I started arguing with Li Hua and asked him if he was guilty. Who knew how he and Wen Juan got along without me. Li Hua said it was unnecessary for me to make trouble.

Originally, I was a person who was very likely to think about it. Recently, I was very unstable and had rashes on my body. Taking medicine, this is the rhythm of endocrine disorders.

I just wanted to vent my quarrel, maybe because, except when Li Hua was there, there was really no one to talk to me, and I was so nervous. But Li Hua didn't argue with me, so I said he was annoyed, so he ran outside to smoke.

When we were not doing well, we often blew our beards and stared at each other, but we never really made a big fuss. I still understand Li Hua in my heart and am willing to endure him in many things.

When he went out, I sat on the bed to reflect on it, thinking that the quarrel was particularly boring, because others quarrel, it was even more boring. But I am a person who wants to save face. After the argument, I don’t want to go out and admit my mistakes. I feel so tired and sleepy, so I get into the quilt to sleep.

When he slept until his head was dizzy, Li Hua also lay on the bed, but still reached out to hug me. He found that my feet were cold, so he clamped my feet with his legs and said nothing.

But in fact, when I woke up, Li Hua's hug still gave me a sense of security. I turned around and hugged him tightly, without saying a word.

Li Hua touched my hair.

But why is my heart so panicked? It is beating randomly and I can't control it at all. I can't even feel panicked when I sleep. Although I'm very sleepy recently, I can't sleep well at all.

Li Hua thought I might be taking medicine, and he said, "Do you really have an endocrine disorder? Don't take medicine for two days?"

I did stop for two days without taking medicine, but it didn't work. Instead, my body was still itchy. If I slept soundly, it would be fine. If I didn't sleep soundly, I would always scratch itch, and there were more and more places on my body with broken skin. Even if I scratched my skin, it would still itch. So, I scratched my wound again and became ragged.

I disliked these wounds very much. When Li Hua applied the medicine, I said aggrievedly: "Do you think I'm too pretentious?"

He glanced at me and comforted me, "It's not your fault."

But I blame myself very much, I dislike myself very much, and I was very worried. I said, "Will there be scars? Look, there is not a scar on my body..."

I am quite satisfied with this body that looks like a white jade. Everyone suffered minor injuries when I was a child, but I am not scarred and I have no scars on my body when I grow up.

I think it's really not a solution for me to scratch this way, but there is no new way except scratching and taking medicine. I want to tie my hands up and sleep.

Li Hua looked at the places where the potion was rubbed with heartache, smashed his mouth, and hesitated, "Otherwise, you go back first."

"Where do you go back?" I looked up at him.

Li Hua didn't explain. He meant to let me go home. Obviously, I just couldn't adapt to the living environment here. Perhaps after returning to City W, these things slowly disappeared.

But I don’t want to go back. I’ve been here for almost a month. The project on Li Hua’s side will be over in another month. I’ve been halfway through this day, and at worst I can just support my partner like this. I don’t want to leave him, and I don’t want anything bad to happen when I can’t see it.

I said, "I don't."

Who wants to separate? Li Hua doesn't want to separate, but he feels sorry for letting me accompany him here to work hard, so he gently patted my shoulder and said, "I'll finish the explanation as soon as possible and try to leave early."

I nodded in his arms.

He said again, "Honey, am I really too pretentious? I'm so annoyed by myself."

He said: "I am not afraid of being pretentious. My woman should be pretentious. I should not be pretentious when giving birth to a child in the future."

I just laughed.

I am not afraid of scars on my body, and I think Li Hua can't dislike those spots. But what I am afraid of is that scars will affect my work. It is normal for actors to expose their arms and legs in public. I don't want anyone to complain about my scars in the future.

I asked him again, "Do you really don't want me to be an actor?"

Li Hua thought about it carefully and said, "Actually it's nothing, I'm just afraid that you will encounter trouble." But Li Hua also understands the principle that you can't give up on your food because of choking.

He told me, "How long has it been since I danced? Once, when I saw a student doing exercises outside the school, I felt my arms and legs itchy." After a smile, he continued, "Even if I asked me to go back to dance now, I would be scared. I know you like acting and you know that it is your dream. In fact, if it weren't for my boyfriend, I would definitely support you very much."

I blinked my big eyes and looked at him. Li Hua bent his fingers and shaved my face, and said with a smile: "I support you now. I don't want to think about your little thoughts. I feel sad when you watch TV any day."

When Li Hua saw children doing fucking, he felt sad, so if I stopped acting, I would feel uncomfortable when I saw other people’s acting in the future.

When dreams and love are ashamed to speak of, it is the sorrow of all of us.

I was moved and said with tears in my eyes, "Thank you, husband."

Since I got here, I have been trying to create a feeling of intimacy after being shameless. Li Hua has no objection to my name, and he also calls me "my wife" outside. In fact, we young couples seem very happy to be in the eyes of outsiders.

Then I asked Li Hua why he didn't go dancing.

He still laughed and said, "You can't dance for the rest of your life. You can act, you can't play a little girl anymore, you can still play an old woman."

I stuck out my tongue and said I want to live forever.

I don’t want to grow old, I want to always perform the longest love with the one I love in my most beautiful youth.

Since Li Hua expressed his support for me to act, I feel much more relieved. The more he supports me, the more I am determined to protect myself and abide by the principles. I really don’t care whether I’m famous or not, but everyone habitually chooses to do what they are happy about.

I am happy to fall in love with Li Hua, and acting can make me happy. I like to do this. If I lose it, my sense of happiness will be reduced.

Some people never find their dreams in their lives, and some people have had dreams but have no chance to persevere. Perhaps many people don’t understand that in the face of the opportunity of dreams, the mentality of not being able to bear to miss or not giving up easily.

But there are principles to realize dreams. I firmly believe that I will not destroy principles for dreams. I love Li Hua's principles.

Maybe if it weren't for my love for him, I wouldn't be more principled than now. Loving someone has a lot of things that are not so easy to see.

But my pretentious body could not stand the trouble here. In the middle of the night, I had a fever. Li Hua got up and burned water for me, slapping the itchy parts of my body with a book, and shook it again.

He said, "I beg you, you can go back first. It's only one month. I will definitely explain to you in one month. Then we will never come to these broken places again."

I was burned in a daze, and I closed my eyes and shook my head.

I think I can get through it by just sturdy, but Wenjuan had explained before that if you have a fever, you must not delay it. You must go to the hospital. This place is remote and the medical conditions in small places are not good. If you really have any major problems, it will be too late to send it to the hospital.

The next day when Li Hua called Wenjuan to give me an injection, Wenjuan still said the same thing.

I went to the hospital for two days. I haven't slept with such dry sheets and bedding for a long time. Of course, I can't feel the damp sleeping habits.

After hanging up for two days, the rash on my body also improved a lot. The doctor advised Li Hua that if it was not necessary, it would be better not to let me go back and live. Obviously, my body cannot adapt.

It's okay these two days, but in two days it will be hot and mosquito bites have come. If you have any problems, you won't die. It's too troublesome to just run down the mountain to see a doctor one by one.

Li Hua tried to persuade me in the hospital for a long time, and I finally nodded, OK, I'll go home.

I want to accompany him, but I don't want to cause trouble for him either.

Li Hua sent me away and set a return date for the next month with me. In fact, one month is not very far away. I waited for it and came over.

I was sick and didn't go back to school. I went directly to my mother's house. My mother is a hardworking housewife. Although the house is not big, it is clean and timely. I live here and she takes care of her, which saves trouble.

Maybe it was because of the sleepiness in spring, autumn and summer, I was a little bit sleepy recently. But after I stayed for a few more days, my mother started to get annoyed. She felt that when I had no chance to act, she could consider finding some jobs.

I don't think my mother understands it. I have to prepare for acting at all times, so I can't find other jobs. No job will always allow you to take leave and not do it for a long time.

For this matter, my mother and I had a little diaphragm and we were not happy to stay here.

She already has her own home. Although I am her own daughter, she also has some meaning from outsiders.

The medicine can be stopped here, and the rash on my body is indeed getting better. It should be fine in a few days. I count on how many days will it be before Li Hua’s return date, and how should we live after he comes back this time.

Li Hua said that after finishing this project, he would no longer work on the construction site and would learn something else.

When I was fine, I sat at home to look at the house. I had already started to look forward to Li Hua and I bought our own house, then renovated it, and the two of us moved in and lived a sweet little life.
Chapter completed!