People die like a lamp extinguishing. The originally bright space suddenly becomes dark and no one can adapt to it. A world that cannot be touched, seen, or heard will become natural soon, while others will go crazy.

It’s not that I haven’t experienced the departure of my relatives, but I haven’t personally experienced the kind of thing that I can’t do anything when I watch her leave.

"It's getting dark, Ruan Qin, go back, your classmates are all back." I said.

"What about you?"

"I want to see her again, and I have promised her father."

"I'll accompany you. To be honest, I'm a little afraid of going back to the dormitory." Ruan Qin's voice was very quiet.

At this time, Lu Sha, Tian Li, He Wen and others came. When I saw them, tears came out again.

He Wen hugged me and said, "Cry, I feel better when I cry."

As soon as I cried, Lu Sha also cried. Ruan Qin helped her and comforted her because Zhang Yue had met Lu Sha several times before.

Tian Li said: "How long has it been salvaged? The river is so big and the water flows so fast, it should be difficult to salvage it."

Yes, it’s really hard to salvage. I was a person who lived by the river and I often saw salvage. Moreover, this is a big river, so it’s not easy.

Wang Dian said: "So far, more than 30,000 people have died, and there are still many that have not been discovered. And there are still aftershocks that continue, which is really heartbreaking."

I said, "Thank you for coming. I don't know when you will get it. You can go back first. I have to wait for her parents."

"What are you saying? You are her boyfriend, so we are not her friends?" Lu Sha walked over and said. I was very moved and very glad that there was such a group of friends.

I have seen Zhang Yue’s aunt. When she first confirmed her relationship, her aunt knew. Zhang Yue’s parents were not around, so she lived in her aunt’s house.

Her aunt and uncle came from her hometown. It won’t take long for a province.

"How did you take care of Zhang Yue?" Her aunt slapped me when she met and said, "I didn't object to your relationship at the beginning, so you took care of her." After that, she cried.

Ruan Qin hurriedly said, "Jing Xi was not with Zhang Yue at that time. When Ji Xi arrived, Zhang Yue had already fallen. And Ji Xi immediately jumped down to save people, and he almost couldn't get up."

"Then why can't I be saved? You say, you say... wuwu..." Her aunt grabbed my clothes and cried and yelled.

Her uncle pulled her aunt away. I said, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

I don’t know what to say, what can I say? No one is gone, and any language is pale and powerless.

Before Zhang Yue's parents came, she was already caught. She started salvaging from a long distance. The first one came was Zhang Yue, proving that the lonely shadow struggling in the river I saw was her.

I don’t know if she knew that I was also in the river at that time, and I don’t know if she would blame me for not saving her first. I could swim past that distance at that time.

She was so pale, her limbs were still struggling, her mouth was still open, and her eyes were slightly opened, as if she was looking at me and complaining about me.

Her aunt was lying on her and crying, Lu Sha Ruanqin was crying, and I squatted on the ground and cried. Her eyes were confused, so confused that she had no strength. She only heard a voice calling me: "Jing Xi...Jing Xi..."

"Chop people quickly..."

"Send it to the hospital first..."

The first time I felt the feeling of fainting, my thoughts were empty and white.

When I woke up, I was lying in the hospital with a drip. Ruan Qin, Xiao Wen and Cheng Gang were beside me, and Ruan Qin was talking about the scene at that time.

Seeing me wake up, Xiao Wen said, "Wake up, I'll go and make some porridge with you." Then he went out.

Cheng Gang said: "It's nothing, it's just over-exhaustion and you haven't eaten. Tian Li and the others accompanied Aunt Zhang Yue to the funeral home."

"Have her parents come?" I asked.

Cheng Gang replied: "I don't know yet, I'll call to ask about the situation." Then he walked out of the ward.

"You don't have to accompany me, go home! You must be afraid when you go back to the dormitory." I looked at Ruan Qin and said. She is a local and her home is not far away.

"I'll accompany you, and I'll sleep with you later. You'll sleep on the sofa." Zhang Yue used to say that Ruan Qin had a crush on me, but I didn't believe it, it seemed to be true.

"It's up to you, what time is it now?" I really have no mind to think about it.

"It's eleven o'clock. You've been lying for a long time. The hospital said you were too tired, dehydrated, and empty-handed, so you can get a few more needles of energy."

"Who helped me with the medical expenses?" I asked suddenly.

"I! I don't need to pay it back. I have money. I'll help Zhang Yue take care of you."

Well, I know if you have money, and I know you are a second-generation businessman.

I remained silent, and Ruan Qin said, "I'm sorry, I've made you sad again."

"It's okay, how can you get the money? I'll keep it with you, you can take it yourself." I saved the money Tian Li paid back in my card, and I kept more than 3,000 in my hand, which should be enough.

"Believe me so much. If I say I don't want it, I don't want it. I'm really good..."

"Zhang Yue's parents got off the plane and were rushing to the funeral home. Don't worry." Cheng Gang interrupted Ruan Qin.

I can imagine what her parents would be like, but I just can't understand their pain.

I didn't go when the cremation was cremated, so I didn't dare to go, so I felt uncomfortable.

I went to the funeral of my hometown. Tian Li, Lu Sha, Xiao Wen, He Wen and some studio classmates who knew the news also went there, and her college classmates only came to Ruan Qin.

I did not cry anymore, but instead caused criticism from bystanders, saying that I was heartless.

I didn't care. Everyone has their own different way of remembering, it's not for others to see

Ruan Qin muttered to stand up for me: "Whatever they do, who are there? How could they see you go into the water to save people? How could they see you crying with your head and fainting when you see you heartache."

I said, "Don't care what they say, the real heartache is just the beginning."

Tears are not just synonyms for heartache and heartache. Sometimes, nostalgia and longing can make people want to cry more than heartache.

After returning to WH, I said to Ruan Qin: "I want to be alone during this period and I will invite you to dinner another day." Then I gave her the medical expenses.

She pushed away: "No, just treat the accommodation fee I had at your place that day. Remember, I want to treat me to a meal!" and then left.

Life alone is too bad, which is completely different from being single, quarrels and separation. This is also a kind of love breakup: losing your favorite lover, losing your lover's life.

I just don’t want to go out every day, and it’s useless to call me. I just pick it alone, read books, tremble in my hands, play games, eat too much, thief?

I was annoyed by the thief once, so I drove him out with a kitchen knife. If I really got driven by me, I think I might hack him to death.

A college classmate of Lu Sha is named Feng Jiao. Because we often go to Tian Li to play and are from Zhang Yue, we are still familiar with each other.

One afternoon, Feng Jiao said to Wang Dian, Tian Li, Liu Wu and Cheng Gang who were working on a tractor: "What kind of brother are you? You haven't seen Jin Xi for more than half a month. You don't go and see it or call me."

"You don't know Jing Xi's personality. She's a little stubborn. If he wants to be alone, it's useless to call him." Tian Li replied.

"Then you don't care about it, and you're not afraid that he will starve to death or be unable to think about it?" Feng Jiao said again.

"Yes, yes, you can pull him over, and you have to carry him over. He probably won't be hungry and will be mentally ill." Lu Sha finished the attack.

These four people came indeed and told me the original words of Feng Jiao and Lu Sha.

"Sir Xi, it's not that young people force you. The two queens have issued an imperial edict, and the servants have to do as they do." Tian Li deliberately made fun of it.

It's all like this, and it seems inhumane if I don't go, after all, they have worked hard.

"See how thin you are?" Lu Sha said: "Da Li, I'll make some soup for Jen Xi to make up for it later."

"Jingxi, everything has passed, don't be too sad. She is watching you in the sky. You said it will be so distressing!" Feng Jiao said.

"Sometimes it's not that I'm too impulsive to talk about you. I heard you jumped down without saying a word and almost couldn't get up! That's the Yangtze River. Have you ever thought about your own parents?" Liu Wu was still so real.

"Okay! Come on, play the tractor, I like to be with you the most! If you are not there, I will lose if I am against anyone!" Wang Dian pulled me down.

I stood up and said, "Thank you, brothers and sisters!"

Everyone was silent about this sentence.

When we had dinner in the evening, it was prepared and delivered by the restaurant downstairs. There were rib soup, spicy chicken, boiled fish fillets, boiled beef, scrambled eggs with tomatoes, and spicy and sour lotus root diced.

Even the rice was brought up by the restaurant owner in a basin, and there was also a box of beer.

The store owner said to Tian Li: "It's better to keep the accounts?"

Tian Li said: "Well, let me give it to you then."

I stood up and said, "I'll give it to you!"

Tian Li sat on my left hand and grabbed me: "I didn't just remember this meal, just eat it. Come on, drink first!"

I was drinking wine and eating vegetables. But I felt very uncomfortable. I kept the credit vegetables and invited me to eat and drink? How could I swallow it?

I said, "Dali, there is no need to do this. Just take some casually, why bother like this?" He didn't go to work and didn't open a store anymore. Another mother at home had to take medicine every day.

"It's just this meal, don't think too much. I don't agree if I think about it anymore!" Tian Li raised his glass to me and I drank it.

"Da Li, thank you! I still want to say that there is no need for this!"

Tian Li put down his cup: "I think it's necessary!"

"I don't think it's necessary!"

"It's necessary!" Tian Li raised his voice.

"No need!" I slapped the table.

"It's necessary!" He took a photo harder.

"It's just that there's no need!" I shouted.

"Is it still a brother!" he yelled.
To be continued...