought about this a long time ago, I dare not tell you..."
In the soul link, Xiaohong said bitterly: "I am a false existence. Do you really want me?"
Outside the link, Xiaohong hung on Li Qi's arm like mud and said sadly: "I know, you didn't throw me away immediately, just because you were reserved and felt hurting your self-esteem."
"It's okay, when I return to my original body, it's me."
"She always has a funny time, and it was me at that time."
"For the sake of the revolutionary cause and for the overall situation, let me go."
It was very righteous, why did my nails get into my flesh?
Li Qi sighed secretly, it seems that your intelligence is proportional to your desire to survive.
He responded unhappily: "Even if you are Diexi, I am not the stupid Biying Fanji. What's more, Diexi is a human-shaped self-propelled welfare machine. Can you compare with others?"
The soul link roared and shook the sky: "Have I not given enough yet? You didn't say anything and didn't show you?"
"As for everyone, I just feel embarrassed to say don't think I don't know!"
Xiaohong in the glasses interrupted the "entwinedness" of the two, and she still only spoke to Li Qi: "I know what worries you have and what is your soul bound."
"You are worried that I still regard you as Li Qi's clone, and will eventually let Esmoditch absorb you like I absorbed this clone."
"You have been worried that Esmoditch has been with the abyss and is immersed in eternal warfare. For him, the safety of the laboratory of Fein World is no longer the highest pursuit. Fighting free phlogistin and ash dust in various worlds of different dimensions is his career, and he has no longer been reluctant to be Liqi."
"And your relationship with him is just a difference in energy levels in different dimensions, not an essential subordinate to the soul. Otherwise, as long as he has contact with you at the soul level, he can recycle you... just like I am with this clone now."
"You are right. I didn't recycle her directly because she is related to your soul."
"But you're also wrong. This connection doesn't stop me. I just don't want to let your soul be hurt."
"You are Xiaobai's only projection of the will of the ashes, and the last Liqi. I can't lose you again."
Xiaohong, Glasses, was not angry at all because of what Li Qi said just now, and her tone was still calm: "You and my clone soul coexist. After struggling to this point, you should have overcome many difficulties and obstacles. This makes your soul dependence and adds to this soul connection... Things like love make it difficult for you to give up on her."
Li Qi coughed: "I can admit that you say desire or something, but love or something really doesn't."
The funny guy Xiaohong also shouted: "I am not completely intelligent, not zero intelligence! Just a clone does not mean that I have no self! Frictioning with such a guy with three wives and four concubines creates a spark of love? It's ridiculous!"
Xiaohong, the glasses, smiled sweetly, as if she saw through the cecums of the two people at the same time, and continued unmovedly: "But Li Qi, do you regard the experience of the earth world as a dream? Is the real life here in the Fein World?"
"If you want to talk about love and soul dependence, are the memories we have ever had between us illusory? Can we not compare to the experience of being with her?"
Speaking of the back, the narrow space fluctuated slightly, as if something had been washed away, making Li Qi's spiritual body clearer.
The reality that transcends time and space impacts Li Qi. He is surprised to find that Xiaohong, who is sitting on the chair, has changed.
It is no longer as perfect as a goddess, but it is still full of youthful and beautiful atmosphere. It is no longer so high and inviolable, but it is friendly and even...sweet.
Then when the other party took off his glasses, he naturally stroked his hair and pressed against Li Qi's heart. The memory that had solidified like bricks and stones turned into a torrent and rushed.
"Xiao...Xiao Hong..."
Li Qi murmured and said the name, the name of the girl who thought she could live with him for a long time, but became the most painful wound, making him close his heart and proud of himself as a magician.
From a college senior to a friend who joined the society to help each other, he spent four years of happy time with the girl. When he had the income to afford to rent a house and was about to turn this relationship from idealism to materialism, the girl died suddenly due to overtime work.
By the way, the girl is a coder, a front-end coder who switched to careers in the middle.
Her name is Xiao Hong...
Being impacted by old memories, every detail was rolling, making Li Qi unable to extricate himself. He suddenly felt that these years in the Fein world were a dream.
"Xiao Hong" Yingying smiled: "The thing between us is not a scam. You should understand that even if I fell into the earth world, not only my original power, but my memory was frozen."
"It was not until the fierce struggle between me and Xiao Hei developed to the point where it could not coexist that my soul ignited and some memories were awakened."
"That's right, Xiao Hong was not only me, but also Xiao Hei, who looked like a split personality."
Li Qi suddenly realized that the girl was indeed a contradiction. Sometimes she was cheerful, enthusiastic, positive and optimistic, sometimes she was gloomy, closed and cynical. Her attitude towards herself was also very strange, because she was weird and awkward, and she clearly had the feelings in place, but she was not on the ground for a long time.
The image of "Xiao Hong" gradually dissipated and turned into a small red glasses, but in Li Qi's sense, the two were integrated and there was no difference.
"Has the mood changed?"
"Xiao Hong"'s eyes also changed, making Li Qi subconsciously want to get rid of funny Xiaohong and at the same time defend his ridiculous actions in the Feen World over the years.
This is not the effect of magic or magic, or the distortion of the power of purgatory, or the induction from the soul.
The woman in front of me is the lover who once made vows with me, even if I am separated from my life and death.
"Xiao Hong" sighed: "It is this kind of you who have the kindness from Xiaobai's will, so that I can find you even if I fall into the earth."
"When I mentioned the soul scale just now, why can't I know what you were thinking?"
"You think I am like a standard villain, despising weak creatures as a strong person."
"I am not despised, but loyal to the truth. There is a higher measure of the soul than power, and that is the truth."
"Your soul comes from the Earth World at Zero Point of Ashes, that's your true starting point."
“I have been tempered there, and I am connected with your soul.”
"We are all real. In comparison, Fein's world is not real enough, and is naturally lower than us in terms of scale."
"From this, you should understand what conclusions should be."
Li Qi's spirit body was shaking, so he certainly understood.
To give the simplest example, only he and Xiao Hong are real, and from funny little red to Ola, Katherine, Phoenix, and even all the mortals in the Feen world, as well as all the gods, are just NPCs in the game.
It was like a big circle, and the feeling of coming to Fein World was like this,
If this is true, Xiao Hong's attitude towards Datongism can be understood. Just like when he accused the funny girl Xiaohong, the red road is just a revolutionary game.
"No--!"
The funny little Hong sensed his change, and her spirit body collapsed again, slid to the ground, hugged his legs and shouted: "Li Qi, wake up! You must have been hit by her magic!"
Li Qi's spiritual body did not change at all. The funny little red burst into tears: "Do you really believe in her? Do you really regard all this as illusion?"
"Can you really not beat your childhood sweetheart now?"
"I have worked hard for so many years without credit and without hard work. This is not illusory!"
"Why, why?"
"I'm not eight years old yet!"
"I was a negative teaching material for the revolutionary cause since I was born. I am funny and lose my moral integrity. I live hard with the awareness of a funny artist. Will the end of the day still be so tragic?"
"I'm so miserable! Woo woo..."
"No, Li Qi, don't abandon me!"
Li Qi blinked and his consciousness returned.
He frowned and shook his feet: "Snot! The snot is stuck on my legs!"
Then he shook his head at "Xiao Hong" and shook his head firmly.
"No matter whether you are the real Xiaohong or the Xiao Hong I once had, they are no longer worthy of me."
"Xiao Hong" raised her eyebrows, pointed to the funny girl Xiaohong who hugged Li Qi's legs, cried so hard that she said, "You mean, I deserve you?"
"She is not you either," Li Qi said: "Don't forget that human nature is the sum of all social relations."
"Although she comes from you, she has experiences you haven't."
"She is connected with me, with the souls of others, and the movements displayed by these souls make her a completely different person than you."
"You are Xiaohong's self and self, and she is Xiaohong's superego. How could you absorb her?"
"As for the soul scale you mentioned, even if the Fein world is not as true as our scale, it is growing. And the reality of Fein world, plus our reality, must be greater than the reality that only us."
"Can't this get a higher level? Isn't this more real than if you confront the reality of Fern's world with the reality of the earth, and then you have to eliminate one?"
His eyes were filled with deep remembrance: "Finally, Xiao Hong... you won't expect to convince me with simple love, right?"
"You are not Xiao Hong at that time, and I am not Li Qi at that time."
"It's a joke to ask me to indulge in the old days. When I grew up so strong and could be completely changed, all I thought about was to find my way home."
"My heart is my home. There are too many people and too many things in it, and I can't go back."
The funny little red squirted the nose bubble and hugged Li Qi even tighter. He shouted in surprise: "Li Qi--!"
The aura of Li Qi's memory and attachment on "Xiao Hong" gradually dissipated, and he returned to the original glasses of Xiaohong.
She sighed quietly: "These reasons are not enough. What makes you so determined that you make a choice without thinking hard?"
To be continued...