[204] Suffering from love
Chu Qingyan was eager to know everything about Qin Meiyu and wanted to know.
He also knew that what Qin Meiyu wanted to say was the secret she buried in her heart, which was a hidden pain that no one could touch. Now that she was willing to tell it, Chu Qingyan was more happy than worried.
But, what is buried in the heart, digging it out again, is it bloody again. Can she?
The two sat in the corridor. Qin Meiyu had no spiritual power and could not transform Zuisheng into the tendons and veins. She held it in her arms. She leaned her head against the hilt of the sword, stared at the moon in a daze, and said softly: "When you first saw me, I should have died."
Chu Qingyan took a thick robe and put it on her. When she heard this, she was not surprised at all: "I know."
"Do you know?" Qin Meiyu looked at him in surprise, then she understood that she tilted her head and chuckled, "Yes, you are so smart, how could you not guess?"
Looking at Chu Qingyan quietly, she asked with a smile: "How much do you know? Why don't you say come and listen to me."
"I know that your surname is Qin, your name is Qi, and your courtesy name is Meiyu. It is the first disciple of the sect of the sect of Kudiqingzhuo, and it is also his only disciple." Chu Qingyan said calmly, "After you entered the sect, you have a very talented person and once Guangyao. Later, by chance, the master and disciple parted ways, and you were forced to abandon the sword and practice other things. This is why you have no internal breath of sword, but you can pick up the mental methods and sword moves of this sect."
Qin Meiyu was stunned. How did he know these... and when did he know them?
No... I don't know the person in front of me, it's actually the disguise of my master.
After a stern heart, Qin Meiyu subconsciously wanted to stand up and kneel down to reply.
"Now, I still have some things that I don't know very well," Chu Qingyan looked at her, pursing her thin lips slightly, "Ah, can you tell me clearly?"
Qin Meiyu nodded.
"Do you... like your master very much?" After a while, Chu Qingyan continued to ask, "Even if you know that he and I are the same person, can you still not love Wuwu?"
If there is no hope in this life, can I hope to be with you until old age, even if I cannot have the closest relationship?
Qin Meiyu didn't expect that Chu Qingyan would ask these questions. She was stunned for a while and said, "You are not the same person as him."
Looking at Chu Qingyan beside her, she continued, "You are you, he is him, I can tell you clearly now. I will not deceive myself and you just because you are like him, or you are him in this world. Previously... I would not be able to tell you and him, it is not good for me."
He said it firmly. Looking back on his attitude and position towards Chu Qingyan, Qin Meiyu still feels that he is still confused.
He is him, this is what makes her headache the most.
I can't let go of the previous one, and I can't accept the current one with peace of mind...
Bah, it's like a scumbag who doesn't want to take responsibility while lying on two boats!
"Ah, you can't go back," Chu Qingyan's eyebrows were locked. "I don't know how he sent you here. Now nearly twenty years have shown that no matter whether you are alive or dead, you can't go back."
"Of course I can't go back. Even if I go back, I should be a bunch of bones." Qin Meiyu smiled indifferently and looked up at the moon. "He should be better if I am not here. My apprentice is really not very good. He is unruly and unruly, and he is erratic and violent, causing him a lot of trouble. Later, I was framed as a murderer, which completely became a stain on his reputation."
The past, the wind sword, the sword, and the sword, are now narrated, but only she knows how much despair and sadness these words have.
Chu Qingyan didn't say anything, looking at her quietly, and her heart was so distressed that she had already twisted.
"Speaking of this, I owe him a lot in my previous life," Qin Meiyu looked up at the galaxy with an obscure look on his face, "Every time I think about him, I tell myself that I can't let myself go, I should hate him. I hate him not believe in me, I hate him never see me, I hate him... I took away the drunken life he gave me..."
It's so stupid to use hatred to suppress your love.
Chu Qingyan asked softly: "…Where is him?"
"He..." Qin Meiyu smiled bitterly and said to himself, "He is Qingzhuo Zhenren. People despise me. That is the person he loves the most. His lifelong belief is to punish evil and eliminate evil for life and help the world. His disciple later became a great traitor and evil person, so he naturally wanted to clean up the door..."
"Ah Shan," I couldn't bear to listen any more, so Chu Qingyan forced her heart to suppress her bitterness and pain, "You haven't answered my first question yet."
Qin Meiyu, do you love your master very much...
Qin Meiyu no longer needs to think about this question.
"It's love, and it should be mixed with many other feelings."
As he murmured, he suddenly chuckled. Thinking of the bastards he had done before, Qin Meiyu felt a little sorry for the stupid and stubborn self, "I don't want him to accept other disciples. I'm afraid he will forget me. I don't allow him to answer any of his posts, he won't let him go down the mountain easily, he won't let him go down the mountain easily, some of which are unreasonable, but he didn't expect that he did it one by one. It's not a great disaster in the world, and the true man Qingzhuo has no longer gone down the mountain easily, and he will send other people to take on the mission down the mountain without regretting that he will send others to take down the mountain..."
There have been so many times of life and death, especially in the six years of chaos, Qin Meiyu has already figured out a lot of things.
Qingzhuo Zhenren is a person who is in a worldly manner. Tao is ruthless but affectionate.
I understand, see clearly, what's the use? Can't let go or can't...
He felt sour in his heart, Chu Qingyan said in a word: "He can do this, which means he still has you in his heart."
"No." Qin Meiyu smiled at him, naughty and cunning, "I was threatening him."
Looking at the jade pendant hanging on Chu Qingyan's neck, she tilted her head to his ear and whispered, "I stole his token and forged a marriage letter. If he doesn't respond, I will tell Tianxia Qingzhuo Zhenren to coerce his apprentice to marry..."
Chu Qingyan frowned.
"Even if these things are false, even if you find it out, your reputation for not resenting the bitter land will be damaged. Look at whether I am bad..." Qin Meiyu smiled, his eyebrows and eyes were curved, like a stubborn child. "I also told him that if he didn't respond, I would use his decisive pride to commit suicide and die in Xiaofeng Canyue. He should also be extremely disgusted with the behavior of me, a rogue, and annoyed that the disciple he taught was so despicable and could do everything he could. He almost did not hesitate, and agreed very happily, and did what he said. Qingzhuo Zhenren is indeed a gentleman and very trustworthy."
His eyes turned slightly, and fell on the clear face under the moonlight, and Chu Qingyan's heart ached faintly.
Chapter completed!