126 Gathering and Parting Impermanence
As the saying goes, it is said that when I meet, I have always had a little grudge against Xue Jiazheng, but I still treat him as a friend. Now he is leaving, and I don’t know when he plans to come back, and I will still be reluctant to leave. Even though he always stays in W City and never leaves, I will not be idle and want to see him.
Farewell is an atmosphere that makes people feel moved.
When I went abroad, I ran a long way around the country in my motherland, but I never thought about going abroad. I felt that it was too far away, a psychological distant, and I was reluctant to stay away from my hometown. I think there are still many people who feel the same as me, so the Xue family hesitantly decided to go abroad two years after graduation. I always feel that there are other small reasons for going abroad.
For example, he finally decided to let go of Lan Tian completely and start a new life completely. For example, he became tired of this place.
From Lan Tian to Li Hua to Yan Xiaochang and Shao Siwei, Xue Jiazheng said goodbye one by one, but in the end he found me. To be honest, I really don’t know that there are other yarns between me and Xue Jiazheng. In the past, he has embarrassed me a lot on the issue of Lan Tian.
The Xue family and I were sitting in a corner, and the others were lying or sitting, not talking to each other, thinking about their own little things. The Xue family said to me: "Cong You, seeing you reminds me of a poem."
"What poem?" I glared slightly. Xue Jiazheng is not a poet, nor am I a woman who is as poetic as a woman.
Then he recited, in a helpless tone, "The grass on the Lili Plain withered and flourished every year, and the wildfire cannot be burned out, and the spring breeze will grow again."
"Puff." I laughed.
I knew he had no good poems. I said, "You call me a grassroots."
Xue Jiazheng said, "Grassroots are grassroots, and that's not to scold you. Grassroots have the benefits of grassroots, such as not being able to kill them."
I said, "The one who can't kill it is Xiaoqiang."
Xue Jiazheng took a deep breath and sighed again. He said, "You said, you have run away so much, why are you back again? Ah?"
He frowned slightly at me and asked seriously. I was a little cautious in my heart, worried that Xue Jiazheng would still be the same as before, and would warn me to stay away from Li Hua and give his beloved Blue Sister and Li Hua a chance to develop. But I have long been enlightened that Li Hua and Lan Tian want to develop, and that cliff is their affairs, so don't pull it on me.
Xue Jiazheng saw through my little thoughts and said, "Oh, I'm nervous, don't worry," and he patted my shoulder with his palm, "I used to have some objections to you."
I nodded, "Haha... Actually, I have it for you too."
"What about now?" he asked.
I thought about it, "It's okay now, it feels like it's over."
Xue Jiazheng shook his head, looked at Lan Tian and Li Hua respectively, and said, "Do you think it can really pass? Everyone has no brain problems. If you don't remember, someone will help you remember."
I originally thought he was referring to feelings, but at this time, the Xue family looked at Lan Tian again. Lan Tian was no longer crying, just holding her knees, looking at the sea far and far away, in a daze.
I think I understand. The Xue family mainly refers to the fact that Lan Tian was raped twice.
I said, "Don't worry, no one will mention it to her again."
Xue Jiazheng said, "If it were you, what would you think?"
"I don't know," paused, "maybe... I think I'm dirty."
Xue Jiazheng sighed again. I remember that he is not a person who likes to sigh very much. He is a very quick person in his work. When he encounters problems, he thinks of ways and implements them, whether right or wrong. In the past, although I was disgusted with Xue Jiazheng's attitude towards me, he did not deny his quality of being a human being.
Xue Jiazheng said: "I won't say that there are so many, you understand. Help me take good care of her. From then on, she has never had many friends, and she only knows this group of people, especially you."
Among us, Shao Siwei and Lan Tian are not familiar with each other. Since Lan Tian threw the Xue Jiazheng once, Yan Xiaochang has objected to Lan Tian again. Li Hua and Lan Tian have a slightly awkward relationship. Xue Jiazheng is leaving again. Perhaps only I can really accompany Lan Tian.
Of course, as a former best friend, although I am a little distant because of distance and time, I have no choice but to take care of her mood.
"There's another thing," the Xue family turned to face me, and I looked at him, "Are you and Huazi...?"
"Ah what?"
Xue Jiazheng raised his eyebrows, "The thighs are all lying on..."
"Ah..." I smiled concealedly and said, "Isn't he drunk too much? He is delicate. He says he has a headache and is afraid of insects in the grass..."
Xue Jiazheng smiled and said seriously: "Oh, it's not a matter of whether you are good or not. It's not like this day or two. You've been here for so long. Huazi is a man who doesn't like to talk, and you're all pretending to be in your heart. If you encounter something again in the future, if you can do it, think about it more for him. If you can't figure it out, just ask him directly. Don't pretend to be in your heart, um..." He sighed again, "It's fine if it can be done, Tiantian should give up."
She probably only knows whether Lan Tian gave up on Li Hua. I can only see that the Xue family is facing Lan Tian, and that is one hundred people who haven’t given up yet. Now that they are leaving, they don’t want to be too sad, I joked with Xue Jiazheng and said, “Are you advising me to get along with Huazi? Or do you want me to kill a rival in love for you?”
He also smiled with his lips pursed, smiling quite kindly, "All of them are there."
On the road of youth, from the past to the future, we sent away one after another, and returned to one after another, and we were also in it over and over again. From campus to society, everyone became more and more different, but as long as you have a heart, some friends and some feelings are enough to last for a long time.
Maybe you will think of it, but you don’t contact it. Then, under the prelude of time and the erosion of fate, some traces become fainter and weaker, so faint that you don’t remember when you forgot it. Perhaps this is the most perfect posture of feelings, starting and ending well.
When the Xue family was leaving, we said goodbye to this lawn. The sea park a hundred meters away was shallow and the waves were slamming the shore. He walked alone across the intersection, stood opposite us alone, waved to stop a taxi, and the car left with dust.
Before leaving, the last thing he said to us was, "I'm not allowed to go to the airport to see me off tomorrow."
Lan Tian was crying, even Yan Xiaochang was crying. I smiled at the Xue family. I think we have completely resolved our past grudges.
After that, a few of us lay on the lawn for a while. This kind of literary and artistic thing, many people didn't have the chance to do it again after leaving the campus.
Then Yan Xiaochang went home, Shao Siwei returned to school, and Li Hua and Lan Tian were left. I kept holding my arms with Lan Tian, and Li Hua asked me: "It's so late, can't you go back?"
Well, there is no car back to the county town at this time. Li Hua has drunk and can't let him drive me back. I nodded and he asked again: "Where are you going tonight?"
"Find a place to live casually." I answered calmly and casually.
Lan Tian had already gone to the roadside to recruit a taxi. Li Hua said muffledly, attracting my attention, and then said with a wicked smile, "Do you need me... um?"
"whispering sound."
I turned around and walked away because I had already agreed to Lan Tian to squeeze into her place tonight. I am not in a hurry to do what I have to do with Li Hua.
Maybe because of my precipitation and growing up, I think I have begun to feel more secure. This sense of security can make me more patient and not rush to change anything, because I gradually began to truly believe that it is my own, there will always be something that is not my own. If you run over to queue up in the early morning, you may not be able to do anything to cheating scalpers.
Later, Li Hua said to me, "Cong You, don't expect me to chase you again." I felt that my current approach of ignoring him is very right. I don't plan to get along with him in a confused manner and break up in a confused manner, so I have to be more cautious this time.
I slept with Lan Tian at the place where she lives. The Xue family is leaving, is she feeling the feeling of some waves? Before going to bed, Lan Tian discussed with me and asked me if I could change jobs or something, and then moved to W City so that everyone could get together frequently.
Now, I am gradually becoming more and more inclined to this idea.
In fact, my life is very boring in the county town, mainly because I have no friends who can play with them. Every day, I work and run back and forth between my two homes.
What makes me most troubled is when our company's salary will be delayed, and how to avoid Shen Song as much as possible.
It is actually a good idea to come to W City.
A few days after returning to the county town, something particularly big happened. This incident almost overturned my view of my stepmother for the past twenty years. I think I am too underestimated and too tiny.
My stepmother gave me 200,000.
She said: "This money was given to you by your father. Look at your job, you can't make money. Two hundred thousand is not enough, it's enough for you to do some small business by yourself. The last time the shop was very good, and I also asked your father's friend specifically, and there was a brand on the first floor, shoes and bags on the second floor, and clothing on the third floor. You can see what you can do, so don't mess around."
Holding the bank card in my hand, I felt like a short joke. After my stepmother left, I pulled my brother to the room and asked nervously: "Cong Liang, tell me this is not a dream? Your mother is fine? Isn't she confused?"
Chapter completed!