"It can no longer be called love, but guilt. The deep and unextricable guilt goes deep into my heart and turns into a demon. I am suffering from pain and torture, and I refuse to let myself go. I have never mentioned these things to others.

, you are the first and only one, even Meiqi never knew it. When I said this, I did not intend for you to forgive me immediately, but I just wanted to sweep away the prejudice and resentment against me in your heart. At that time

The one who lost control of his emotions and wanted to kill you was not the real me, but me after I became a demon!" Su Zhengxiao spoke in a slow and deep voice without haste.

Hearing this, Tang Xiaoran was speechless. She lowered her eyes and continued her previous actions, drinking porridge lightly.

Indeed, all she knew in her heart was the surface of things, and as for the inner parts of things, she had no idea at all.

"Indeed, before I divorced you, I tried hard to integrate into your life and understand your loneliness. If you had said this to me before the divorce, I would have been happy for a few days and nights.

I can't sleep. I've known you for nine years and been married for eight years. How can I not be excited when you open your heart to me for the first time? But it was only before. Now you and I have no relationship at all. You said this to me.

, it's of no use at all." She looked up at him and spoke very firmly; "I really plan to forget the past and start a new life, so you don't need to tell me these words!"

The tightly furrowed eyebrows raised, Su Zhengxiao's eyes stared at her for a moment, and the man's voice was calm, without anger, without force, but with deep decadence and helplessness; "Is there any

I've heard this saying, it's hard to put things back. Whether it's the words you said or the things you did, they are all in the past. I can't take them back, and there's no way to turn back time. How can you let go of those things?

"

"Whether you let go or not, whether you forgive or not, is a thing of the past and I have forgotten it."

Tang Xiaoran's expression was calm and calm, giving people a feeling of being indifferent. She didn't know how much of what she just said was heard and how much she took to heart.

This indifferent, cold, but indifferent attitude finally succeeded in irritating Su Zhengxiao, but more of it was helpless.

She made up her mind. If she didn't have enough food, rice, oil and salt, what could he do to her?

His chest rose and fell violently for a moment, and then calmed down. In the past, he was not a person who could control his emotions. If he got really angry, more than a dozen people would not be able to resist him.

"Have you had enough for breakfast? If not, I'll go buy some on the street. By the way, what do you want for lunch? I can bring it to you when I come over."

In the past, Su Zhengxiao could only get angry and violent at times like this. How could he say such words to her with a gentle look?

Some things and thoughts emerged deeply and clearly from his mind. Tang Xiaoran's lowered eyes flickered slightly, and the tip of his heart was trembling uncontrollably. He closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, his eyes were already filled with tears.

He regained his clarity; "I will take the nurse from the cafeteria for me when the time comes, so I won't bother you. I almost forgot to say thank you."

Some words of alienation easily opened the distance between the two again!

Su Zhengxiao's hand hanging by his side tightened, and his thin lips wriggled. He wanted to say something, but in the end he did not speak. He was forcibly suppressing his temper!

He left, and Tang Xiaoran was the only one left in the ward.

The window of the room was opened by the nurse. This ward is in a perfect location, with a panoramic view of the green lawn and the sparkling lake.

Staring at the scenery outside the window, she was in a daze, her thoughts drifting, flowing, and lost in thought.

She was thinking about what Su Zhengxiao had just said, as well as his look and expression. A few days ago, he said he liked her and loved her. All she felt in her heart was indescribable shock, but she was not moved or touched. More

It's unbelievable.

Just now, she brazenly said such rude words. Su Zhengxiao was obviously very angry, but in the end he didn't do anything or say anything. Instead, he continued to ask her what she wanted to eat for lunch with a gentle expression.

, he brought it to her.

At that moment, the words he had said to her came to her mind, and her heart trembled, and she truly believed his words.

Those words did not seem to be pretentious, but were filled with real helplessness after anger, with compromise and pity. Otherwise, her heart would not be so obviously touched.

At noon, she asked the nurse to help bring a portion to the cafeteria. When she was about to eat, Uncle Liu came, carrying a thermos box, and said with a smile, "The president asked me to bring it here."

Tang Xiaoran said that he had already prepared the meal and that one person could not eat two portions, so Uncle Liu should take the portion.

Upon hearing this, Uncle Liu came over with a smile and took the lunch box out of her hand while she was not paying attention. He smiled and moved his chopsticks, "I didn't eat lunch either, so I won't be polite to you."

, It’s just that the lunch that the president asked to be delivered is a nutritious meal for patients. I can’t eat it well without being injured, so I might as well eat this.”

Tang Xiaoran; "..."

In the afternoon, Su Zhengxiao went to pick up Jingxuan from school, took him towards the hospital, and said, "From today on, you will live with your mother. Pack your clothes and things."

I will bring it to you later."

"Why is this happening all of a sudden?" Jingxuan was still chewing on the duck's neck. It was so spicy that his face was slightly red and he couldn't help but gasp. It was so spicy.

"Your mother has been walking very fast these days, and she's still sick. I'm worried that there's no one around to take care of her." As he said that, he turned the steering wheel to the left.

Jingxuan nodded; "I will take good care of her!"

"There is one more thing I must warn you!" As he spoke, Su Zhengxiao narrowed his slender eyes and warned in a deep voice, "If you dare to try to tear down my backstage this time!"

"I won't take it apart, I won't take it apart." Jingxuan responded quickly.

Hearing this, Su Zhengxiao continued to speak with satisfaction, "Actually, there are some benefits to leaving you with your mother."

Jing Xuan tilted his head and looked at him in confusion, not understanding what his father meant by the benefits.

"Leaving you at your mother's place is equivalent to me placing a radar next to your mother, which is also equivalent to a spy. I can know what the enemy is doing as soon as possible, and if your mother encounters something

When you are in trouble, of course you will choose to be the first to call me, and then I will be a hero to save the beauty, just like this time." Su Zhengxiao had his own thoughts and plans in his heart.

After hearing this, Jingxuan scratched his head and thought for a while; "Is it the Han Dynasty?"

"Wrong, it's a spy. The English name is spy." Su Zhengxiao tugged his thin lips and continued to speak.

Being said like this, he felt instantly superior. Jingxuan thought it was quite interesting and the title was not bad. He thought about it again and patted Su Zhengxiao on the shoulder like a brat. "I can try my best to help you, but in the end I can't help you."

If you can't get back together with mom, it depends on your fate, dad, although I don't have much hope for you."

In an instant, Su Zhengxiao's eyes narrowed, and he immediately reacted. Jingxuan hurriedly said, "Dad, just concentrate on driving. I will never tear down your backstage!"

The car stopped in the parking lot, and he seemed to think of something again. He leaned slightly with his tall body, took out a packaging box and handed it to Jingxuan: "Bring it to your mother later."

"Dad, aren't you going up?"

"The company has a very important meeting to be held tonight, so I won't go into the ward. If you want to eat or use anything, you can call me anytime. If I can't get through, then call Uncle Liu." Su Zheng

Xiao Xiao warned.

Jingxuan nodded and said deliberately, "Uncle Liu Genghong? I have his number on my mobile phone."

"Do you have to give me a beating today?" Su Zhengxiao stared at him and said word by word, "It's not Liu Genghong, it's Liu Gang, do you remember clearly?"

Jingxuan was secretly happy in his heart and couldn't help but nod his head: "Dad, it's wrong for you to use violence against children like this!"

Su Zhengxiao ignored him and glanced at him directly: "That Uncle Liu?"

"Uncle Liu*gang." Jingxuan made the last note so long that it was unbearable.

"Okay." Su Zhengxiao reached out and stroked his head gently; "Go in, I'm leaving."

Tang Xiaoran didn't want Jingxuan to live in the hospital, but Jingxuan didn't want to leave, so she had no choice. She lived in a suite with a TV and a bed, which was enough for Jingxuan to sleep.

After dinner, Jingxuan was lying on the coffee table doing homework. When he was unpacking his schoolbag, he happened to see the packaging bag inside. He took it out and gave it to Tang Xiaoran.

Tang Xiaoran stared at it curiously, wondering what was inside, thinking it was a gift from him. Jingxuan shook his head, "It wasn't from me, it was from dad."

After saying that, he returned to the coffee table, squatted there, and continued to write homework. The teacher was a little annoying and left a lot of homework.

She had no intention of looking at it originally, because she would not accept any gift he gave her. When she glanced out of the corner of her eye, she accidentally saw the word "photo album".

Could it be that what he sent over was a photo album?

Sitting on the bed with nothing to do and feeling a little bored, Tang Xiaoran paused for a moment, thought about it, and finally opened the packaging bag.

What was inside was indeed a photo album, there were as many as two of them, each one was very thick, and they were not the photos of Jingxuan's childhood that she had given him before.

She leaned on her head and curiously opened the photo albums. All the photos were taken in the Grand Canyon.

Seeing this, she was a little surprised and surprised. When on earth did he take so many photos in the Grand Canyon?

Many of the people in the front are from Jingxuan, making fun or laughing, and some are playing in the water and picking up leaves, with bright and bright smiles on their cheeks.

When I turned over the photo, there was a sentence at the bottom, I hope he can always smile so brightly and be happy, signed by Su Zhengxiao.

It was indeed his handwriting. She recognized it. His handwriting was exactly the same as his character, wild, wild, majestic and profound.

Tang Xiaoran's heartbeat seemed to be starting to beat faster. She continued to scroll down and saw a picture of herself.

In that photo, she was in pain after spraining her foot. She was sitting on a stone with her brows knitted together. He happened to tease her, which made her even more irritated. She glared at him with a very ugly look on her face.

.

Looking through the photo again, there is a sentence below: Before the divorce, she was afraid of me and never showed her true side. I think her truest side was shown in front of me without any reservation.

The tip of his heart could not suppress the trembling. Tang Xiaoran's heart seemed to be hit by something, and he bit his lip involuntarily.

There were many photos that followed, most of which were of him carrying her on his back. Since it was up the mountain, he basically carried her all the way, and she had never seen his expression. Until this moment, she

I just saw it through photos.

His thin lips were slightly hooked, the lines on his handsome face were very soft, and he always had a faint smile.

Open it, and there is a sentence there - just keep carrying it like this, not bad! Even for a lifetime!

Women always like men to give gifts. Even if they are not valuable, as long as they are thoughtful, they will regard them as treasures and like them very much.

There are many photos at the back, all of the three of them, in various postures and appearances, and there is even a photo of her being extremely tired, lying on his back and yawning...

At this moment, Tang Xiaoran really liked these two photo albums and the gift he had prepared. His calm and indifferent heart was broken and turned upside down.

Since the divorce, she has been telling herself every day, forget the past, forget Su Zhengxiao, she must forget it completely, don't be tempted by him anymore, don't make ripples for him anymore, don't do something mean again!
To be continued...