I don’t know when it started, hellen gradually ran out of words. WWW.tsxsw.COM I remember not long ago, the two of us could talk for a whole day, and there seemed to be endless topics. But now, it’s more

The two of us sat facing each other in silence, letting the air solidify between us.

I knew that the problem was with me. I instinctively felt that something I cherished was going away, so I made another difficult appointment with Hellen.

The reason why I use the word "difficult" is because it is really difficult for me to walk out of my room. I have never felt that the sand and dust in Beijing, where I have lived for more than ten years, are so harsh.

It was so intense that the sunlight was also extremely dazzling.

I almost walked out of the room with great perseverance and came to Beihai Park, where Hellen and I had an appointment.

Hellen and I sat on the grass, letting the breeze blow around us, looking at each other in silence.

"Taozi, my father asked me to return to Hong Kong after a while." Hellen's soft voice sounded in my ears.

"Oh!" I responded feebly, suddenly regretting going out this time. The breeze, the grass, the soft water, the scorching sun, and the beautiful beautiful women laughing beside me, these things that should make people happy, somehow...

, all I felt was disgust. Suddenly, it seemed that, back in my dark cabin, there was something I really liked.

"You...do you want to go with me?" Hellen's face turned red.

"Um?"

"I mean, are you going to Hong Kong for development?" Why does Hellen look a little panicked? Suddenly I feel that it is very strange recently. There are always things happening around me that I can't understand. This was simply impossible before.

"Hong Kong? Why should I go there? Is there a grave I can dig?" I said calmly, but unexpectedly, there was a trace of ridicule in my tone.

"Is it possible to fight back and forth for the rest of your life?" Hellen said loudly, a little excited.

"Besides fighting upside down, what else can I do?"

"There are still many things that can be done, Taozi, come back to Hong Kong with me!"

"It's Hong Kong again. What's good about Hong Kong?" I was a little impatient. What are we talking about? I really want to go home.

"Hong Kong..., Hong Kong has me!" Hellen suddenly raised his head and said, his tone was a little trembling, but his expression was very firm.

Hong Kong, there is me. My heart suddenly throbbed, as if something very soft was being touched.

In an instant, all the gentleness was replaced by inexplicable irritability. I yelled involuntarily: "Who do you think I am? A freeloader? I, Zhang Tao, have hands and feet, and I am determined to fight upside down.

If you dislike it, go back to your Hong Kong immediately."

The blood on Hellen's face suddenly faded and turned completely white.

Looking at her bloodless face, I felt a pain in my heart and murmured: "What's wrong with me, what's wrong with me?"

Since we have known each other, I have never said a harsh word to her. Did she say something wrong somewhere? Am I tired of this business? How could she say such a thing...

"I'm sorry, Hellen, there may be something wrong with me, please leave me alone." After forcing myself to say this, I turned around and left Beihai Park without looking back.

I accidentally glanced around the corner and saw a delicate figure on the grass, trembling slightly, and there seemed to be a faint sound of sobbing.

My footsteps are getting faster and faster, and my desire to go back to the house is getting stronger. Everything around me is boring me, and I just want to go back quickly, close the door, and isolate it all from the outside.

After locking the door bolt and returning to the back room, I breathed a sigh of relief, as if I had drank a bottle of cold beer in the dog days of summer and felt refreshed all over.

I unconsciously reached out my hand and gently stroked the cold amber surface. I felt that with the faint, vague coolness, my whole body relaxed and felt deeply calm...

"Only you understand me best."

"Only you can make me calm."

"It's just you, there's no need for me to figure out your thoughts."

"Only you will never leave my side."

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In the dark cabin, I murmured to myself to the girl sealed in amber.

For the next seven days, I never left the room. When I was hungry, I would find something to eat. When I was thirsty, I would drink some raw water. None of these were important. All my thoughts were focused on the Amber Girl in the back room.

, can't tell even a tiny bit.

Every day, the only thing I did was to face the piece of amber quietly and pour out my thoughts in a messy manner. Slowly, I seemed to be able to hear the voice of the girl in the amber, so I became more and more obsessed.

Her white slender feet are not standing in amber, but stepping on snow-white clouds. She is full of laughter, singing and dancing in the distance.

In a trance, I slowly merged into the amber, hand in hand with the charming girl, carefree, walking in the clouds...

When I was awake, Amber and I sat looking at each other; in my sleep, I sang with the girl across from each other. She was like an eternal presence in my life, accompanying me all the time and never leaving for a moment.

The closer I integrate with her, the more completely I am separated from the whole world. Gradually, I am afraid of meeting strangers, even acquaintances, and I can't understand what they are saying at all?

How many times have I sat down with the fat man at the table, the smoke was lingering, but we didn't say a word, we just sat there quietly until he left without interest, and then I happily returned to the back room and continued to be with the amber girl.

Such a situation was unimaginable in the past. When did I have nothing to say to my closest brother? At first, I tried hard to talk to him about something, but the smoking charisma

The days seemed to be gone forever. I tried my best, but I still couldn't understand the meaning of the words that came out of his mouth.

After one or two times, I gradually stopped paying attention, or in other words, I no longer cared. The longer these days passed, the more things I didn’t care about. A month ago, the house next door started to be renovated, and there was a rumbling sound all day long.

It kept ringing. At first I was so bored that I wanted to beat up the head of the household because I was too lazy to go out. But now, I can actually turn a deaf ear to the increasingly loud noise. Every night, when I think about what happened during the day,

I can't remember exactly whether the building next door was still being renovated that day?

At this time, I seemed to be in a deep lotus pond full of mud, sinking slowly but without hesitation. I had no intention of struggling, but seemed to enjoy the feeling of slowly sinking and gradually decaying...

During this period, it seemed that many people came to see me, including Fatty, Hu Bayi, Wang Kaixuan, and Big Gold Tooth... I had no impression of what they said, and it seemed that they had no idea at all at that time.

Couldn't understand.

Many years later, I recalled this period of time, and finally found the right words to describe that feeling: At that time, I was like a DVD, which only recorded, did not feel, and could not understand, but was as fast as film.
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