When I was in the game before, Wang Zhaoyang never cared about this. The little diary was all messy, and I was writing whatever came to mind. I would change it every three days, and I don’t know if he was reading it. Anyway, he never did.

I have written something before, but most men are like this and don't like to engage in these pretentious tricks.

Since I left the game, he actually wrote so much himself. Did he want me to read it? I think I can vaguely understand Wang Zhaoyang's mood when he wrote these things, so the more I thought about it, the sadder he became. I could only stare at the screen with big eyes.

Tears fell down.

My original intention of playing the game today was to delete my account. Once this account is deleted, these things will never be found again. I am reluctant to delete it, and I still can’t bear to delete these memories.

I buried a mountain in my heart. Under the mountain were sealed memories and feelings. A game, a message, a few simple words, like a giant axe, the mountain collapsed and the ground cracked. Memories were like strong air currents.

The colorful brilliance is mixed with the anger that has been trapped in the dust for too long. It attacks me and I can't stop it at all.

For the first time, I know what it feels like to have your heart twisted like a knife. It twists every nerve in your internal organs together, and you can't think of anything clearly in your mind.

I covered my mouth and cried, as if I had lost the most important part of my life. I cried so hard that my nose was twitching. I turned off the computer and ran downstairs. I wanted to see Wang Zhaoyang, I really wanted to see him, I wanted him to be alive*

*To confirm that what I saw was not a fantasy.

It’s not just a love, such a deep and beautiful love, it really happened to me.

When I went downstairs, I met Chen Feiyang who had come back from drinking. He didn’t drink too much. He pulled me and asked my wife where she was going. I was crying so hard that I was dizzy. I said something about buying something, so he didn’t let him see clearly that I was crying.

face, and then ran out.

Chen Feiyang didn't stop me, and staggered upstairs. This encounter with Chen Feiyang made me calm down a little bit. I went to find him, to find Wang Zhaoyang, how should I go to find him, and in what capacity?

, I am already someone else’s wife.

Thinking of this, I cried even harder. I was still walking on the road, aiming towards the school. The road was still very long, and there were still many steps for me to think about.

In a marriage, it is difficult to admit that you love someone else. But if you give me a choice, if I still have the chance to choose, I will choose Wang Zhaoyang without hesitation.

No matter if he had betrayed the marriage or not, or if he made me a mistress in the first place. I hate myself for being irrational, my decision to leave, which led to this miss, and my lack of courage to redeem myself.

Because I know that Chen Feiyang also loves me very much and he has done nothing wrong.

Walking and walking, I walked to the school gate, tears streaming down my face. Standing at the gate, the school had turned off the lights, and the light in the communication room was dim.

Standing opposite the school gate, I remembered that it was here that day when Wang Zhaoyang got into Fang Keru's car. When they faced each other, there was still a hint of intimacy.

Is that something I can compare to? How many years have they known each other and three years of married life? Is that relationship something I can compare to? Should I stop disturbing him? Should I hide so quietly?

He and Fang Keru can return to their original appearance. This is the best choice for Wang Zhaoyang. Choosing Fang Keru is equivalent to getting back what he has worked hard for many years without the pressure and baggage of life. He does not have to worry about it anymore.

It's only 30,000 yuan to borrow money from.

And what can I bring to him?

I stood there for two minutes, looking at the dark dormitory building in the distance, wiping my tears, then turned around and left. I still wanted to go home.

Chen Feiyang was waiting for me. He was sitting on the sofa in a daze. He glanced at my hands and saw that I came back empty-handed. "Honey, what did you buy that took you so long?"

I changed my shoes and ignored him, wanting to wash my face first.

Chen Feiyang followed, and I said perfunctorily, "I didn't buy it. It's closed. It's something the school needs."

When he saw my face, he panicked, "Are you crying? Why are you crying? Tell me who bullied you!" As he said that, he looked towards the door. He might have thought that I had just gone out and met a gangster.

I grabbed him and said, "It's nothing. I read a post and it made me feel uncomfortable."

Chen Feiyang touched my eyes and said, "Silly, those are all fake."

I looked up at his eyes. The whites of Chen Feiyang's eyes were very white and the eyeballs were very dark, so his eyes were very shining and bright, always shining with a clear and sincere light. But these eyes were not those of Wang Zhaoyang, but these eyes

, but these are the eyes I should look into.

And he is not Wang Zhaoyang.

My nose was sore, and the tears I thought I had dried up continued to fall. Chen Feiyang hugged me, "Okay, my wife, I'm here, I'm holding you. Xiao Chang, Xiao Chang..."

I could only cry more violently in his arms, but Chen Feiyang said that my tears can only be shed for him. I'm sorry, I can't do it.

I'm just sad that the one who stays with me in the end is not the one I loved most at the beginning.

Thinking of something, Chen Feiyang conjured up a box and said, "Dang dang dang." He showed it to me.

As I opened a box, I cried and asked, "What is this?"

"I won the prize." Chen Feiyang took out the bracelet from the box. It was made of three rows of pearls wound into a ring, with a dense row of small beads in the middle tied into a knot. I didn't understand the material of the pearls, but it looked very beautiful.

Chen Feiyang took my little hand and put the bracelet on my wrist. I looked at the bracelet and said, "You have been cheated again."

Most of us have experienced this so-called lottery winning. Just like the last time Chen Feiyang insisted on buying me a mobile phone, he said that if you win a few prizes and add as much money as you want, you can buy something worth that much money.

, they are all just promotional means.

Chen Feiyang turned my wrist over and looked at it. There was a scar on the back of my wrist. I fell over the wall. Over the years, people have always asked me if I had cut my wrist. Is it okay if no one cuts my wrist?

Chen Feiyang said, "Just block it so you can't see it."

I looked at it and found that it really fits, and the bracelet is quite beautiful. Regardless of whether the material is good or not, I really like the look. The pearls are transparent and white, and when put on the wrist, it gives off a very delicate feeling.

Receiving gifts always makes women feel happy, and I feel less heavy.

Chen Feiyang took me into his arms. His arms were very broad, but the muscles were hard and not soft enough. But leaning into his arms, I could still feel the power from the body, a living force belonging to men, a particularly intuitive kind of security.

feel.

Chen Feiyang said, "I didn't buy you a diamond ring when we got married."

I shook my head, "I don't like that either, I can't wear it anyway."

"Don't worry, I will let you have whatever other women have. Don't you like to be clean? I will buy you a big house in the future." He made a big circle with his arm, "and then I will let you have it every day."

Cleaning at home.”

I smiled weakly and rested my head on his shoulder, hoping that one day we would get better, and by then, it would be best for me to have forgotten Wang Zhaoyang.

I fell asleep in a very tired mood. This was the last time that I really wanted to enjoy Chen Feiyang's embrace.

At dawn, those dazed emotions still need to be abandoned. Looking at the man making breakfast for me, I still feel that I should cherish my blessings. I can't hurt two people.

I smiled at Chen Feiyang, kissed his face, and told him, "Honey, I'm going to school."

He nodded, changed his shoes and accompanied me downstairs. If he was free, he would personally take me to school and then go back to the boxing gym. He wanted to get his motorcycle and went downstairs faster. I followed slowly behind.

Let's go. I don't know if it was because I was sad yesterday and consumed too much energy, or something else. I held my hand on the wall and my eyes suddenly went dark for a moment.

I had no energy, no energy anywhere in my body, and felt weak. I sat on the motorcycle and hugged him and fell asleep for a while. When I got to school and opened the door of the dance studio, I still felt uncomfortable.

Today, the students are not at school for the holidays. I came here to rehearse the dance, the duet competition with Shao Siwei, and I will leave for the finals next week.

Shao Siwei came over from the suburbs and needed some time. I lay down on the chair and slept for a while, and began to wonder if there was really something wrong with my body.

Suddenly I opened my eyes, and I remembered something. It seemed that I was due to menstruate. Last month, it happened in these two days. But my cycle is relatively short, usually 25 or 6 days, so it will be early every month.

A few days, then today is the day that should come under normal circumstances.

I went to the toilet and wiped it hard with paper. There was nothing there, so I started to be dumbfounded.

I was so flustered that I racked my brains to think of any time in the past month when Chen Feiyang and I didn't take measures, but my head was unclear and I couldn't think of anything.

If I rub it, I won’t be pregnant, right? No!

This horrifying news frightened me to the core. I counted with my fingers over and over again. The more I calculated, the more confused I became. No, I must have remembered it wrong. How could I do it at this time? I didn’t want to

Ah, I have a few days until the competition.

I sat in a chair and meditated, thinking of the message from Wang Zhaoyang I saw yesterday. I turned back and looked at the dormitory area, and thought again of everything that made me sad.

The bracelet on my wrist is flowing with pearls. God, are you kidding me? Are you forcing me to make a painful decision again? I already have Chen Feiyang's child. Can I not have that little hesitation anymore?

With a heavy face, he waited for Shao Siwei's arrival.

I didn't show much of what I was worried about and quickly threw myself into the dance rehearsal. During the lunch break, Shao Siwei said, "Why are you so serious today? You feel like a different person."

I looked at him and blinked, "Shao Shao, if someone tells you that you can't dance after today, what will happen to you today?"

Shao Siwei thought briefly and then replied, "Keep dancing, keep dancing, dance all the dances you want."

I nodded, yes, that's how I feel. If I get pregnant, I won't be able to dance anymore after this competition. I have to raise a baby, so I cherish the time I can still spin now.

Just as he was about to put a handful of medicine into his mouth, Shao Siwei said it could remove freckles. Shao Siwei said, "Take these medicines sparingly, as they contain hormones."

I was stunned for a moment, yes, you can’t just take medicine randomly when you’re pregnant.
Chapter completed!