Many years have passed, and I still clearly remember the scene when I first came to Shanghai and lived in Chengzhong Village, Xingzhan Road, Qibao Town, Shanghai.

A man carrying his luggage and saying it was luggage, but in fact it was just a few simple clothes to change clothes. He left his hometown, left his relatives, and came here to live in the corner of the second floor of a farmyard, on the wooden bed in a small area of ​​a rental house.

I am alone, helpless, looking for a job everywhere, my future and my heart are confused.

We are all people who keep running back and forth, from starting to stopping, and ultimately just to find the self you want in your mind.

There are actually not many opportunities to choose at every stage of life.

I have had at least three times like this, walking forward alone. The first time was to graduate from Loudi Normal University, from my hometown in Hunan to Huzhou, Zhejiang, and the second time was to make a living, from Huzhou to Ningbo. This time, I had many unscrupulous and helpless reasons for traveling to Shanghai.

Time flies without leaving. It is like a cigarette, looking through the past in a dream.

Sometimes, we stop for a short time, or occasionally turn our heads around, recall and stare at the journey we have been walking with staggering, stalking, or stomping forward. Suddenly, you will find that all kinds of pasts are not the fateful encounters in our lives again and again?

Sometimes I often ask myself, did I just want to work hard to find the real self I want?

I think I may be a person who is easily sentimental. Some thoughts take off and fall in one thought, and they all rise and fall.

Everyone has a time of darkness, and everyone has time to move forward in the darkness. There are always many difficulties in life, big or small, long or short.

Those dark nothingness poured down always make us burst into tears at a certain moment. Tears dripped into ice, freezing our eyes and tears.

In the darkest and worst times in our life, we have encountered many pains, and our hearts are full of holes, as if we have exhausted all our strength.

Whose youth has never been confused? The days are growing wildly, and the shadows are thin day by day. Before a person grows old, his eyes are already covered with yellow. Some people even turn their teenagers' heads white overnight.

Life is a stage without ending, enduring the joys and sorrows of life, and also enduring loneliness.

Ye Weiyang. Standing in the middle of darkness, but you can no longer see the way you came.

Loneliness swarms up. Yes, protecting yourself is sometimes difficult and difficult.

But life still has to go on day by day.

You live, but joy or miserable life. The days are there, and time flows forward slowly like a river.

Days are every day, not only the bright day, but also the dark night.

It’s just that some people stayed in the darkness and never stood up again; while some people survived in the sun and became legendary.

But even those who are surrounded by suffering throughout their lives will definitely be favored by joy, even if it is just a moment.

These moments of joy, like warm hands, will gently brush across our entire life.

If you are always in the middle of darkness ignorantly, there is no other reason, you must have lost yourself.

Sometimes life is constantly climbing out of one pit, but before you can recover, you jump into another pit.

Some of these pitfalls are found on the spot, some are set up by others, and some are dug up by themselves.

If your strength cannot support your self-esteem, you must tear off what you think is, the so-called strong disguise, ask for help when it is time to ask for help.

There are also many times when we may become our own prisoners by accident, but we must not let it lock our hearts.

Sometimes you might as well change the method, go straight or turn a corner, as long as you don’t give up, you will definitely be there.

What is deeper than darkness? Sitting alone at night, darkness is quietly disappearing silently.

Only my dark eyes that cannot be hidden away will not sink in the dark night, use it to find light.

What we need is not necessarily comfort, but to find the true self we want at the next dawn after experiencing the long dark night.

The true self you want to be is the light you have been looking for. In fact, our lives are all about discovering and searching for our own light and following our own light.

Raise the light that is even only one star high, then raise it high, through the night, offset the darkness around you, let your heart stay, and finally live as you desire. Our life and life will become more and more profound from then on.

The Buddha said, in the darkness, you must live as your own light.

There is always some time that will be discovered after the past to find that it has been deeply engraved in memory.

Or many years later, at night under the light, you will think of some people who have sailed in the river of time and disappeared, but in your heart, the warmth that has crossed the river of time will never disappear.

Looking at me, it was burning itself.
Chapter completed!