The old man in white sighed again. "Do you really like her or do you like the shadow of Yan'er on her body?" Hearing it, Long Feimo's body stiffened. "I..." Long Feimo couldn't speak for a moment. What he liked was really that shadow... But why did he feel heartbroken when she said she didn't want to see him again?

"Old man, what I like is her Gong Xiyue, not the purple Yan she used to be!" Long Feimo thought about it and then slowly said it after a long time.

Maybe he did see Zi Yan's shadow in Xiyue, rebellious, arrogant and lonely. But she also has her own side that is different from Zi Yan. She is smart, black-bellied, and ruthless. But he still doesn't know what he likes her. After living for a thousand years, he spent almost every day practicing in the sacred land of the empty lineage. When he was bored, he wanted to learn other things. At first, he learned about the prosperity of the world from other maids and servants, and later he wanted to experience it.

This has been going for nearly a hundred years. Anyway, there are those old men in the Dragon Clan who don’t have to worry about him.

Although he understands the worldly ways, he never understands one thing.

Affection.

He once met a woman in the human world. The woman saved his life when he was poisoned and was chased. After that, the woman took care of him until his serious injury was healed. After that, he asked to leave and the woman kept him for a night. That night she arranged wine and food for him, and the two of them drank and talked about each other. That night was when he saw her talking the most. The woman got drunk and pretended to faint in his arms. That was why he had been wandering in the human world for more than ten years. How could he not know what the situation was like? He slapped the woman with cold water. When the woman woke up, her eyes were red. He knew that she was reluctant to let go, but this reluctantness still included another meaning.

"Fei Mo, don't leave, stay with me, okay?" The woman looked at him with affectionate eyes in Long Fei Mo's arms. "Fei Mo, I know you are very ordinary, and I also know you don't want to stay, but... but I only have half a year to live, can you stay with me?" The woman sobbed. She really didn't want him to leave. She really loved him.

Long Feimo frowned and took her pulse. Her meridians were all short, and it was no wonder that she was so weak if she couldn't practice, but she was never weak, but she was a strong man. Her meridians were short since childhood, and now they have been nineteen years... I'm afraid it's hard to catch it even if Tianxiang Cardamom is involved, and she was infected with cold poison, so it was a miracle that she could survive until now.

Long Feimo looked at Zi Yan, and there was regret in his eyes. "Okay—"

The woman hugged his neck happily and kissed him on his cheek. Long Feimo was stunned that he was kissed by a girl for the first time. His face couldn't help but flush.

He got up and carried the woman into her room, because in a remote place, she was the only one living here. A thatched hut was divided into two rooms, and the woman lived next to him.

Long Feimo put the woman on the bed and got up and left, but the woman pulled her over. Her delicate red lips, which were as beautiful as blood, were printed on his thin and cold lips. For a moment, he didn't know what to do. Seeing Long Feimo's eyes were stunned, the woman's heart deepened the kiss. Everything was dominated by her. She blocked his waist with both hands, hoping to get them closer. At this time, Long Feimo took down her hand around his waist with both hands, "You are drunk, have a good rest." She put her on the bed and covered her with a quilt, and turned around and left.

The room was so quiet that there was almost no breathing sound.

After a long time, a woman's sob came from the house, very light, but how could Long Feimo next door be caught by him?

It’s not that he couldn’t guess what would happen next, he was a man. But he didn’t want this to happen, even though the woman would pass away soon.

Time has passed, and five months have passed. Long Feimo watched the woman become weaker and weaker day by day. After five months of being together, he treated her as a sister-like care, but she loved him as a friend.

On that day, the woman brought her over after cooking. Not far from the table, she suddenly felt that all the strength in her body was being pulled away, her body became very cold, and her eyes blurred. Long Feimo heard the sound of the plate breaking and saw the woman's body falling down weakly. He quickly stopped her into her arms, "Yan'er, Yan'er, wake up." The woman was confused and half open her eyes and saw Long Feimo's shadow. Her hand was about to touch his cheek, but it fell down before it arrived.

Long Feimo held the woman's hand and placed it on his cheek. She felt that her body was as cold as ice, and she carried her into it. He searched her veins. During this search, he found that the woman's meridians were wrapped in ice, her heart was almost frozen, and her whole body gradually fell into stiffness.

Long Feimo activated his internal force to overpower her. Seeing that her face improved, she felt happy and continued.

The woman slowly woke up and looked at the man whose face was getting pale, and her heart was indescribable warmth.

"Fei Mo, there is no need to be like this. I have been a dying person long ago, but I promised my life to live to this day... Cough cough." The woman put her hand on Long Fei Mo's hand to stop him from moving. She smiled, but red blood flowed out of the corners of her mouth.

Seeing the man not speaking, the woman looked at him with a smile. "Fi Mo, have you really loved me for such a long time..." The woman's words messed up the man's heart. He didn't understand what love is or what love is. When the man said nothing, the woman's heart was endless sorrow.

"Yan'er...I...I don't understand what love is." Long Feimo's words hit her heart like a bolt from the blue.

Don't understand...?

Zi Yan smiled bitterly.

"Do you know I love you? Starting from the day I saved you..." He was silent, knowing that he was just escaping.

Zi Yan took out a letter and handed it to him. Seeing the letter in his hand, Zi Yan smiled bitterly. Her heart aches, a mouthful of blood spurted out, and a few drops splashed on Long Feimo's face.

"This letter...you, you must..." The woman lost her breath before she could say the complete sentence. She lay quietly on the bed. Her whole body was frozen, and the corpse under the ice quickly rotted...

Long Feimo's heart aches, but he was not doing it. He only thought he had some illness, but his heart twitched. He took off his outer robe and covered the woman's body. He turned around and went outside, opened the letter...

Long Feimo looked at the woman's beautiful font, tears fell down, and her heart hurt even more. She threw down the letter and ran back to the house and looked at the bed. The woman's body disappeared, and the only thing that made people commit evil blood...

"No--" Long Feimo knelt heavily on the ground.

It was him, he who betrayed the woman.

He loved her, but he didn't know that he was running away. Only after she died did she realize that Zi Yan's place had left in his heart.

He hated, why did he know nothing, and he had a woman whose life was slightly drooping, a woman who changed herself for him. She didn't give her an accurate answer until she died.

It's his cowardice.

In the blink of an eye, he regretted for four hundred years until he met Gong Xiyue!

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