No one has the patience and is so persistent and indifferent when facing another person’s rejection. There is really such a person, which can only be described as being mean to be a shame.

There must be times when there are emotions.

Wang Zhaoyang nodded, sighed lowly, and left me all his clothes and umbrellas.

I sat here with my forehead on my back, not knowing what else I could do next. My dance partner was gone, the competition was gone, and the training was meaningless. I was very bored. No matter how hard I did anything, no matter what happened, no matter what happened, no matter what happened.

God, can't you be kind to me?

After being upset for a long time, Shao Siwei called me, "I heard you are in a bad mood? I'm going to joke with you."

"Where did I hear it?" I asked.

Shao Siwei took a breath, "Yeah..."

"Okay, don't say anything, I know who it is." The only one who knows that I'm unhappy now is Wang Zhaoyang. He will find a way to find his own comfort and I will not be able to help me. So I asked Shao Siwei and Shao Siwei to speak, and I could really listen.

Since Shao Siwei has arrived at the door, I will not let it go.

"I'm thirsty, bring me two packs of beer." I told me. It's great to have a friend in life who will come and go.

Shao Siwei is here for a long time.

We sat cross-legged on the ground, filling beer with a few small buns of side dishes, and the fan turned squeakingly.

While drinking, I said, "Shao Shao, have you noticed that I have changed?"

"What?"

"I feel very selfish and boring," I said.

"What?"

After thinking about it, I said, "Call you by Wang Zhaoyang. Did I have an illusion, or did he really care about me?"

Shao Siwei was very sure, "He really cared about you."

"But I'm very bad to him. Whenever he cares about me, I'm very fierce. Do you think this is not good? Why do people put their hot faces on my cold butt?"

"Then why are you mad at him?"

I didn't even think about it, "Because I'm already married."

Shao Siwei slapped his chin, "It's this. He treats you well, you feel scared, you're just guilty."

Even Shao Siwei said that I was guilty, and Wang Zhaoyang said last time that I was guilty. Well, I admitted it, I was indeed guilty. I said, "I don't know what I think of him in my heart. When I broke up, I thought I would never see him falling down again in my life, and I would forget it sooner or later. It was really possible at that time because I thought he was quite bad, but now when he cares about me, I..." Shaking my head, "I don't want to do this."

Shao Siwei took a sip, thought something, and asked me curiously, "Actually, I have always wanted to ask you, why are you married to this person now? Is it because of Wang Zhaoyang? Angry?"

I shook my head, "How can I be angry? Can I make fun of myself for the rest of my life? I am angry, but I can't bet on getting married. Do you know what I bet on the most?"

Shao Siwei shook his head.

I said, "What I can't stand the most is the man lying beside me. I may be lying beside other women tomorrow, just sharing. I don't want to share anything with others. I think being a mistress is the most unreliable behavior. Of course, I'm not talking about you. You see, the ratio of men and women is unbalanced now. So many men cannot find a partner. Women don't have to worry about not having a man, so why do you want to be a mistress?"

Shao Siwei said, "You mainly did things too well and didn't give him a chance to explain."

I sighed, "How to explain? Didn't I still sleep with other people's men? I don't want to ask, and I don't want to compare myself with the other woman, so I feel shameless. So I ran away, just to be so comfortable. I didn't want to think about it before, but something happened recently, which made me think about it. Actually, I just don't love him. I love him so much. I didn't think about it at all, and I really didn't think about it at all."

Speaking of this, it’s a bit sad, drink the bar.

Shao Siwei said, "It's not that you don't love. You are just bound by something else. Just like now, you think you're married, so you can't think about it anymore."

"Maybe," I said, "I was moved when I married Feiyang. Shao Shao, you don't know. Feiyang and I took Wu Yuqing back to my hometown. I felt very uncomfortable when I watched her crying on her brother's grave. You don't know the feeling of being homeless, and your whole heart was floating. At that time, Chen Feiyang bought a house, and his trick really saved me. In the future, no matter whether it was windy or rainy, you would have a place to live. What did you bear outside and have a home to go back. I can't stand it, I really can't stand it, I was so moved. Then his mother urged me to give me an accurate word, and I thought, it would be fine if I continued like this."

"But you are starting to hesitate now." Shao Siwei asked.

I shook my head, "I never thought of changing. Feiyang is good, it's really good. If he doesn't show up... I don't know if it has anything to do with Wang Zhaoyang's appearance. That day someone asked me, are you satisfied with your current life? I didn't think about it before, and he started thinking about it after asking. I always feel that it seems that something is really missing." Looking at Shao Siwei, I asked seriously, "Am I too greedy?"

Shao Siwei didn't answer and asked me what I felt was missing.

I said, "I'm not excited. When I looked at Chen Feiyang, I was not excited at all. I think I might not love him. Let me tell you the truth. I think love is not that important to me now. When life cannot be guaranteed, I will talk about love and love. Besides, I don't want to hurt him."

Shao Siwei said a very philosophical saying, "It's not a smile from the bottom of my heart. You will be tired if you stretch it for a long time."

"Put it, it's a day to stretch it out." I said.

Shao Siwei commented, "Irresponsible."

I continued to drink, maybe it was a bit irresponsible, but since the beginning, I was not responsible enough for Chen Feiyang, but things have come to this point. Even if I have to go back and go, I might still choose that without experiencing the current state of mind.

Just like Wang Zhaoyang said, I haven't entered a marriage, so I don't understand it. I thought it too simple at the beginning. Although so far, there have not been many things that have made me feel unsatisfied, I finally felt a little bit of unhappy.

After taking another sip of wine, my head began to feel a little dizzy. I said, "He is divorced, Wang Zhaoyang."

Shao Siwei, "I know."

I said, "I don't know how to face him, so I dare not think about it." My eyes were red, "Actually, I feel sorry for him. I think he must be very distressed, more painful than me, but I can't do it. Now that I am like this, I have to live up to one, if I really want to choose, I can't choose it."

Shao Siwei handed me a tissue to wipe my tears, and he asked, "Who do you think loves you more?"

I shook my head.

He asked again, "Who do you think needs you more?"

I still don’t know, I just said, “I think I have no virtue or ability. Actually, I have never been a very good person. I have been very selfish since I was a child. Whatever I do is always to consider myself first. I think it is beneficial to me, so I just choose that. When I like Wang Zhaoyang, I chased him, really for him, and I think it’s for myself and for my own comfort. So I think I’m not worthy, and I can’t deserve him at all.”

He chuckled, "Are you stupid? Is there any right in your relationship? It's enough for others to be willing."

I smiled bitterly, "Don't say that, I will feel more uncomfortable if you say that, but I have already Feiyang, I have already Feiyang."

Sighing, Shao Siwei looked at me seriously, "Actually, I think you are just not brave anymore. If you go back to our school, you would kick Chen Feiyang and follow him if you were desperate, but you dare not."

"Why?" I asked.

Shao Siwei, "I don't know. Life is so hard that people are getting less and less courageous. I can't afford to bet, hurt, and live up to my life. I want to be perfect, I want to bet and do everything. I think too much and I want to balance too much. The more I think about it, the more I feel that nothing is boring, and then I don't want to do anything."

I smiled, "Shao Shao, you are not married, you know life quite well."

Shao Siwei took a sip of wine, "What are you? What are you doing? My buddy has experienced so much that you are heartbroken. Alas, I can't kill you anyway, so I'll just slap it."

We both had a hard time, and we were all left to drink to each other.

It’s very enjoyable to drink with your best friend. As you drink, you won’t feel that burden is too much. Can you immediately crush someone if you can’t suppress him? If you can’t suppress him, enjoy it for a moment.

I told Shao Siwei that I still don’t want to give up the duo dance competition. I used to be lazy when I was in school and thought that competitions were all the business of others, so I was never keen on participating. But now I feel that I have found passion in dancing, and I began to understand what dancing is.

And I said straightforwardly that I have to pay back the money, "I can't owe him. If Feiyang knew, Feiyang wouldn't allow me to owe him, but Feiyang is still small and straightforward. I don't want him to know about it and think about it."

Shao Siwei joked, "If you don't dislike me, will I accompany you?"

"Haha, are you gay honey love?" I laughed at him.

"Damn, if you don't tell me, who can tell that I am gay? Leslie Cheung can still play a pure man, why can't I do it?"

"I'm all the bonus?"

Shao Siwei thought about it for a moment, "Okay, who makes you pitiful?"

After Shao Siwei said this, I was still excited and insisted on standing up and playing with Shao Siwei. So we kicked the empty wine bottle and the two of us gestured in the dance studio.

There are always some lingering contacts for the dance.

Dance is a play that requires selflessness. It is good if a person only needs to live in the play. From any perspective, the play is purer than real real life.
Chapter completed!