I used to love my readers very much, I mean all readers. Love all readers.

But now, I can only say: I love some of my readers, because there is still some that I dare not love and cannot afford to love.

For old readers who are familiar with me, you can recall that before 2009, when I interacted with readers in the novel chapters, I would use five words [Brothers and Sisters] when I called all readers.

However, I never use this word now, I always use "book friends", readers, readers".

I never use the four words "brothers and sisters" in public places.

Now, I only use the title of siblings in my hardcore fan group.

I was woken up twice. These two experiences made me understand clearly that a lot of readers, or more than half, do not regard your author as a friend at all.

If you update quickly, I will like you.

You are slow to update, I will care whether your family is natural disaster or man-made disaster or divorce. If you make me feel good about reading books, I will be so sad.

Really, there are some people who are like this.

And I used to be naive to think that everyone should be friends at least.

I once faced all readers fairly, whether they were subscribers or pirated people, I treated them equally.

When I started stealing articles in Tieba in the early days, I can say that I was the first author to go to Tieba to chat and interact with pirated readers.

At that time, I simply thought: readers are readers. Whether you read pirated or genuine, as long as you like the books I wrote, you are my dance readers. I thank you for your love for my books.

Many authors are asking for rewards, and they are asking readers to give themselves money. In the world, there are millions of alliances and tens of millions of alliances as honor. They all show that there are 100 leaders in a book and 1,000 leaders...

Where is me? Every time a reader gives me a reward, my first sentence is: Thank you.

Then my second sentence was to send an order to everyone: Don’t give me rewards, save some money, no one’s money is not blown by the strong wind, and you can subscribe is already the greatest support. Rewards are equivalent to giving me money for no reason. Really, forget it, save some money.

Otherwise, with my popularity and reward, it would be difficult to have dozens of extra league leaders and a few million more alliances? Isn't it possible?

When I was competing for monthly tickets, several die-hard fans in the group helped me buy monthly tickets on Taobao, but I stopped them and didn’t want everyone to spend money.

Later, someone had already bought it, and I paid for it myself to replenish it. If someone really refused to charge it, I would send a full set of my books to mail it.

Many years ago, I have been sincerely expressing my heart to readers. Yes, I can say this with a clear conscience.

The first injury was in 2009.

That year, my first marriage failed.

It is conceivable that men must be very depressed and depressed when divorce is something like that.

During that time, my writing status was very unstable and I often stopped updating.

My book review area is full of curses? No, it is full of curses!

I saw with my own eyes the person who once enthusiastically called me "Dancing Big", the same id, leaving behind a vicious curse.

I posted a message to explain that there was something wrong with my life, that I was divorced and in a bad state, please forgive me.

Some readers understand and understand, and send a lot of comfort.

However, there are still many curses.

At that time, I was puzzled: I treated everyone as friends. If my friends encountered difficulties, can’t they understand?

In my private message box, there were too many insults full of anger and hatred.

During that time, in the private message box I saw, there were two types of messages.

One is to comfort me with a divorce.

One is to insult me ​​to update unstable.

The ratio is about half and half.

I once received a private message, and I can't remember the original words. It roughly means: You are a professional writer, and any problems in your family have nothing to do with me. You are a professional writer, and divorce is your private matter. Don't fucking not to write books well. If I want to read books, if you don't let me read them, you have no professional ethics, so you deserve it.

Oh by the way, the person who left me a message reads the pirated version.

It is difficult for me to describe my mood at that time in words.

I used to love to go to Tieba, interact and chat with pirated readers.

Even if someone once hinted me that the company's official attitude is to crack down on piracy, you always go to the base camp for pirated versions to interact, which has a bad impact.

But I still like to do this.

I think I am already dedicated to readers, even pirated readers.

There were several times when I even bought my own books out of my own pocket, and then I gave physical books to pirated readers in a lottery in the post bar.

I really feel like I'm already heartbroken.

However, that time, my heart suddenly became cold.

A pirated reader from a post bar said to me in a cold tone: Not everyone can receive the books you send. If you stop updating, you deserve to be scolded. What matters are at home.

How cold is your heart? Haha...

Well, I am a professional author. No matter what natural disasters and man-made disasters happen in my family, it has nothing to do with you. If you can’t read good books with satisfaction, you are just me bastard.

Understood.

That incident made me start to wonder about my previous attitude.

That is: Don’t expect every reader to be sincere to you. Everyone’s relationship is actually just the relationship between the reader and the author.

It is impossible to make every reader a relative and friend.

Of course, some readers are still my brothers and sisters, but I need to distinguish them.

But in order to protect yourself, try to give less sincerity.

Something happened during this period.

When I divorced, a rumor appeared: the dance divorce was because his ex-wife cheated and cuckolded him.

To be honest, this is not the case with my divorce.

However, this rumor is there.

Where did it come from?

It came from my post bar.

I found several posts and saw the source of the rumor.

Some people spread rumors, claiming to be my friend, and fabricated rumors about cheating.

I have also seen more vicious words: Whoever makes you not write novels well, whoever makes you write those abuse plots, your wife divorces you will be retribution.

At that time, I understood how vicious people can be.

Just because the books I wrote did not satisfy you or enjoy reading them, you can insult me ​​at will.

Well, this is the Internet. I remind myself again that this is the Internet and anyone can do things without a limit.

So, I learned to protect myself.

From then on, I no longer call my brothers and brothers to readers, and from then on, I no longer interact with readers and mention anything in my life.

Of course, there are still many kind people in this world, but in order to avoid attacks from a few despicable people, I can only choose to protect myself. Because this is the Internet, I cannot clearly identify who is the good and who is the bad.

Then keep your distance.

This is the first time I have hit me.

The second blow to me was when I was unparalleled in genius.

I am a very willful person, unparalleled, I want to write what I want to write, and I want to write about my attitude towards religion.

However, I encountered a network cleaning operation, which coincided with several violent terrorist incidents.

The main line of my novel was cut twice.

The process is really difficult. It’s nothing to write a novel and modify it, but it’s okay to prune branches and leaves.

But cut the outline and the main line, and it was twice.

All of them are on the premise that the novel has been serialized by more than one million words and the architecture has been built.

I've really lost writing.

I explained that it is a whole lot.

Some people believe, understand, and comfort.

However, the insults still drown me like a wave.

The most speechless thing is: dancing and lying, there is no clean net at all, and there is no way to write these things. He is just lazy, he doesn't want to write, and he deliberately makes us not read books, so everyone scolds him together, "Cao Mu Ma (homophony, you know it).

I explained that I posted a chat record and I took out examples of several other great masters being ordered to rectify at the same time, and even the novel was directly deleted and blocked to try to prove that I was not lying.

Yet, it's all over the place.

For some people, there is only one reason: I care about your reasons. Anyway, if you don’t let me see the book, I will just be muddy. I don’t care, I won’t listen! Your problem is related to my bird’s business, so I will scold you!

During that time, something big happened to me at home.
To be continued...