The sound of the two people breaking through the railing caused a little commotion, and it was nothing serious.

Most people think that the railings here are rotting, causing two innocent passers-by to fall down by leaning against the railings and looking at the stars.

The two of them looked nothing bad, at least they didn't hurt their appearance, so they just let it go.

The boss also sent a few extra boxes of beer and drinks to let everyone have a good time to drink.

Bai Yu looked like he was fine and chatted with everyone while talking and laughing. Xia Xin also returned to Zhu Xiaoxuan, just like drinking quietly before. Although both of them were a little red, they were only considered because they had drunk too much and no one would think about the place where they were injured.

The banquet lasted until after 9 o'clock, and everyone ended one after another.

The boss insisted that he treated him, hoping that Bai Yu and Xia Xin would not mention the two of them falling from the building, but Bai Yu insisted on checking out because it was not about the boss's business. In the end, Bai Yu was more persistent and paid more than 10,000 yuan in wine.

During the banquet, Bai Yu did not look at Xia Xin again, nor did he say another word to Xia Xin, and Xia Xin was the same.

The two remained in a state of uninterference and parted with a banquet.

In fact, Xia Xin didn't know why he couldn't help but attack Bai Yu.

Although he has few activities with Bai Yu, he has always regarded Bai Yu as a friend, roommate, and brother.

He felt that Bai Yu was different from other people. He was quite good. Although occasionally, people would feel that he had his own world and was always out of place with other people. Even if everyone stood together, he seemed to be in another world, but this did not prevent Xia Xin from thinking that Bai Yu was a good person.

No matter what, Xia Xin will not attack his friends.

He just finished his move and realized it.

Xia Xin thought about it carefully and felt that maybe, maybe, maybe, maybe, that was a bit of a bit of a sore spot by Bai Yu, so his head was a little confused. Of course, there was a large part of the reason, because he couldn't even contact Xue Tong, so he could easily contact Xue Tong. Moreover, listening to Xue Tong's tone, he felt that the two had a good relationship, which made him feel a little unhappy and jealous.

Until the banquet ended, everyone went back to their homes.

Xia Xin tried hard to maintain his usual appearance, smiled gently, and said to Zhu Xiaoxuan, "I'll take you back to the dormitory."

"Okay," Zhu Xiaoxuan nodded with a smile.

Because they all drank some wine, and it was very late, it made people feel a little sleepy. Along the way, the two of them chatted casually about irrelevant things and went to the girls' dormitory. Xia Xin smiled and said "Good night" and broke up with Zhu Xiaoxuan.

However, the smile on his face froze at the moment of turning around. Even though he was smiling, his heart was very heavy. How could he still laugh?

Xia Xin came to the school gate with expressionless expression, strolling alone in the dark and deserted streets, with all kinds of thoughts rotating in his mind, and the dim street lights pulled his back longer and longer, then separated two, and then put them together, and this cycle repeated.

Occasionally, a few moths passed by his head, and were not interested in him, a stranger, and would not even look at him more. They flew straight over and pounced on the hot street lamp, hitting the head and bleeding, then fell to the ground, dying without regrets.

Xia Xin stopped and sat on the bench under the street light, staring blankly at a few moths, hovering under the street light, and occasionally one of them pounced on them, which fell down in a short while.

He felt that it was great in the world of moths. There would never be other wise moths standing up and pointing at it and saying, "You can't put out the fire." You are wrong, wrong, and you will die in this way."

However, moths fly into flames, this is its lifelong destiny, no right or wrong. Just because you want to do it, you do it.

Simple, ordinary pursuit of life of fate without any unnecessary worries.

And I am different.

Xia Xin was annoyed at how he couldn't help but act, and hated being criticized.

He knew his mistake in the dark. He had wanted to correct this mistake for a long time and had wanted to explain it to others. But he had not done so and could not do it.

He understands the truth!

It’s different to knowing and doing!

There is no need for others to stand on the commanding heights to blame themselves.

Xia Xin wanted to retort, "You are also a young master, do you know my situation?" He wanted to retort, "You stand and speak without a pain in your back, but he also wanted to retort, "You know how happy and unattainable it is to have relatives?"

Do you know that kind of despair that tossses and turns without any hope?

But he couldn't say anything, and all of this was not an excuse for him to conceal or deceive.

Xia Xin knew very well that Bai Yu had a gentleman temperament, and he would not take any advantage of Li Lianxing. He would not use a knife behind his back or he would not take any slut. These are the differences between him and himself. If he had known his own affairs, he could actually tell his own affairs, at least, to tell Xue Tong, but he didn't do this because he was a gentleman.

He doesn't get involved in his own affairs or his own private affairs. Even if he actually likes Xue Tong, he doesn't do anything.

Today I will tell myself that some of it is for Xue Tong and some of it is for himself. He doesn't want him to make mistakes any more. As Bai Yu said, if it were someone else, he would definitely not care, and would not even take a look at him.

Bai Yu even promised that as long as he made it clear, he would do his best to help him. That was serious, he looked desperately at that time.

Xia Xin could not find any excuse to refute this.

Bai Yu did things he thought was right, thought he was good to Xue Tong, and was open and irrefutable.

Perhaps it was his sentence, "You are just greedy and longing to enjoy the taste of being loved by others. You can't give others love, you just treat other people's love as family affection." This sentence angered yourself.

"I'm also... trying to try to love..."

For example, moon dance...

Xia Xin murmured.

It seemed to be for Bai Yu to say it, or it seemed to be for himself.

But this did not make any sense, and it could not stop the full feeling of guilt in his heart.

Xia Xin did things that hurt others even though he knew that some people were in love with him, such as Shi Qi and Xiaoxuan...

I know it myself.

But, I can't speak clearly.

Ah... It's so bad. After hitting Bai Yu, I stubbornly rejected the other party's advice and refused to do it. Even if it's better to have a long pain than a short pain, I greedily wanted to enjoy the short "emotion". Such a self is so bad.

Xia Xin smiled self-deprecatingly.

In fact, no matter how bad he is, he doesn't care anymore. He doesn't care at all. What Xia Xin cares is that Bai Yu pointed out directly that he is like this... I'm so sorry to Xiaoxuan.

Perhaps, this is the reason why I became angry and embarrassed.

That's why he asked himself to go and finish Xiaoxuan immediately.

The third brother,... he is a good person.

I am the complete bad guy.

He said that he didn't want to hurt anyone, but he was actually hurting everyone. If he didn't explain some things clearly, it would hurt everyone, including himself.

The truth...everyone understands it!

Cut off all contacts, and then go back to the past when I was alone, wandering around the streets lonely, watching other people's fathers, children, relatives, friends, classmates, colleagues, gathered under the Christmas tree and sang Christmas songs happily. I was alone at the door watching others having New Year's Eve dinner and watching the Spring Festival party with envy, but I could only hold my arms and stand silently at the door, letting the snow cover my shoulders and hair cover me, but I was reluctant to leave. I just tried to borrow some of the warmth of other people's affection through the window?

"Hehe..." Xia Xin smiled self-deprecatingly, closed his eyes and shook his head gently.

As long as you taste the abyss loneliness, darkness, loneliness, and helplessness, you will never want to go back. Only by experiencing it will you know the meaning of the word "past" to Xia Xin.

Bai Yu said it right, but that's just right, it doesn't mean that this is "correct". There is still a long journey between "yes" and "right".

After being exposed by Bai Yu, a long-lost emptiness and lonely coldness rose from Xia Xin's feet and quickly spread throughout his body, making him tremble with coldness.

This is the cold that has tasted countless times in the past, mixed with the cold air at night, and the heart-wrenching coldness.

Xia Xin unconsciously shrank his body, as if he wanted to hide his body in his clothes.

He tried hard to shrink his hands, trying to shrink his hands into the sleeves of his clothes, just like he was trembling with cold weather in the cold winter night countless times in the past. The only thing he could do was to shrink his hands into his clothes, trying to keep warm.

But at this time, a soft and warm touch surrounded his fingertips, and the warm feeling slowly spread from his fingers to his heart.

Xia Xin slowly opened his eyes and then realized that Zhu Xiaoxuan was sitting on the public bench next to him.

The dim street lights radiated a dim light behind her, reflecting her beautiful and white side face, and the newly inserted white and beautiful flowers on her head, shining brightly.

"Xiaoxuan?"

Xia Xin almost thought it was his own hallucination, "Didn't you go back to the dormitory?"

Zhu Xiaoxuan looked ahead and gently clenched Xia Xin's fingers. A strange light flashed in her beautiful eyes, as if it was a beautiful memory, with a light and happy smile, narrating in a gentle manner.

"Shihu, do you know? If it were the past, you would stand at the door of the dormitory building and watch me walk into the dormitory building safely. You would walk slowly, leave until you leave to the corner at the end of the intersection, then stop, stand under the tree at the corner, and look at the automatic lights in the dormitory corridor. Follow my steps from the second floor to the fifth floor, and confirm that I went upstairs safely, Shihu would leave safely."

"Of course, this may be just a careful habit and ordinary gentleness for Shihu. But for Xiaoxuan, even if she goes upstairs, she will feel very happy. She is stared at and cared for by Shihu's eyes, as if she is surrounded by full of happiness. So, I often slow down on my pace, occasionally peeking at Shihu from the window at the entrance of the corridor, trying hard to extend this distance and extend this small happy corridor."

Zhu Xiaoxuan said this and turned to look at Xia Xin. In her beautiful and clear eyes, she was full of happiness and comfort, staring at Xia Xin. Her pink lips were outlined with a faint smile, and she said with a bit of naughty and gentle smile.

"I feel a little bad, and I'm a little bit scheming, but as long as this is the case, Xiaoxuan feels very satisfied. Just like this, it's a precious memory that Xiaoxuan will never forget in her life. Am I... very cunning?"
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