Chapter 109 Am I cheap?
Wen Li sent Fang Xiaomu back to Yu Bin's house. When he came back to China, Yu Bin didn't know that Fang Xiaomu had returned home. After arriving at home, there was no one at home, so he took out the key to open the door for Wen Li. Now Fang Xiaomu didn't even have the strength to open the door, for fear that he would not be able to stand if he was accidentally. Will this relationship really end so soon? She could feel that Zhang Fei loved her, why did he end up so cruelly?
The wind Le, who had been standing beside Fang Xiaomu, didn't speak. Now what she needs most is quiet. The more she talks, the sadder she will be. While she is powerless, what she can do is to accompany her silently. If she doesn't speak, just stay by her side quietly, so she won't feel that she is alone.
The other party’s feelings for Xiaomu are already deep into the bones. Fengle wants to give her the best things in the world. She deserves the best. As long as she is willing to slowly forget Zhang Fei, no matter how long he will be willing to wait like this, waiting for Fang Xiaomu to have a little bit of his place in his heart.
After entering the room, Fang Xiaomu's eyes were still dull. In fact, she wanted to cry especially, but Fengle was by her side and she didn't want to be so fragile. She walked to the table and picked up the water cup to pour water. Her hands were still trembling. Fengle walked over and took the cup from Fang Xiaomu's hand and poured it into her hand.
Fang Xiaomu was drinking water with a cup, but his hands were still shaking. He couldn't control it. The cup fell to the ground without any warning. She bent down to pick it up, and Fengle helped her up: "Don't touch it, sit down, I'll clean it up." He helped Fang Xiaomu to the sand and sat down, and then went to get the broom.
After packing up everything, Guan Le squatted beside Fang Xiaomu. He wanted to hold her hand up, but was afraid that she would refuse, so he put his hand on the sand and looked at her: "Xiaomu, if you want to cry, just cry. I will hold my shoulders for you. As long as you don't dislike it, you can stay as long as you want. I just want you not to do this anymore. I feel distressed." She hasn't said anything since she came out of the hospital, and she has always had this expression. Guan Le was a little scared when she saw it, afraid that she would hide all her words and emotions in her heart, which would cause illness.
I wanted to cry, especially I wanted to cry. I was so sad that I wanted to cry but couldn't cry. My heart was galloping, just like someone was holding her heart tightly, making her internal organs hurt, from the scalp to the toes. She wanted to take a painkiller to get the effect. When I thought of getting up, I went to find the painkiller in the medicine box. She didn't want it to hurt so much.
Fang Xiaomu rummaged through the boxes and Guan Le didn't know what she was looking for, so he followed her to search. It was not until Fang Xiaomu took out the medical box that Guan Le looked at Fang Xiaomu up and down: "Are you injured? Where is the injury? Let me see?"
Fang Xiaomu still said nothing, and continued to lower his head and search in the medicine box. Finally, she found a medicine bottle, which contained the painkillers prepared by Uncle Yu. She smiled happily, opened the bottle, poured out the pills, and sent it into her mouth. Feng Le grabbed his hand and took away the pills and bottles. He looked carefully at the words on it, and the three words were so clear.
The person who was feeling emotional was not Fang Xiaomu but Fengle. He took Fang Xiaomu into his arms regardless of the slightest care, hugged Fang Xiaomu tightly, touching her head with heartache, and said, "Xiaomu, if you really hurt so much, you will cry, and it will not hurt so much after crying. I know that what you need most now is time. Gradually, you will forget. Feelings are something that everyone has to experience, not every couple in love can be together. Sometimes we just want to open it, and experiencing not having it is a kind of possession." I never thought that Fang Xiaomu was so painful that it needed painkillers to relieve the pain.
Fang Xiaomu could no longer help crying loudly in Fengle's arms, tears pouring down. Fengle's chest wet, and the hot tears burned Fengle's heart. He just hugged her tightly, letting her cry in his arms and cry to the fullest. Since he needed to pass this level, let him bear it with her.
He cried until he thrust, and said, "Why do you treat me like this? It's obviously not like this. I ran all the way to England to find him, just thinking that he still loves me. There must be some reason that he has to push me away like this, but what I didn't expect was that Wei Wei was already pregnant with his child. It turned out that my previous thoughts were all wrong, and it turned out that I was willing to act and be self-indulgent. But do you know? Even if he treats me like this, I still don't want to give up. Happy, am I too cheap?"
"You are not allowed to say that to yourself. You are the bravest and kindest girl I have ever seen. He is not blessed to you like this, and has no vision, and has nothing to do with you." Guan Le didn't like Fang Xiaomu to say that to herself.
Slowly let go of Fang Xiaomu, looked at her crying little face, she was already crying white, wiped off the tears on her face, and said to her gentlely: "Xiaomu, as long as you remember, no matter what you are not alone, I will always be by your side. No matter what other people want to leave you because of something, I will never leave you. I think about it now and I don't know when I started to like you, but when I think about it carefully, my liking for you has no beginning, but slowly, slowly you have taken root in my heart, so I don't allow you to say that, because in my mind you are the best girl in the world. It's his loss for others to give up on you, and it has nothing to do with you, so you are not allowed to belittle yourself again in the future. OK?" I have never felt so gentle.
At this time, Feng Le said this to her. Fang Xiaomu looked at his tender eyes and couldn't bear to refuse him. When he said those words to himself in the hospital, he wanted to find a separate opportunity to tell him that he didn't want to give him any expectations. Fang Xiaomu was afraid that he would let him down. Feng Le was a good boy and deserved a better girl to give him wholeheartedly: "Le, thank you for saying these words to me, and thank you for always appearing by my side when I was in the most difficult and needed help. I know how good you are to me, but, but I am just a friend's relationship with you. You are so good, I can't deserve you. So I just joked about what you said."
"No, Xiaomu, I'm not joking. Every word I say is heartfelt. I can understand and accept your thoughts now. You don't have to rush to reject me. I don't want your response now. Telling you these words is just to let you know that there is always me around you. When do you think I can, and when will you answer me when you want to accept me? If you still haven't forgotten about flying in the end, I won't blame you. Even if you treat me as a spare tire, I'm willing to be your spare tire. If you don't want me to be your spare tire, then I'll be your friend for life?" The other party Xiaomu has already loved this level. As long as he can be with her, he will be willing no matter what his identity is.
"This is not fair to you, I won't do this." Like it, like it, not like it, and if you don't like it, you don't like it. If you don't like it, treat it as your spare tire, even Fang Xiaomu will dislike himself.
Feng Le shook his head, which he was willing to: "It doesn't matter, as long as you are happy, you can do anything."
"Thank you, lee. But I won't do that." Besides saying thank you, Fang Xiaomu didn't know what else to express his current mood: "It's getting late, you can go back early to rest. I'll go to bed early later and prepare to look for a job tomorrow. Life is enough to cry, and life still has to continue."
After hearing Fang Xiaomu say this, Guan Le was relieved: "Then I will leave first, I will pick you up tomorrow. You should need a driver when you find a job, right?"
"No need, I'll make an appointment with Tang Tang tomorrow." Fang Xiaomu didn't want to bother with Peng Fu in everything.
"It's settled, see you tomorrow at 9 a.m.." After that, he opened the door and walked out.
Fang Xiaomu watched Feng Le walk out blankly. He was always so kind to him, which would make her feel even more guilty. He felt that he owed him a lot of things and was lucky enough to make people. If Feng Le didn't push her away again and again, there wouldn't be so many things now. If she hadn't chosen to return to China, maybe she would still be alone in the UK now living without worries except her mother.
Chapter completed!