Chen Feiyang would not allow me to leave. If I get out now, he will find the rhythm of the night. He can't drive him away and he can't get out by himself. I can only go to the bedroom to lock the door and sulk.

I was going to be so angry that I was going to be furious. I sat on the bed and grabbed the pillow. One of the thoughts in my mind was that I couldn't live this life.

We have been quarrels and fights with Chen Feiyang in just a few months since we got married, but I have never had such an idea. I think it is necessary to get along with the noisy marriage.

Young, although he was angry, he didn't really take it to his heart.

This time Chen Feiyang encountered my bottom line, and I couldn't tolerate it. I also began to regret it. I regret marrying Chen Feiyang. If I don't get married, I will still be me, a simplistic me, and I will do whatever I want.

, don’t worry about the so-called family feeling. It’s so good when you are alone. When you are alone, your own secret is your own secret. Memories are sweet, and even crying is more enjoyable than now.

I remembered a lyric, "Transfer the warmth of one person to the chest of another person, and let the mistakes made last time reflect on the dream." I thought that living together was to support and take care of each other, and the strength of two people was greater than that of one.

Renmin University, but why are two people more difficult than one person?

I really regret that I had the desire for home. At that time, there was no Chen Feiyang. Maybe I could get through it after I endured it myself.

Of course, these are all impulsive thoughts. A person can not eat love as a meal, but when he serves the rice, he must eat it, no matter how unpleasant it is.

I know that I have married him. Is it that easy to say divorce?

So I could only cry, thinking that there was a Chen Feiyang seed in my belly. I had never considered abortion, although I don’t want a child now.

I feel that I have committed a lot of evil in my life. I even wondered, if I divorce Chen Feiyang now, how could I give birth to this child and be a strong single mother, and then... I have to take Wu Yuqing with me.

Can I do it? I can really do it if I don’t have a father to support these three people alone? It seems that that is too cruel. It seems that it is too cruel to give birth to Chen Feiyang’s child and not raise it for him.

I hate why I got pregnant at this time and beat my stomach with my fists. Who asked you to come and who asked you to come at this time.

I was crying while beating myself, but I was afraid that the child would be really broken. Oh my God, what should I do?

Chen Feiyang was staying outside, I tried to imagine forgiveness, but I really couldn't forgive him. Maybe, after he saw my past, he might not be able to forgive me?

Every time I encountered a problem before, I would still actively solve it and try to understand him from his position, but this time I really couldn't do it.

I was crying, and I remembered that I would go to the competition tomorrow. I didn’t open the door or go out to wash, so I just slept like that.

Chen Feiyang still got out that night. I don’t know where to get out. No matter how good he is to me, he still has a temper, and he will feel wronged.

He just couldn't help but want to know everything about me, but in fact, he really got it. Is he happy? He should be even worse than me.

The next day I took my luggage and Shao Siwei on the itinerary. I had to stay there for three or four days in this competition. Because I was in a different place, I still took Wu Yuqing with me as planned. She was always bored at home.

On the train, Wu Yuqing fell asleep. Shao Siwei asked me why my eyes were swollen. Thinking about it, I guessed that I was quarreling with Chen Feiyang last night, so I could only sigh silently.

I always think of this mess unconsciously and cry when I think of it. I asked Shao Siwei if there was any way I could prevent me from thinking about it. Shao Siwei said he was powerless.

Then Wang Zhaoyang sent me a text message asking if I was already on the way.

Click the reply, I edited several times, I typed his name, "Wang Zhaoyang", and then deleted, I typed "I'm not happy", and then deleted, I don't know what to say to him, I have a confidant **, but I

I was also very awake and could not talk to him, so I just replied "Yes".

Wang Zhaoyang said to me, and I replied to a string of ellipsis.

He knows my language habits too well. As long as I communicate with words, I reply to the ellipsis, which means I have something to say but can't say it. Most of the time, I must be unhappy.

He asked me what was wrong.

I said, "Nothing is wrong. You're going to bed, don't go back."

When I put down my phone, I cried again. I thought, if there was no Wang Zhaoyang in this world, I would not be so painful, because I would have no other choice. Because with Wang Zhaoyang, and reason told me that I could not choose, I would be in pain.

But he was still in his heart. Even though I deliberately avoided it, he never felt unfamiliar with it.

It seemed as if he was by my side and had never left.

I am here for the competition. Shao Siwei advised me to relax and deal with the mess at home when I go back and don’t think about anything for the time being. I understand, so when Chen Feiyang calls me, I will answer it perfunctorily.

I couldn't say anything for a few words, and I felt like I had nothing to say, so I died.

We haven't mentioned that thing yet, but there is inevitably some depression in the conversation. If you don't say it, I don't mean you have forgotten it.

On the day of the final, we performed normally, and the order of draws was not very good. In the third group, the level was just that. The province I am in is not a place that is good at cultivating artists, we can count here, it is true

It's very average across the country.

Anyway, it’s good to perform normally, and it’s not entirely based on rankings.

At the end of the curtain call, I swept a person from the audience, like Wang Zhaoyang's figure. The lights on the stage were too dim, and there was a beam of light coming from where he was standing, so I couldn't see him clearly.

After the curtain call, I returned to the backstage. The more I thought about it, I felt like it. I secretly ran to the corner to see the audience. It turned out that the person standing there was nowhere to be seen. Thinking about it again, it seemed that it was him.

Put on some clothes and I ran straight to the exit, "Wang Zhaoyang?"

The back, who was leaving, stood up, turned around and looked at me with a quiet face. I was a little confused, blinking my eyes, and tears surging, "Why are you... here?"

He smiled, "Stay these two days."

I tried to get closer. It was so cold at night, so Wang Zhaoyang walked towards me and stood three steps away. My heart was beating and I opened my mouth, "What, let's go now?"

He smiled, "There is something else, so let's take a look and go see your friends."

I nodded, "Well, I have to wait for the result and I won't be with you anymore."

He smiled casually, and I had no obligation to accompany him. I looked at me lightly, and Wang Zhaoyang turned around and was about to leave. I couldn't help but call him again, "Wang Zhaoyang."

He looked back at me.

I said, "Are you here specifically to watch my competition? You will leave after I jump. You don't even plan to call me, are you?"

As I said that, I burst into tears again. I heard that pregnant women were more fragile, which might be true. Wang Zhaoyang's expression paused, as if he wanted to explain something.

He doesn't need to explain, I know everything. Because today, if it were Wang Zhaoyang here, I would have done this. I don't want to miss everything about him, but I don't want to disturb him after participating, so I won't say hello, I will

Leave silently.

Without listening to his answer, I lowered my head and cried. Wang Zhaoyang walked in and wiped my tears. I hugged him directly. He was stunned for a moment and stretched out his hand to wrap my back.

I kept crying in his arms. I hadn't been in this arms for a long time, but he was still so kind, without a trace of strangeness.

I was sobbing, not like pear blossoms and rain, but really crying, and it was ugly. Wang Zhaoyang could only hold me and say nothing.

I regret it, I really regret it, I shouldn't have left him, I think people are similar to people. It's just to choose someone to live, and it's the same as you get used to it after a long time. But it's different at all. This is Wang Zhaoyang.

The best man in the world, no matter what he has done or missed.

That little bit of mistake could not cover up his other beauty, but I couldn't see it clearly because I had never lost it.

He hugged me and didn't say anything to comfort me. He could understand my thoughts.

When I was almost crying, he said, "It was very touching to dance well."

Shao Siwei and I were adapted by Shao Siwei. This is a tragedy. It was originally a love between two men. There are many things with high artistic value in their gay circle, but due to the limitations of the subject matter, there are very few

Publicly exposed. Shao Siwei changed him into a relationship between men and women, from the beginning to the thoughts after the passion faded, and after thinking, true love was reborn from the ashes, but under the obstruction of reality, two people who should have embraced each other enthusiastically,

Finally, the yin and yang are separated.

When Shao Siwei was making this dance, I always felt that he was telling his thoughts. There was a flame of depression in Shao Siwei's heart, and he did not reveal it to anyone, but I always suspected that he had thoughts of committing suicide.

But in this dance, I was the one who committed suicide.

In real life, I cannot commit suicide. People who commit suicide need extraordinary courage and the courage to let go of all their concerns, but I don’t.

"I'm pregnant." Holding Wang Zhaoyang, I burst into tears and told him weakly, "I'm pregnant..."

I need to tell someone my thoughts, but all I can think of is Wang Zhaoyang. He is like my black hole, which can invisibly absorb all my thoughts.

Because I am pregnant and I am pregnant with other people's children, even though I yearn for his arms so much, I cannot stay. This helpless reality is almost breaking down.

He was stunned for a moment, holding my shoulders to separate us, his eyes were broken, and looking at my tears, he smiled sadly.

I was crying, he was laughing, so hard and heartbreaking. When he wiped my tears, he wanted to say something, but he still laughed so much.

My hands grabbed his sleeves, tightly grasping them, and my knuckles turned white.

Finally, he pushed my hand away, "Announce the result immediately, I have something to do..."

He turned around and walked quickly step by step. I looked at him from behind, squatting down and crying so hard that I couldn't help myself. Shao Siwei came out to find me, looking at the back that was leaving, I could only hold him and cried fiercely for another round of time.
Chapter completed!