I finally understand that when Lan Tian dumped Xue Jiazheng, she obviously had to cry for a long time when she dumped her so firmly, and I didn't dump her firmly. In this world, most of the things that are easiest to make us cry bitterly cannot escape two things, grievances and losses.

We hope that the beauty and things we have will remain unchanged forever. We hope that one day we will open our eyes and the troubles in front of us will be dreams. We are still living in the best time in our lives, and love is still living when I love him the most and he loves me the most.

But now we are not happy together, and it seems that neither of us can get what we want from each other. I don’t know what those things are, nor do I know what the relationship has experienced from each other, from mutual satisfaction to nothing to say. But this state is not good, except for breaking up, I can’t think of a way to change for the time being.

Shortly after Li Hua left, I began to regret it because of my nostalgia for him and his former beauty. But I also know that even if I took back what I said, the cracks between us still existed so much, so I wanted to try it out, and try what I was like when Li Hua was really not in life.

If it is really better than now, or if he will be happier than now, I will be willing to do so.

So after I cried enough, I never felt too sad. I thought that before I broke up, he was not by my side, and I lived alone, probably no different from now. On the contrary, from some aspects, I lacked some burden.

I was in W City and stayed in this room for two days. Li Hua did not come back. I only received a text message from Shao Siwei. He said: "Huazi really cares about you. Youyou, think it through carefully. I think you are not yet able to break up."

I cried and replied, "Well, I know."

Actually, I don’t know anything. I only know that I feel very tired when I continue to be with Li Hua like that. I know that I haven’t played enough, I haven’t tried enough, I haven’t tear open the veil of glitz and see what it is.

After leaving City W, I went back to the brokerage company to receive criticism and education from the broker. The broker was quite tolerant of me because I beat him to death and refused to admit that I didn’t go to the meal because I was worried about the unspoken rules. There are some things that the brokerage company will not protect you, and my plan is to deal with the moves.

This matter was temporarily fooled. I waited for a long time before waiting for a new job. I didn't take the initiative to find Li Baitian. I admit that I like him more or less, and this kind of love became nothing under the psychological influence of losing Li Hua.

I tried hard to keep myself busy and didn't think about my relationship for the time being. During the Chinese Valentine's Day, I met a child selling flowers on the overpass. When I remembered the roses on Women's Day that year, I was dizzy and couldn't figure out how long it had passed.

If you make a few more soy sauce, your career will still be moving forward steadily. In fact, I am already satisfied. I never hope to reach the top in one step. I just want to gain a foothold in this circle with my own efforts. Even if I always play supporting roles, it doesn’t matter. It’s enough to support myself and save some extra money, and face the future needs.

That day, Li Hua suddenly called me, and after the breakup, we had never changed our numbers.

He said: "I saw you on TV today."

A few days ago, I was just arranged to participate in an entertainment program, small platform, and inconspicuous little guests.

"Beautiful again," he said.

I smiled, "The company arranged it to make a nose some time ago."

He said, "Yeah, I see it."

Regarding micro plastic surgery, it is a very normal thing in the circle. Domestic hospitals are not expensive, and many girls' faces often change.

"How are you?" I asked.

He: "It's okay."

I asked in a troublesome way, "Have you found a girlfriend?"

He thought for a while and said, "I met a girl recently, and it's pretty good."

I felt a little sad and said as if nothing had happened, "Then let's develop well. In another two years, it's time to consider getting married."

He chuckled, "I still feel that something is not enough, let's talk about it."

"Um."

"And you?"

"Everything is good, everything is good." I said.

Li Hua was silent for a moment, "That won't disturb you anymore, you're busy."

"goodbye."

I don’t know what Li Hua wanted to say when he called me. Maybe he just missed him a little. I would occasionally miss him, but most of it was just thinking about it. I was very lazy, and many of my states were always tired of changing, and I like to leave it to fate.

This is very bad.

Li Hua said that he met a new girl, which is actually a normal thing. He is good-looking, has a good person, and has good family background and conditions. He said that he had no girls to date, and I felt that he was lying.

Sometimes I am curious about what kind of women who marry Li Hua in the future are beautiful or mediocre, quiet or lively, smart or dull?

But no matter what, I believe that the woman must treat Li Hua gently, and Li Hua is also worthy of being treated gentlely.

I looked at my nose in the mirror. This kind of micro plastic surgery is just an injection on the face and reshape the shape of the nose bridge. It lasts only one to two years. I seem to be unable to remember how I used to be, and maybe I haven't changed much.

But now there are noses like me on the streets. The company originally asked me to make a pointed chin, but I refused because Li Baitian said that it felt too dusty and might not look better than now.

I smiled at the mirror and found that the curve of my smile gradually became a bit like him. After half a year of breaking up with Li Hua, I developed the good habit of eating one fruit every day and not eating chili peppers.

He said that eating more fruits will make the babies born in the future be white and tender. He said that eating too much pepper will definitely lead to endocrine disorders.

It is always time to truly feel lost that we will silently remember the care we used to, and then remember it repeatedly, and never forget it for a long time. Then we will remember that we were also very good and very good, and we don’t remember what the unpleasantness before the breakup was caused by.

But things that are stranded are always difficult to pick up again, just like writing an article, when you go to have a meal or go to the toilet, and your thinking is broken, it will be difficult to keep them together again.

I once again received a slightly weighty role, and the director still showed extraordinary satisfaction with me. Then, two days after the audition, he called me out for dinner. He hinted intentionally or unintentionally that the two of us would eat this meal.

Well, I still called Li Baitian. With the experience of the last time, I didn't dare to do what I immediately refused, so I asked Li Baitian to help me find out how the director was. Soon, Li Baitian called back and said that the director's character was so bad that almost none of the actresses he worked with were spared. I will do what it was like myself.

I took Yan Xiaochang to the appointment with me, thinking that I could be safe by pulling a shield. When I left after dinner, the director sent me a room card and said, "You can do it yourself, or bring your friends with me."

I was so disgusted that I couldn't do it, so I finally handed over the room card to the hotel front desk and sent a message to the director. The schedule was not up to date and I couldn't act this drama, which caused trouble for him.

This director has a bad character, but he is very capable. After that, I went to many crews and never succeeded in the audition. Even the roles I had originally set were replaced.

As the end of the year approaches, Yan Xiaochang returned to his hometown for the New Year. I stayed alone in Beijing, without a job or friends. In my hometown, W City, I can hear the sound of firecrackers almost every day as the New Year approaches. However, the quietness of Beijing makes people calm and lonely.

At night, I sat in the cabin holding my cell phone and waiting for the audition results, but there was no news. I was in a bad mood and couldn't help calling Li Hua.

His voice sounded a little strange, and he said, "What's wrong?"

I said softly, "I suddenly remembered you and call you."

He asked, "Don't work go well?"

"No, it's pretty good."

"Well, come on."

After hanging up the phone, I buried my face in my knees and silent for a while, feeling that the world was dark and I was powerless to change anything.

When I asked about the last time I asked about the audition results, a person in charge said to me, "To be honest, no one can use you in any group you are in now. Let's change the path while you are young."

On the streets where people were crowded, I felt for the first time that this place did not have a corner suitable for my survival. After running around this circle, I was almost out of ammunition and food, no more work, and no more lovers I could rely on, nothing.

Some people say that since this is the case, why don’t you go back to Li Hua? Haha, the more I, Cong You, have such a personality, the less likely it is to go back. Even if he comes to ask me, I may not go back.

I have to be strong for half my life, and I deserve to suffer for half my life.

The agency said that unless I have a way to become popular overnight, no one can help me. I said that I can terminate the contract. They said no, the company did not do anything that violated the terms of the contract. This means that I cannot do anything that openly relies on my face to make a living.

I was depressed for a while, and Li Baitian called me and asked me why I didn’t move recently.

Generally speaking, whenever I encounter some good things, I will habitually share them with Li Baitian. He always says that I am poor and that I have never seen the world and do not know that there are many such good things in the future.

I told Li Baitian, "Is there any way to become popular overnight?"
Chapter completed!